AHHH Dumping!!!

Dec 10, 2006

Well on the weekends me and my husband like to go downtown to take our dogs to the dog park. They have sooooo much fun running and playing with the other doggies that I always want to let them stay as long as I can, even if I am freezing!!! So our normal thing, is to hit the Starbucks after and then take a walk around Cenntineuel ( sp? ) MOST ALL DAYS, I order a tall, vanillia, SF, NF, no foam, extra hot, latte.... but I will admit to having a sweet tooth, and sometimes ordering a kids hot chocolate ( its 8 oz ) I never drink the whole thing, but it's just a comfort thing, I love it in the winter. I never had any problems except for yesterday, Although I will admit I was even more bad than the hot chocolate, I paired it with a small shortbread cookie, but it only claimed to have 5 grams of sugar, so I thought I would be o.k.... NOPE!!! I guess the combo, make me sick, dumping really bad, really, really, really, bad!!! I had to stop and use a gas station bathroom, gross!!! I was sick the whole 45 min drive home, and got even more sick when I got here!!! I don't know why I would eat this, even after I hearing the story of someone on the TN boards getting hecka sick from Starbucks. I think I just get to feeling cocky. I  haven't had any problems for a while... I guess I needed this to wake up, like HELLO, YOU ARE NOT NORMAL, YOU CAN'T EAT THAT CRAP!!! AHHH.... anyway guys it was bad. I guess the only good news I have to report is I am 167, and only 5 pounds from my Christmas goal!!!


OH Lunch

Dec 10, 2006

I met with some of the ladies from OH for lunch yesterday. It was really nice being able to match a face to the posts. :) I hope we can continue to make it a regular thing!!!


Woop, Woop Made into the 160's....

Dec 06, 2006

Well more like 168.5, but hey man I will take it and run ;)

Um, I am getting A little impaient over here...

Dec 04, 2006

Well one really nice thing about having this blog is being able to go back and look at the date and how much I weighed. Cause you know I never write anything down. This morning I jumped out of bed, tinkled, and quickly stripped before I hopped on the scale... all for it to read 170.2. MAN! It's only been eight days, but I want to see it move again. I sweated my ass off yesterday. I don't think the math adds up either.... the amount of calories I am intaking has got to be out numbered by the amount I am working off! I think I am addicated to the scale. It is my very first thought as soon as I wake up. I miss getting up and looseing several pounds all at once. Or then the phase that I went through were I lost a pound every single day... I am not ungrateful and I am not worried that it won't come off, but I am sick of waiting for it!!! 40 pounds untill my goal!!! Only 30 pounds from my doctors goal. And lets see only 20 pounds away from being the lightest I have ever been ( well in my adult life ) When I graduated high school and when I was first dating my husband I weighed about 163-168 ( lol, yes I weighed myself everyday back then too ) So really I am not very far away from what I used to be. I keep asking my hubby, was I this big in high school....? Because right now I feel alot bigger then I did back then. It's weird!!! Maybe I was just happier with myself, and maybe my skin wasn't so streched out and messed up back then. I told my Mom over the weekend that I am starting to save for a tummy tuck and a boob job. She was like WHAT!?!? I told her, yes, do you think everything looks as it should after loosing 100 pounds... she's good with the tummy tuck, but she thinks I should just get a lift and not implants. I also thought of that, but I'm not sure in 40 pounds from now, there will be much to lift... lol. IDK... I leave to visit her in Cali in like 11 days, I can't wait to go HOME! I have really grown to hate TN, no offense but I think it mostly has to do the well, um, HILLBILLY'S around here. I am such a bay area girl it pains me to see ignorant people riding around with rebel flags on there beat up old trucks. I have meet a lot of super nice people here, but I really miss Cali. I wish we could afford to move back. I know that we could afford a nicer apartment, but there would be no way we could ever think about buying a house. You can't get anything for less than 500,000 and that is just insane... I think I might be willing to be a renter for life, if one more MTSU kid throws a party above my head again! Geez this has been a lot of rambling, sorry. ;) But oh yeah back to seeing my Mom and my family they haven't seen me for over two years! In my before pics there are some of me and my step dad and her, that was at my wedding party, which was like a month before the last time I saw them all. So I look a lot different now! I think my Mom is the reason I have a weight problem ( well isn't it always the mothers fault? lol ) she is sooooo picky with me! She'll see a picture of me, ( like the one by the tree I sent her ) and she was like "ohhhh hunny you look sooooo good.... you just need some eye makeup, gloss, and oh yea highlights. Chunky highlights, don't let them put thin strips in your hair tell them bold. Oh also you look so much better in black, then the pink your always wearing...." I AM RIPPING MY NON HIGHLIGHTED HAIR OUT, AS SHE SPEAKS!!! Now I realize that she means well, and just wants me to look my best, but why can't she ever just say, you look great. Period, no extra stuff attached.... Anyway I am going to go, I have to get dressed and head off to pilaties even though I feel like crawling back in bed and sleeping the day away :) 

shopping!!!

Dec 03, 2006

Ok, one would think that since I lost a 100 pounds I would have an easier time shopping.... welp, yes and no! I am sitting in loose 14's so I do have more options as far as stores, but not really! Old Navy I love for tops and sweaters also there PJ's are really cute. But for some reason the jeans never fit me right, as far as my shape. The only good thing about them is they run big so there 14's are really loose on me and it makes me feel skinny, lol. Normally I shop at Deb's for jeans, but yesterday all they had were jeans with hella sequins and stuff all over the back pockets and around the ankle, UHG. I would never wear those. So I dared out my comfort zone and went into Macy's, I used to shop there, but it's been a long time since I could fit. They only have 13's for junior's ( i know im in my 20's but i don't want to venture over to the ladies side, for the peg leg jeans ya'll ) and they were too small!!! I could zip them, but it wasn't pretty.... ROTFL. So I went on to the "trendy" stores that I always wanted to shop at, the biggest size they carry is 11/12, and a small looking 11/12 at that. I ordered some stuff from American Eagle, on there website they have sizes up to 18, in stores only 14, and I have heard they run small, but they have super cute stuff. Anyway I guess I am just too small for the places that I used to shop and too big for the places that I want to go!!! Give me a few months though ima be tearing up the mall. Yesterday was fun, but my hubby isn't much of a shopper I love to go into stores and look around even if I know I am not going to buy any thing. He is always looking for the nearest seat! As for weight loss I am still here at 170, Monday I need to go straight to the gym and really shock my body.... No more total body conditioning, that class put me out for too many days after it!!!


100 POUNDS GONE ( oh yeah and my christmas goal update )

Nov 27, 2006

I woke up this morning and found the scale to read 170. That means I have lost exactly one hundred pounds!!!! OMG....Woop, Woop!!! This also means I am only 8 pounds away from my mini goal for Christmas!!! After I weighed in, I felt so uplifted that I tryed a new class at the y today. "Total body conditioning," and damn they are not lying. I felt like I needed to be bought to my car on a strecher after that class. Next time I will know not to go on the treadmill before hand. I liked it though, even if I am majorly sore!!! It's an hour of weight lifting and push ups, and squats. I need that though esp. weights for my arms. And since I am not displined enough to lift weights on my own, this will help! I am glad tomarrow is Tuesday though, cause it's pliaties. I will appreachate that class much more now!!!


Stress and Snacking....

Nov 25, 2006

Well when they say that your hunger will come back they didn't lie! For the first time lately I have been feeling "hungry" head hunger mostly, and also have been giving in to the urge to snack. I feel miserable about it, I was trying to lie to myself, by saying "oh I can eat such a little amount of this it won't matter." But I know that is NOT true. And that kind of denial is what put me into this situation anyway. I have been under a ton of stress lately, so I think that is contributing. First my mother inlaw totaled my car, and now hubby and I are sharing his crappy car!!! Money is super tight and with the holidays here it just sucks even more. I am leaving to go home to California in a couple weeks, and I have a LOT of anxiety about it. I don't know how I am going to feel about my extended family members asking me questions about my WLS ( I am sure my Mom blabbed to them all ) UHG... I don't know. Also my Step-Dad has cancer and was only given a few more months to live. This has been an EXTREME stress on me. I have so many mixed emotions, he and I have had our difference but he has been my Step-Dad since I was in 11. I love him, I feel horrible, for him, for my mom, for me, for everyone! I just can't imagine how it's going to be to see him and know that it will be the last time. I am normally so horrible about showing people how I feel about them. I don't know. Also hubby is in the process of trying to join the navy, which has been stressful cause he had to loose 50 pounds to qualify. He only has 18 more to go, but the sooner he get's to be able to go to MEPS, I know that will mean the sooner it will be until he will be leaving me for many months. I feel almost overwelmed with everything. ICK, Ima go for now, I feel better now that I go to vent ;)

6 weeks out VS 6 months out!

Nov 20, 2006

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Hmmm.... Break a plateau?

Nov 12, 2006


I got this from the main board... Think this will work?

Do this for 10 days to break plateau

1) Drink 2 quarts (64 oz) of water a day

2) You must have 45 grams of protein supplement and all your vitamin & mineral supplements each day

3) you may consume up to 3 oz. of the following high-protein foods, 5 times a day:
• beef
• pork
• chicken
• turkey
• lamb
• fish
• eggs
• low-fat cheese
• cottage cheese
• plain yogurt or artificially sweetened
• peanut butter
• beans/legumes

You may also have:
• sugar free Popsicles
• tea or coffee
• sugar free sodas
• sugar free Jell-O
• broths and bullions
• Crystal Lite drinks

4) IF IT IS NOT ON THE LIST YOU CANNOT HAVE IT FOR 10 DAYS


6 Month Nutritian Visit

Nov 06, 2006

I went to Vanderbilt today for my 6 month nutritian visit with Molly. I weighed in at 179!!! That is a total of 91 pounds gone forever. I am so happy. She said I was doing great, right on track to where I am supposed to be. She said the standard more exercise, more protien, more vitamins, lol. But overall she said I am doing very well. I don't have another appt. until my year mark, so I am on my own until then. I went to step class today, I want to be on track for my christmas goal!!!

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