Jennifer K.

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OK Y'all I am a little freaked out right now!!  I am starting to be able to eat larger portions of foods and it's really freaking me out!!!!  Like the other night I ate a half of a grilled chicken breast and about a 1/2 cup of peas and carrots.  And this morning I ate 1/2 C. of egg beaters (equivalent to 2 eggs) w/ 1/4 C. of shredded cheddar and some salsa, a half of a slice of bacon and a whole kiwi!!  I am only 7 and a half months out and I'm afraid I'm eating too much.  I mean I DO get full!!  That's not the problem but some days it seems like I can put some food AWAY and others it seems like the smallest amounts of food fill me up...it's so weird!  I know I can eat ALOT more soup or soft foods like cottage cheese than I can meats and and breads but was my breakfast too much at this stage?????????  Maybe I should just not try and push it.  I don't want to stretch my pouch out!!  That's my biggest fear is that I will stretch my pouch out and gain my weight back.  I'd rather DIE than be as big as I was before my surgery!!!!!!!!!!!!  (OK that is a little exaggerated but I really do get scared about how much I can eat sometimes!!)  Does anyone else feel this way???  Please share your thoughts on this!!!
 

OK this is more of a rant than anything.  I've come to realize how shallow people are.  How they indeed treat larger people differently than smaller people.  Like we aren't meant to even breathe the same air or some crap!  The more weight I lose, the more I realize how shallow men (and women) were to me when I was 110 lbs heavier  LOL (this doesn't include you chubby chasers out there reading this HAHAHA)!!!! I notice how much more attention I get now...hmmmmmmmmmm  I mean, yea, it's flattering and even amusing but at the same time it really PISSES ME OFF!  Mostly because I have been on both sides of the fence (well I'm getting to the "skinny" side LOL) and to see the truth that thinner people really DO  get treated differently just because of their size just urks me in the WORST way.  It's not just assumption anymore...I've seen it first hand!!!!  And I know it's not going to get any better the smaller I get either.   I didn't have this surgery for my appearance...that is just one of the pros to the whole thing.  I did this for MY health and for my family.  I didn't want to end up with diabetes and other co-morbidities resulting from being overweight.  I'm the same damn person I was 110 lbs ago and I will continue to be the same person when I am thinner and healthy =D  I thought I was a VERY beautiful person on the inside as well as out before my surgery and of course I think the same...well even more so now! haha  I've had people say how great I look now, which makes me feel incredible but then there's some that make me feel like I was ugly when I was heavier and that just makes me upset because I know I was still a beautiful woman even at my heaviest.  So...my rant is this...to all of you shallow people out there...QUIT!!!!!!  It's not right at all.  It's hateful and mean and fat people beat themselves up enough....they don't NEED YOUR HELP DOING IT!  OK I'm done...thanks for reading this!  xoxo <3333333    

So, after replying to one of my e-mails on my OH website, I realized I had some thoughts I needed to get out.  OK, I thought at one point, did I REALLY need to have this drastic surgery to lose weight and be healthy?  I had family members saying, after seeing how easy it is for me to make healthy eating decisions and my want to exercise, I could have done this on my own.  But could I?  Looking back at myself, I was happy with the person I was but not with my health going down the crap shoot.  I was 378 lbs people and damn near in a size 30 jeans.  That was the FINAL STRAW!!  I wasn't getting smaller...with every child I put on more weight and then feeding a family of 6 it was just easier to stop and get fast food or cook processed foods which I was eating alot of and so was my family.  This surgery helped my of course lose weight but also gave me control back of what and how much I was eating.  I prefer to eat healthy and only want to buy the healthiest foods I can afford for my family (no I can't go completely 100% organic, all natural, and minimally processed just yet...but I'm working on it!!).  I do a pretty good job of that.  In return, this surgery has helped my kids live healthier and hopefully won't fall into the same bad rut I was in that ended me up on the OR table getting WLS.  This surgery isn't a quick fix.  It's just a tool to help you lose weight.  You can NOT rely solely on the surgery to lose weight and think you can eat ANYTHING you want and still be successful...that's SO not true!!  It's pretty easy for the weight to come off for the first 6 months or so but after that...it's almost all YOU!  You CAN trick your body into eating more by drinking with your meals but that completely defeats the whole purpose!!  So the surgery is NOT fool proof.  You have to be mentally ready to fully commit to a whole new lifestyle of eating and being active to truly be successful.  So, to answer that question, I think the answer is yes.  I needed the help the surgery gave me to live a healthier life and I would go back and do it time and time again.  I would definitely recommend it to anyone who was in my shoes.
   

For several weeks my weight didn't budge.  I also wasn't taking my vitamins like I should have been, I wasn't getting that much protein in me that I needed, my hair even started falling out.  Anyways, I found this website through another post for a plateau buster.  It's called the 5 Day Pouch Test www.5daypouchtest.com/plan/theplan.html IT WORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I've been drinking my protein shakes again, taking all of my supplements like I should be, and making sure i'm getting a minimum of 64 oz of water/tea in me a day.  I did it exactly like it said and I lost about 6 lbs in 5 days!!  WOOHOO  Which brings me to my next WOW moment...

I LOST 100 POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  OMG OMG OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! I FINALLY DID IT!!



This was one of my main goals and it has been completed!!!  I was beside myself when I saw what the scale read.  I weighed myself like 5 times before I believed it LOL!!  SIGN ME UP FOR THE CENTURY CLUB!!!!!!!!!!!!!  
 

THIS STILL BLOWS MY MIND!!!  SO YEA HERE IS PRE-OP AND MOST RECENT SIDE VIEW =D

98 LBS DOWN!!!!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!

at my fattest       taken May 11th, 2009


   

I'm not done obviously but this is my progress so far!!!  I'M FREAKIN CRAZY EXCITED!

Funny thing is both of these pictures are in the same shirt.  In the first one it was pretty much to small for me.  In the second one it was FALLING OFF of me!!  I couldn't keep from showing my bra.  LOL  So yea, needless to say, I won't be wearing this shirt anymore =D



Before Weight Lost Surgery

 

After losing a little over 90lbs [[picture taken 4/22/09]]

   

OK.......so it's been A LONG time since I wrote a blog.  Let's see.  It's been 5 months and a week to the day.  I have lost 90 lbs and 3 pants sizes so far!!!!!  I was pushing a size 30 (but was still squeezing my fatass into a size 28..LOL)  when I had my surgery at 378 lbs!  Now I'm in a size 24 comfortably at 290 lbs.  First of all, I'm SOOOOOOO HAPPY to be under 300 lbs again. OMG!!!  Second of all, I notice my belly doesn't touch the table at Chilis anymore!!  HAHAHA  How freakin awesome is that?!?!   It's the weirdest things I notice though.  Like, ladies you can understand where I'm coming from here, SHAVING!!!!!!  I used to not even CARE if I shaved my legs or the hoohoo area HAHAHA  Now it's like I can't go without doing it.  My self esteem has always been pretty good.  I was not completely happy wih my body but was comfortable being fat if that makes sense.  NOW it's like I can't get over myself and I'm STILL LOSING!!  I've noticed how much easier it is to sit in the wooden rocking chair too!  I can DEFINITELY tell the weight loss and I'm looking forward to being under 200!  I haven't been under 200 since middle school!  I can't WAIT!!!!!!!!!  THANK YOU LORD FOR MAKING THIS ALL POSSIBLE!!!!!!!!!  
   

Thursday, November 20th, 2008

33 lbs lost in 3 weeks!!!!!!  HOW BOUT THEM WEIGHT LOSING APPLES?!?!!?  If you can't tell...I'm SUPER excited!!!!!!!!  I'm only 3 weeks post-op today and down 33 lbs and that is the most i've EVER lost in that short period of time...well aside from being pregnant with twins!  Thank you family and friends for ALL your support.  You are the best people ever and you know who you are!!!

Friday, November 14th, 2008

Holy crap!  The banana thing was true!!  I didn't eat bananas at all yesterday and low and behold I woke up this morning and weighed myself and I lost more weight overnight!  I really didn't think bananas would have such an effect on me but I guess I can't really have bananas until I'm done losing all the weight I want to lose.  Right now, it's just a hindrance.  It's all a learning process and I learn something knew every single day.  

Thursday, November 13th, 2008 

UGH!!!!!!!!!  NO WONDER!!!!!!!  Ok as many of you know I had gastric bypass surgery on October 30th...exactly two weeks ago.  Within the first week I lost almost 20 lbs and after that I haven't lost hardly any at all!  Well I was reading this artical on bariatriceating.com that said:

"I have noticed that many people add ½ of a banana or even worse a whole banana to a shake. Keep in mind that bananas and many other fruit are high in fructose, which is another name for sugar, and will stall or slow down your weight loss. Bananas also make many people sick from the high concentration of sugar and carbs. Even a medium banana can have 30 grams of carbohydrate. Use a small piece of banana no more than 1-2 inches, to flavor a drink. Or use DaVinci Sugar Free Banana syrup instead!"

Well, needless to say, I've been eating ALOT of bananas lately.  I guess I'm not going to be eating those anymore.  LOL!!!