jen2bsur
Hello, My name is Jennifer and I am considering weight loss surgery. Just not sure which one yet.
I will be attending a Seminar on Tues Sept 23rd, 2008 as my first step. I have gone to one before but like 4 years ago. I have been seeing the clinics diet and exercise program offered but so far it has not helped.
I have been over weight my whole life. Ever since the 4th grade when I began to really notice all the teasing. I used to hide and eat food everyday after school just to cope with all the teasing. I hated myself, life, and everyone around me who was my age. I seemed to only get along with the adults because they were the only ones who treated me fairly. Kids are cruel and I just do nto want to see myself having to face it with my kids.
I gained always but never really seeing myself lose while in school even till I graduated college. Then once out of school I would work and try to do all I could to lose the weight and yet only seeing myself fail everytime. I have had failed relationships over the years and just never really understood where I fit in with the world, family, and those who I thought loved me.
I met my husband back in 1999 and we were friends for a year before we actually met. Yes, Online works wonders for a fat girl. However, I thought he was different. However, I have been living with his ever changing emotions about my weight for the past 10 years and 6 of them married. We have 2 beautiful boys Zechariah 5 and Jacob 2. Though we argue about eating and exercise sometimes it is just a never ending circle of emotions.
In 2000 I joined a gym to help myself try to loose weight before we got married. I dropped from 265lb.s to 200 by our wedding date May 25, 2002. Just to learn 2 weeks later we were expecting our first son. I cried that day. Funny how when I learned I was pregnant with both my children I cried tears of fear and saddness because I knew the torment that was going to come with weight gain. At least with Jacob I walked on a treadmill till the day he was born and with complications he came 5 weeks early.
My husband blames me for the complications because I am overweight and I was gestational diabetic with both my boys.
After my son was born I decided to join another gym and I wanted to really make it stick and work this time. So, I began and as I began to loose my motivation for going I learned how I could become an instructor. Nov. 2006 I became a Water Aerobic Instructor.
Now February 2007 I began to teach many more classes weight lifting, step, strength training, pilates, and water but I found out that I am also Type II Diabetic. So, My efforts to loose weight began again in the world of eating. I lost some and then began taking the Byetta shot. It worked great and I lost 47lb.s that year. I began my year 2008 at 207lb.s and man I was looking forward to the day I would see 199!!
It never came.
I became severely sick on the Byetta and had to stop taking that and the metformin. I have been gaining weight slowly all year and as of today I am 229 down 2 pounds from last week.
When I began taking a new medication for my diabetes I decided to go to the Covenant Weight Managment Center to try and see if I could change my diet and modify the classes I teach at the gym to help me loose the weight and I am still gaining. Thankfully I came to them because I know they perform the weight loss surgery there with Dr. Boyce.
So, I have come to the point of either loosing control or taking one more step closer to reality. I will be attending the Weight Loss Surgery Seminar next week and FINALLY take the steps toward getting the help I need to FINALLY loose this weight.
I want this for my health and for my boys. I want to be here to see them have kids and I want to be here to help teach them how to live healthier lives so they will not experience the torment weight can have on a child growing up. I want to have a healthier marriage and relationship with my husband. He is a great provider and father to our boys. I just want the man back that I fell in love with so many years ago. I am tired of the weight standing between me and the real life I have dreamed of forever.
