Nicole *.
This was me pre-op Lap-Band surgery at 320lbs July 2001.
This was the smallest I ever reached with the Lap-Band surgery around 213lbs around a year and half later.
this is me having gained almost all my weight back. I am approx 305lbs in the next few pictures.
March 10, 06
Well I have decided to finally take the plunge and get a revision done to the RNY. My surgery date is scheduled for May 3rd 2006. I'm excited but very nervous. My biggest fear will be that I some how fail with this surgery too. I will keep this profile up dated as the time approaches and after. I'd love to talk to anyone who has gone through a revision like this.
March 30, 06
Well not much to update as of yet. I have been obsessively reading other peoples profiles for inspiration. Which is good and bad, when I read of people who have had complications or people who have gotten revisions done and have had not much more success it scares the hell out of me. I am in contact with a few people who have had revisions and hopefully they can help me avoid the dangers. Well hopefully my next post will be post-op. Wish me luck everyone.
April 17, 2006
Well it's almost 2 weeks till my surgery but I don't think it has sunk in yet. I have my pre-op appointments April 25; I really think it will sink in then. It's been nice I have had many things distracting me lately so I haven't dwelled as much on the things that could go wrong as I did with my first surgery. I'm not nervous in the least about getting through the surgery its self. What I am worried about is failing after the surgery. Because that's it, there are no more options if this fails for me. I want so badly to be skinny. I have spoken to a few people who got a revision done and who have not had the type of success that most first timers have. I have been trying to track down the reason to this but have not been successful. The best I have heard is that they developed a grazing habit with the band. As most of you know this is a big no no with the RNY. The other problem I have read about is that people are still eating sweets and soft foods that slip right through. Luckily I did not develop either of these habits. I think my only down fall will be not drinking while I eat.
I will keep you updated as my date gets closer. If anyone would like to chat and maybe give me some pointers I'd love to hear from you.
April 30, 2006
3 days till my revision to RNY surgery
Wow that’s a little scary to write but I think I have finally passed over to the excited side and no longer the scared to death side. I have been reading a lot of success stories which have help get me excited and gain confidence that every thing will go well. Not much to say as of now just waiting and getting my affairs in order, just in case. Thank god for this site cause I don't think I would have gone through with the surgery if it weren't for this site and the hundreds of success stories.
Here is me on May 3rd just about to leave for the hospital
May 3rd
I know what you are asking, how could she be having the surgery on May 3rd and also updating my profile at the same time lol. Well my surgery got canceled and rescheduled for May 19 GRRRRRR. I was in the little gown and booties when my Doctor took me aside and said that he couldn't do the surgery today cause there where no beds. It very maddening but I couldn’t really have a hissy fit on him cause its not his fault and this surgery is not life threatening so naturally it was the first to get bumped. Let me tell you it has been quite a roller coaster of emotions today, and not the fun kind of. I took it pretty well despite fasting for 24 hours and driving 3 hours. My poor Doctor was really pissed and it didn’t help that the second person that he had to tell after me let him have it. I understand it’s maddening but its really not his fault but she made him feel like some how it was. I felt bad for him. So I will keep you updated as my second date comes closer.
May 30, 06
I weighed myself last night and I have lost 18 lbs so far. I think I have lost more because I'm not sure what weight I was at right before my surgery. Back at the end of April I had my pre-op testing and they weighed me at 299 lbs. But then my surgery was canceled and rescheduled from the 3rd to the 19th. Well needless to say I was not watching what I was eating during those 2 weeks and I know I gained I could feel it in my clothes. But I didn't get a chance to weigh myself before my actual date so I don't have an exact starting off point. I estimate at least another 5 lbs but with the way my clothes felt I'm sure it was more.
June 2, 06
Well I got my staples out yesterday and noticed a difference almost right away. The staple line was becoming very irritated, not the incision its self though which is good. But since I was so irritated the removal of the staples was very painful. And to make matters worst they gave me the wrong staple remover at the hospital. Luckily my doctor had a pair that worked. Oh and I weighted myself in the morning a couple of days ago to get a more accurate number and I have lost 23 lbs, if I use a starting weight of 305 lbs which I have decided to do from now on.
June 11, 06
My incision is all healed up, I have started to put these Biodermis strips on it to reduce the scar I hope it helps. I got them off the internet here:
http://www.biodermis.com/
I am up to 34 lbs lost so far, I'm very excited about that. But of course it can never go quick enough lol. I am finally on puree which helps the head hunger so much. Smells are still killing me but not being hungry helps a lot. I go to see my doctor on the 19th. I have found that I have no energy since I am not eating very much, that’s very hard. And my incision is really hard underneath due to the scar tissue and I find when I bend over it hurts A LOT and I find it hard to stay in a seated position for very long.
June 19th, 06
I went to my first post op appointment today. My doctor is very worried about me cause he says that revision patients have a higher risk of failure since they have learned to manipulate the band and as such are more apt to manipulate this surgery as well. I don’t have this fear though. My problem was not that I learned how to eat around the band it was that whenever I did get a “proper” fill I would experience pain every time I swallowed. So I had it loosened and ended up not using it at all. Where as with this surgery I have no pain at all, I could almost cry. This is exactly what I wanted 5 years ago, I really HATE that I wasted those 5 years of my life.
My doctor told me that my surgery was very difficult because my stomach lining was very thick. He said this might be a reaction from the band. That my stomach didn’t tolerate the band and became thick, maybe to protect its self from the band. It is so nice to be able to finally prove to everyone who said “you must be doing something wrong” that in fact it was NOT my fault, and that the band in fact officially didn’t work for me.
I am now at 37 lbs lost. I think I have hit a bit of a plateau, mostly cause I have had major constipation and I started my period. Hopefully it will gear back up at the end of this week.
June 28, 06
I weighed myself yesterday and am now at 43 lbs lost. My next mini goal will be 45 lbs lost putting me at 260 lbs which is the weight I met my fiancé at. Then my next goal will be 250 lbs which has no significance but its just a good round number. Then my next goal is 240 lbs, that one will be a little tougher but I can't wait to get there.
June 29th 06
Well I hit my mini goal I am at 260 lbs, 45 lbs lost. Pretty cool eh and I haven't even started exercising yet. I'm going to wait till my strength increases a little and when I get my B12 shot on the 6th. That should help a lot. I have been noticing that in the mornings I get very nauseous when I drink water. The worst part is that I normally wait till close to noon to eat or drink anything. I really have to find something that will work in the morning cause what I am doing just ain’t healthy. I end up only having 2 meals a day and they are crazy small meals.
July 6, 06
I think I have hit another stupid plateau again. I weighed myself this morning and have only lost 1 pound since the 29th. Not to mention I have been really sick for the past 3 days with the flu and a killer sore throat. I think its cause I haven't been active but its tough when you can't even get out of bed to answer the phone let alone get any exercise. Hopefully my next post will be a more exciting one.
July 10, 06 = 258 lbs
Its amazing what effect metabolism has on weight loss. I have hit a nasty plateau and actually have been fluctuating 2 pounds for the last week. Its scaring the hell out of me cause of the high failure rate that revision patients have. So today Monday July 10th I am officially starting my exercise regime. No more, oh I'm too tired this is crunch time. My parents are gone away for 3 weeks and will be stopping by on there way home and I want to BLOW THEM AWAY!!!!! So here I go.
July 12, 06 = 256 lbs
So my little bit of exercise seem to have paid off. Its pretty sad how little I was able to do before I was sprawled out onto the couch gasping for air lol. I know its gonna get easier but man starting is tough.
Fly butterfly fly, fly away with my fat and never come back. July 17th, 06 = 254 lbs
Nothing too new too report I am now officially at 50 lbs lost, well actually 51 lbs. I did that in exactly 8 weeks. That is .85 lbs a day and 6.38 lbs a week. Not too shabby but I wish of course it could be a lot faster. I know that’s unreasonable but I am fat and I know that all you fat people can relate to me about wanting it NOW.
Well I finally took some new photos today. I am now at 249 lbs which is 56 lbs lost. I'm pretty excited that my plateau has finally lifted.
Here are a couple of incesion pictures, and yes they did hurt as much as they looked like they do.
July 26, 06
I have managed to resist the urge to weigh myself every day. I have decided to only weigh myself once a week every Saturday. It will be a bonus this Saturday cause its my birthday, hopefully I’ll pull in some big numbers to start off my day on a good note. I just got home from the gym which I am proud to say I have been attending every day for the past 3 days. I’ve been going with my best friend Amy. Its funny I really didn’t want to go today cause I was sore and tired from the past 2 days but she made me and even came to pick me up. We go on the treadmill and since she is way more advanced then me our last 5 mins she runs at a pace of 4.5. So I decided to try it out too, (I normally walk at a pace of 2.8) So I ran for I think it was 20 seconds, which may not sound like a lot but it is for me. So I put it back down to 3.2 which is still high for my normal. I decided to keep that pace till she was done her 5 minutes of running. Let me tell you I was counting down the seconds and 5 min came and went. She kept running so I thought well she can keep going for too much longer, each min that went by I’d look at her and she would smile at me and keep going. She made it to 11 minutes. She later told me she kept going cause she wanted me to keep going at that pace to give me a better work out. I mean that’s what friends do and I love her for it. I now want to die, but I still love her for it.
July 30th, 06 - 248 lbs
Well yesterday was my birthday and I am officially 31 yrs old.
I went to Yuk Yuk's a comedy club then out to the bars. I made one discovery that alcohol doesn't make me dump which is not such a good thing, although I am not a big drinker its nice to know that I can have a drink or two on a special occasion. I had fun, danced a lot but despite loosing 57 lbs I still felt so out of place around all the little skinny girls at the bar. Oh and you may have noticed that yes I didn't pull in very many "big numbers" what so ever this week. Kind of a bummer considering it was my birthday. But my boyfriend says he can see that I lost weight this week and I know I gained muscle. I exercised almost every day which made me sore as hell which = muscles. That’s my story and I am sticking to it.
Aug 6th, 06
I finally hit 60 pounds lost which puts me at 245 lbs. I'm very excited but would have liked to have reached my 240 goal by now. Last week I only lost 1 pound which seems to happen every other week. It really sucks.
Aug 13, 06
I only lost 2 pounds last week putting me at 243lbs and ate like a crazy woman this weekend cause I went to visit my best friends home town. My best friend struggles with weight too and got the Lap-band done. So of course most of the places she wanted to show me in her home town where centered around food. Its scary how a like we are about food, yet not about anything else. I normally eat maybe 2 meals a day if I am lucky and I never snack, well this weekend was one big snackfest. I feel so guilty.
Aug 27th, 06 = 236 lbs
I lost 5 lbs this week, I'm so excited. My body is finally giving in a little, its been loosing but not without kicking and screaming the whole way. So that puts me at 69 lbs lost. I have not been keeping up with my vitamins and feel like crap because of it. I really have to get on myself for that cause I can tell I am becoming anemic due to low iron. Also I am getting side effects from missing my last B12 shot last month. Going into this I knew I would be stuck taking vitamins for the rest of my life but I started falling back into my old lap-band habits which was not taking them. But with the Lap-band its not as serious cause there is nothing bypassed, everything is still absorbed. I took it for granted that I could get the vitamins from my food. Well I sure am getting my ass kicked with this surgery and am learning the hard way that I CANNOT forget to take them. I have been very good the last 3 days, well its a start right.
Sept 2, 06 - 234 lbs
I hit the 70 lbs lost mark. I am very excited. I have also gotten a lot of reassurance about my bruising being normal from some Yahoo Group groups I belong too so I am feeling much better. I will still ask my doctor on Wednesday but a least I know that I am not alone.
Sept 9th, 06 - 231 lbs
Ohhhhh one pound short of 75 pounds lost!!!! Man this is getting exciting. Although it hasn't been as worry-free as I had hoped. I have noticed lately that I'm feeling weird. I don't know what its from either. I feel like I am weak and shaky and my arms are feeling heavy, weak and a little numb. I am also feeling like my heart is racing and is in my throat. I really don't know what its from but hopefully its not anything too serious. I have paperwork to get my blood work done but my family doctor doesn't want me to get it done till the end of the month cause back on the 6th I get a B12 shot done and if I get the test down too early it would show the B12 amounts as too high. I have looked it up and with my symptoms the only thing I have found is a B12 deficiency. I really hope its nothing more serious and am counting down the days till I can get the blood test done. My best friend things it may be that I am not eating enough, or at least not the right things. So this week I am going to really concentrate on what I am eating and eat as good as I possibly can. We'll see if that helps.
Sept 21, 06 - 228 lbs
I know I normally only weigh myself on Saturday's but I was feeling extra fat today and needed a boost so I weighed myself today and am at 77 lbs lost. Wouldn't it have been funny if I didn't loose anything, not much of a motivator but I took a chance. I started taking a B complex and have noticed it has helped my arm numbness a little. I can't wait till I get my blood work done, all this self diagnosing is starting to make me a bit nervous.
Oct 18th, 06 - 222lbs
I know I am not supposed to weigh myself during the week but I visited my family for the past 2 weeks and was not able to weigh myself on my scale. I weighed my self Monday morning and am at 222 lbs, putting me at 83 lbs lost. I received my blood tests back and they where all normal, which has started to really make me panic that there maybe something actually seriously wrong with me since it is not my vitamins. Its been a very vicious circle with my hair loss too. I have been loosing hair like crazy which has begun to also worry me which makes me my hair fall out even more from the worry. I really don't know how to stop the worrying and wish someone could help me. I'm so scared. I actually had a panic attack on the phone with my fiancé after telling him that my Doctors office told me my blood work was fine. He thinks I am just over thinking it and causing it all from worry alone, but I really don't think he is right. Ok I maybe a little over worried and over exaggerating my symptoms a bit but I truly don't think that it is all for nothing. I mean I really do feel weird and not like myself. Plus my arms are still numb and tired which is not normal either. Anyway I'll keep you all posted.
Dec 2nd, 06 - 208 lbs
Dec 25th, 2006
I am in ONDERLAND. I have been witing over 15 years to say those words. I feel like I could just burst. I wished to be under 200 before the new year, and secretly wished for it for Christmas and it happened. I couldn't be happier.
Jan 7, 07
Well the new year is upon us and in some areas my life couldn’t be going any better. I have lost 113 lbs to date and am down to 192 lbs. I feel really good and surprisingly I don’t actually miss food as much as I thought I would. Now comes the dreaded loose skin. The only spot that has been bothering me a lot are my breasts. Or should I say my former breasts. Its so gross, when I lay on my back they slide to my sides and literally touch the bed. Its so embarrassing I hate taking off my bra in front of my BF. But I still have over 50 lbs to loose still so I don’t want to get any skin removed yet but I am starting to look like one of those woman in the National Geographic who’s boobs hang past their navel. With a bra on I look pretty good though.
I went clothes shopping and I fit officially in a size 16 pant and X-1X shirt, and a small in Cotton Ginny Plus clothes. That practically brings tears to my eyes, I’m so happy. Its all the little things that are the coolest too, things I had forgotten about like crossing my legs or sitting cross legged on the floor and then getting up without effort. Its pretty cool.
When I said that some areas where going well and some where not I was referring to what I had pictured my life to be like after loosing 100 lbs +. I always thought the reason I didn’t have lots of friends or have plans every weekend was because I was fat. Skinny people who have active interesting lives didn’t want to have fat friends. Well nothing has changed in that department so far. I know its not realistic to think that weight should have anything to do with friends, but I had fooled myself into thinking some how, some way it would help. I need to find some new hobbies.
Jan 16th, 07
192 lbs
Jan 27th, 2007
well my plateau has finally lifted. I lost 4 pounds this week which puts me at 188 lbs and 117 lbs lost to date. I have been having some problems with dizziness and I have an appointment with my family doctor on the 31st. I'm pretty sure its my gall bladder or low blood sugar but we'll see. I'm not going to go into more detail on this site but if you'd like to ask me questions and will NOT slander me and post my answers on the boards here by all means drop me a line.
Feb 13th, 07 185 lbs
Well I hit another mini plateau but it seems to have lifted today cause I am down another 3 lbs putting me at 185 lbs. And My fiance and I have FINALLY set a date for our wedding which will be Oct 6th 2007. I'm so excited. I have already bought my dress unfortunatly pre-op and it is a size 18. I tried it on a couple of weeks ago and I am swimming in it. I'm a size 14 right now, who knows what size I'll be in 9 months. I really hope they can shrink it cause I love it soooooo much it makes me look like a princess. I finally bought a normal persons size shirt. Its an XLG. I don't remember the last time I was able to shop in a normal size store. I think this has been the most exciting thing to happen to me to date.
Feb 17, 07 182 lbs
I have discovered a cool little phenominan. I have found that the more I eat the more I loose. Go figure eh. Now when I say more I'm not talking Christmas Dinner but if I add maybe another meal during the day or maybe eat a bit more at a meal or 2 the weight just seems to melt off. Within the last 2 weeks I have gone from 187 to 182. Thats pretty cool. My fiance and I have finally set a date for out wedding. Its Oct 7th,07. In less then 2 days I have pretty much booked everything including the hall the officiant, DJ, videographer and the photographer. My only concern is my dress. Back when I got the Lap-Band and had lost 90ish lbs I bought a dress, with the plan to wed within that year. I bought it at size 18 cause at the time I was a size 20. Well I am now a size 14 and am swimming in the dress already. Who knows how small I am going to get by Oct so I may have to sell the dress and buy a new one if they can't shrink it down 10 + sizes.
This is me in the dress but although you can't see it my mom is hiding behind me holding folds of fabric at my waist.
March 07, 07
I weighed myself this morning hoping to have kicked my plateau and woo hoo success I shed 3 more pounds putting me at 180 lbs. The reason I say 3 lbs is cause I gained a pound last week GRRRRRR. Things are going fabulous, I feel great and am still getting compliments which is pretty cool. I can shop in some regular stores, that still blows me away. If only I didn't have this loose skin, yuck. But I guess I shouldn't complain. I have started a new position at my the place I was working at and I have been really working my butt off. I am so tired when I get home that I barely have the energy to putter around the house let alone go to the gym. I'm hoping I'll get used to the increased work load and get back to normal soon. I think thats why I have stalled so badly. Either that or its cause I am gaining muscles from work. But I think that is more a dream then relality I'm afraid.
March 10, 07
I'm no longer obese WOO HOO. I am now only overweight.
April 8th, 2007 - 173lbs
Well the last couple of weeks have been a major tease. I have gained and lost 2 pounds putting me back at the weight I was on Mar 25th. Very depressing but at least I am back on the down slope right. I went to visit my family last weekend and everyone was so shocked. I never get tired of hearing people say how small I look. Here is a picture taken on that weekend:
This is me and my sister Anne. Its funny we have always been complete opposites our whole lives. She has always been skinny and blond where I was always fat with dark hair. I have 2 amazingly beautiful cousins too who have always been skinny it was like I never fit into our family. The 4 of us have always been really close and act more like sisters then cousins, they are amazing. And its only now that I feel like I fit, I know they have never felt like that but I always did, one of my greatest regrets is that I ruined their wedding photos cause I certainly was the one who stuck out being so big. I am so excited about my wedding cause I am going to get an amazing photo with the 4 of us to prove that I really am one of the beautiful Goudreau girls and that I finally match.
April 9th
I jumped from 173 lbs on Sat to 169 lbs today. I can't believe it!!! How cool is that. I must have put my scale like 20 different places on the floor around my kitchen to make sure. I even took a photo as proof lol. Have I mentioned I LOVE THIS SURGERY. Ok just checking.
April 25th, 2007
Man the time just seems to be flying by. I went to my grandmothers funeral this weekend and saw all my extended family. They hadn't seen me since just before my surgery last year at my biggest. There where a few shocked looks to say the least. I mistakenly packed the wrong pants and ended up bring some old size 16's I am now a size 12. I was freaking. My wonderful cousin Suzie said I could try her pants on, they where a bit casual but at least they where black. I held them up and got a sick feeling in my stomach and almost a tear in my eye, there is NO way I was gonna fit into these she is like a size 8. But I tried them anyway and they fit. Can you imagine, ok I am not saying they didn't cut off a bit of circulation but I was able to do them up and after doing a few stretches they where actually wearable. I asked my sister to check the size cause I figured maybe they'd be a 10 they ended up being a size 8.
I was very sick this weekend, I had a major cold and barely ate so when I got home and weighed myself this morning I dropped to 164 lbs. Thats 141 lbs GONE!!!! I am so happy.
May 19, ONE YEAR!!!!!
Well its official l have put one year behind me. As a reward I weighed myself this morning and I am down to 160 lbs. So I have lost 145 lbs my first year. I am so happy. I wish I had my camera cause I normally take photos of the scale when I hit milestones like that but I forgot it at a friends. Oh well I'll catch it some other time and post it. I have been taking pictures at each weight change cause I am still in disbelief that I am so light. I truly don't remember the last time I weighed this little, grade school I think. It has been quite the year to say the least but it has FLOWN by.
June 9, 2007
My weightloss is going so much slower now its a little de-motivating. but at least its going in the right direction right. I am down another 2 lbs this week which is really cool that puts me at 157 lbs which is 148 lbs lost FOREVER. My next big goal is 150 lbs cause that will give me a normal BMI. I should go shopping that always reaffirms the weight loss for me. I know I am at that weight cause I see the numbers on my scale, I even take pictures to prove it its still hard to believe till I try on that size lrg or med shirt and it fits. Thats more believable then the scale.
June 17, 2007
Very exciting day for me today. I am now down to 154 lbs. I am so happy. I have a scale shot but its not on my digital cause I lent it to a friend so I'll have to wait till I get it finished and developed before I can post it. My fiance asked why I take pictures of my scale do I think everyone won't believe me. I said no its cause I don't believe it but if I have proof its easier to convince myself that its real. I have lost 151 lbs how crazy is that. According to the BMI chart 151 lbs is still moderatly over weight which means I have lost a moderatly overweight person. That totally boggles my mind, you see now why I need the picture proof. LOL.
June 23, 2007
I have posted the scale shot today. I was talking last week like it would never happen again and that I had to capture it on any kind of film. But to my delight I have stayed at that weight for another week and was able to get a photo with my digital. But each time the scale goes down I panic and take a picture just in case I never see that number again. I know I should stop that but its hard to change 16 years of thinking.
Aug 20, 2007
Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I have been crazy busy with the wedding plans and work. But don't worry I am still on my way down, very slowly mind you but at least still going in the right direction. I am now at:
5 pounds away from what I want to be at for the wedding and 10 from my goal. Wow has it ever gotten harder. I am back to feeling hunger which sucks but I guess it comes with the surgery. With the stress of the wedding I have noticed myself eating a lot more lately too, HORRIBLE habit I must try harder to keep it under control. I have started exercising, I know I should have been doing it all along but I haven't. I have found its the only way to keep loosing, eating less just ain't working any more. Dam efficient body, how dare it get clever like that LOL. I bought a new wedding dress. It was so exciting. I look like a small normal bride, exactly what I always dreamed. I'm not posting any photos cause I want to keep it a surprise for some people who I know come on here and read my profile from time to time (Suzie, Donna, Mom, Anne) He He He I am so evil.
Nov 4, 07 143lbs
Sorry its been so long since I have posted. I have been a bit busy with the wedding and I got a promotion at work. I am holding at 143lbs to 147lbs depending on the time of the month. I have been really neglecting my exercise which I am really concerned about. I hope I can get back on track now that the wedding is over.
My wedding was a dream come true. I was the skinny beautiful bride I always hoped I would be. I had to make sleeves for my dress to hide my bat wings but they turned out perfect. It took us 12 years to get married and the biggest reason was cause I didn’t want to be a fat bride in a white dress. I looked like a princess. I am so happy. I posted a few pictures in my photo section and here are a couple of my favourites:
Feb 21, 2008
I never thought I would be one of those people who stopped updating their profile but it happens. I have stabilized out at between 143lbs to 150lbs. I would like to loose about 20 more pounds and with my shape that would look really good on me but as I have discovered its now up to me. I am definantly no longer loosing without work but that’s ok. I actually want to be more active and go to the gym. I don’t look at physical activity as a chore anymore and think nothing of walking places. I still remember one of my lowest moments of driving my car across the street because I was too lazy to walk and now I couldn’t even imagine taking the car to work which is a 15 minute walk.
I joined our local running club called the Running Room and couldn’t be prouder of myself. I was the person who mocked and scoffed at the runners I passed by in my car but now I am one of them. I am so happy that I have finally stuck to a health improving regime that I set out to so in the New Year. This is the first time in my life.
I’m far from perfect of course but with close on I look pretty good, or so I am told often. I have even begun to pamper myself. I try to look my absolute best every time I leave the house because I actually like the way I look. I actually care. My sister is beautiful and perfectly skinny; I always wished I looked like her. She always looks her best when ever she steps out the door and I always envied her for that. I always thought it was a waist for me to bother but I now understand why she does it and love to do it myself. Wow what a self esteem booster.
My only concern now is all the loose skin. That’s very frustrating because I have problems with bras. Not only are my boobs a couple of empty sacks of skin but the surrounding skin is also very loose. So when I try to get some lift from a bra there is nothing to keep the bra up regardless of how tight I get them. And not to mention skin does not tuck well. So the result of my search is a cup full of loose skin that always hangs low cause the skin on my back is loose too. I hope I painted you a good enough picture its hard to explain without actually seeing it or being there. When I was looking for bras for my wedding dress my friends kept bringing me smaller and smaller bras thinking well if its tighter it will stay up. But like I said skin does not tuck or condense no matter how much you squeeze it. I finally had to come out of the dressing room and show them. It looked like a cup full of skin and I could grab the bra and move it liberally up and down despite the fact that it was so tight it was digging into me I could still move it cause the surrounding skin was also loose. They then understood, sort of.
Oh well I worked it out and despite the loose skin I couldn’t be happier. My husband and I are trying to get pregnant so this will be a new concern and journey for me. I have taken all the precautions I can, had my vitamin and mineral levels checked and am very diligent with my vitamins and am eating as healthy as I can. Hopefully I won’t have any problems. I’ll keep you updated as things progress.
April 15, 08
I did it!!! I'm pregnant 2 months and due on November 12, 08. It didn't take long, we conceived the first month we tried. I am really surprised we didn't have an accedent before then since it was so easy. I did some blood testing before starting to try to make sure my vitamin and mineral levels where good. I have gained 8 pounds which has been really hard to take. I think its going to be really hard to watch myself get bigger and not be able to do anything about it. I'm going to see a nutritionist next week to make sure I am getting everything I should be in.
May 25, 08
well in one week I'll be 4 months. Things are going very well, I have gained 10 lbs so far, which is scaring the hell out of me but I know its necessary. The thing I have found hardest is that I don't feel like I can complain cause when ever I do the people around me either say, its normal don't worry or your just paranoid. I have every right to be scared, I worked so hard to get where I am but I hear about so many people having problems loosing after having a baby. I don't want to be one of those people. I'm embarrased to say that I some times wish I wasn't pregnant and I would have had a bit more time to enjoy my skinny body. Then I feel guilty, and of course I would never admit that to anyone. I was just looking so good at the end, I even started to run. oh well if I keep it under control I should be fine. I'll keep you updated.
Dec 18th, 2008
I had my baby a healthy little boy. My surgery didn't affect my pregnany, thank goodness I was very concered. But it did affect breast feeding. I couldn't get my milk to increase and tried everything. I went to countless lactation consultants and one very expierenced one said she knew of another mother who had had a RNY and she couldn't produce enough milk either. She said that it is very common for woman who have lost a significant amount of weight (over 100 lbs) to have problems producing milk, not just from the surgery. So I am very dissapointed but there is nothing I can do about it.
I gained quite a bit of weight during my pregnancy 50 lbs which put me at 193 lbs but a month and a half later and I am back down to 168 lbs. with no work. I am going to start exercing soon so hopefully I get back down to pre-baby weight soon.
April 17, 2010 wt 169 lbs
Well I never got back down to my goal weight or my pre-baby weight for that matter but I am trying. I was 149 lbs before getting pregnant with Alexander so that not too bad I guess. The honeymoon is definitely
over though. I am hungry a lot more then I thought I would be which sucks and I can pretty much eat a regular meal now. I still have the reactive hypoglycaemia
which really sucks but it does prevent me from going crazy on sugar. My husband and I are trying for number 2 right now so I will have to wait till after to go hard core about loosing. But I will not gain as much with my second pregnancy I can promise you all that. Wish me luck ;-)
