A Smaller Me

Jul 28, 2009

I just wanted to share my joy. I feel like I have been on such a horrible ride in the past 3 months. It was nightmarish and full of days with endless tears.

I have learned to not take life for granted, to go to bed with no regrets. This summer has been full of days that I have accomplished goals. I have gone swimming with my kids, for the first time ever, I bought a bathing suit to go swimming with, and yesterday... yesterday boy, was a big one. I went to Lake Compounce for a mommy/daughter day with my oldest baby Ashlyn.  Lake Compounce is a theme park right here in Bristol CT. I live 3.5 minutes away from its entrance!!!

It has been 8 years since I have been to an amusement park for fear that I wouldn't fit on the rides, people would laugh at me and I would be embarrassed. I let me hold me back. It probably wouldn't have been much fun 85 pounds ago, considering the roller coaster and swings were a snug fit yesterday.. but hey. I did it, Ashlyn and I sat in the very front seat of the Boulder Dash roller coaster, we took a picture, she was smiling from ear to ear, its a good thing that drop comes early because I had tears in my eyes that were blown away by the 60 MPH we were traveling. I felt so happy to be a "regular normal mom" and be able to enjoy the small stuff with her that I have missed out on for a long time. Even tho this year was the first she was tall enough to ride the roller coaster!!!  I just must say the pain and hardship slowly fades, and the joy of simple things comes back.. slowly, but you learn how to deal, and it gets easier!!!

Tonight hubby offered a date night to include mini golf and dinner where my best friend waitresses, so I need to go beautify myself for that!! We also have an ADULT trip planned to 6 Flaggs in August, where I think I shall feel like a teenager all over again!! I am so excited and happy to be getting back to LIFE again!!

Thanks for reading,

Jeannie

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