JenBen72
Gotta step it up since weight loss is slowin down!
Nov 12, 2010
Well life has been pretty crazy lately. I am going to school to be a chef working full time at US Bank and part time at Olive Garden. I consider serving at Olive Garden my free workout! Life has been extremely busy but fun. I enjoy so much having the energy I now have. My weight loss has slowed down I need to kick it up a notch on the working out. Every once in awhile I get stupid and think I can have one little bite of dessert only to have a runny nose and tummache for an hour afterwards.But for the most part I hate eating the wrong foods for my body and a lot of foods I used to love I don't like anymore.I still have a ways to go but I am still 100% grateful for my surgery!
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I even shock me sometimes.....
Sep 24, 2010
Well what a ride this has been. New people I have to tell you the self esteem coming back into your life makes many dramatic changes to your personality. I forgot how feisty I had always been. I have had a job at an insurance company for 5 years and it was a somewhat easy and very lazy sitting in a chair all day job.There is one woman there named Allyson who was the meanest power tripping freak and had given me a hard time since 2005 when I started at the company. She always loved to make sneaky rude comments to me and when I had wls it got worse. Well yesterday they made her my supervisor!!! The old me would have just smiled and suffered as this woman made my life hell. The day before she was hired she made a comment to me about ripping me a new one if she were ever to become my boss.Well the new me was not putting up with that crap. I quit yesterday and told her exactly why. I let her know she was insecure emotionally unstable and a poor leader so she could find someone new to rip a new one on and walked out. Thank God my hubby was supportive when I tearfully came home lol. This morning I woke up with the what have I done??? syndrome. An old friend of mine happened to contact me on FB today and ask me if I would consider working for him as he is a bank manager and it's 3.00 more then the other place!!! I feel really blessed. I guess my caution is be careful of this new outlook it can be dangerous ;)
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September 2010
Sep 07, 2010
So it has been a lot of ups and downs on this journey...so many things I am grateful for.Physically I feel great...sometimes I cannot recognize myself when I pass a mirror! Clothes fitting so good. Sex is way good. But I don't know what it is but lately especially the last few weeks I have been dropping weight like crazy(yay) but I have been an emotional wreck. I seem to go through moments of euphoria and then very low lows...my poor hubby gets the brunt of my mood swings. I sometimes get severe anxiety and depression. Mind you I am one of the most happy go lucky non depressed people you'll ever meet...this is odd behaviour for me. I hope it passes! It really sucks. Crying jags and being super critical of the people I love equal not good times for me and my family. Just wanted to post this to see is anyone else about 6 months out is going loco? I have promised myself I will be extra vigilant in being nice to my hubby even if I have to go take a drive when I am feeling depressed and awful!
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August it's flown by
Aug 22, 2010
Well I can honestly say I am 100% thrilled I made the decision to have my rny! Yesterday in my home we decided we were going to snap my hubby with a towel(my daughter and I) and as my husband ran after me and I swiftly bounded away from him I thought wow...I spend a lot of time whining and crying how long it is taking me to get to Onederland...and here I am a lot lighter, a lot faster, and a whole lot healthier. In six months that is a happy accomplishment! My marriage feels better and more open then ever...my husband is telling me every day I am beautiful. And I get so many more invites to social events...which if I let it could make me butthurt but why should I dwell on the negative. I am more comfortable with myself so it is no wonder people react differently. My husband does occassionally show signs of feeling insecure but I kinda like that he is on his toes. And I'm not gonna lie I am a compliment whore ;) So I do love his attention! Clothes shopping is a joy as size 14 pants now slide ride up my body and button/zip easily! So am I magically skinny...no....but am I a crapload happier and whole as a person hells yeah I am ;)
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Almost July
Jun 28, 2010
Well it's almost July...so much has changed. As I read posts I identify with so many of them. My husband has been truly wonderful we have been working on our marriage and it shows. I have every reason to be happy but boy those hormones have me up and down. Sometimes the scale doesn't move and my whole day is thrown into a tizzy...or sometimes I don't eat the best and another day of the down in the dumps.Other days I am so happy it's almost ridiculous. A good work out at the gym can put me hyper all night like a cocaine addict...lol. It's such a learning process. I feel like I am losing so slow at times...but I do feel a ton better. And people treat me so different. It is nice getting compliments and being told daily I am hot by my husband. I just can't wait for all of my extra fluff to be gone. At 4 months out I thought I would have lost more then 61 pounds...My husband and I are going to a lakehouse in Montana in July. I am really excited about that! Rarely do just the two of us go to have fun together :) This is such a change in my life. Blogging here is a nice way to organize my thoughts!
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Almost June ;)
May 24, 2010
Well the hubby is home and things so far have been going great! We are working out at the gym together and he's been cleaning helpful and we have talked a lot. I'm still waiting for insurance approval for counseling however I am very hopeful so far...the kids are happy and enjoying him back and it looks like he has found an excellent job. I have lost less weight then I had hoped so far so I am upping the protein and increasing the excercise...but it is coming off. My mom saw me yesterday after a month and was floored she said I look great.Sometimes I feel bigger then ever even though I get lots of compliments. I guess I have some self esteem stuff to still work out!
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More in May
May 13, 2010
Well last blog I was on top of the world....I've had a huge trila recently. My husband and I had the hugest fight we have ever had....and I am so uncertain about our future. I still feel happy though. I have kids who love me I am blessed with a great job and my life is on a positive track and I won't let even the love of my life jeapordize that! He comes home tonight and I am excited but also worried and upset it's a strange mix.He has been away for so long and so many times most of me just wants to love and forgive him.I joined 24 Hour Fitness today.The guy that worked there was so kind he told me how his dad had had the rny surgery and how much it helped his life. I enjoyed talking to him very much.Then I went tanning and shopping.I keep nervously cleaning awaiting Genes return.I have been losing a lot lately although my ticker hasn't been seeming to record what I put in. I haven't had much of an appetite.Last month I was for some strange reason more hungry. People at work have been so nice and full of compliments. I still feel at times I am losing slow. I am working towards starting culinary school in July a life long dream of mine! And I applied at the MAC counter at Nordstroms...I am a COACH bag and MAC makeup addict...lol! So a discount would be great! Plus I love people and makeup so might as well combine them! Anyways I guess time will tell how my marriage will be. But even though he got online and acted horrible and I still love him and I hope we can work it out. He defended our country, fathered two beautiful children with me, and has given me nothing but happiness aside from this so I will give him a very fair chance. I just hope he undertstands it's the only chance I'm willing to give.Thanks for letting me vent friends :)
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May 2010
May 08, 2010
Gosh this weekend has been so fun! It feels like my life used to be like a plain bland piece of chicken and suddenly someone put salt on it. It's got flavor...lol :) Last night went to see Flogging Molly and waited in line outside the club for 2 hours and danced till 1:00 am to the band.Today went shopping with my size 4 friend skinny wench ;) and we had sooo much fun! My pants are falling off me and the girl at Torrid said we need to get you some new pants. The ones I was wearing size 26 the size that ended up fitting were size 22 and those were a bit loose!!!My friend and I walked for hours shopping and I didn't get tired at all. No out of huffing and puffing red face next to my friend gliding along gracefully on her long slender legs! I kept right up with her all day and we must of hit like 14 stores! Plus I found an adorable pair of COACH sunglasses on sale :) Always fun! Anyways I feel great! The scales moving again and I feel full of hope and happiness for the future. Plus the best thing my husbands coming home from his deployment on Thursday and done with the army for good!!! He thinks I look skinny!!! It's weird to hear him saying that since I have such a long way to go.
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More about April :)
Apr 26, 2010
So here I am 2 months and a few days post op and I feel pretty great! For awhile I felt like I wasn't losing anything and wondered if my surgery was an epic fail :( But this week I have lost another 6 pounds making my total so far 42 pounds!!!! Which I am just fine with. It's not epic but it's not bad either.I still like to eat now I just eat tiny amounts. My husband came home from the military for a few days and he couldn't stop complimenting me. The passion was wonderful I feel like I have a brand new life. We also had a really horrible fight on one of the days so it's not fairy tale perfect. I am much more feisty now that my confidance is building up! It's a very exciting time in my life as he is leaving the army for good in two short weeks!!! :)
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April
Apr 07, 2010
Well so far I have lost 32 pounds I believe and I feel great! But lately I have really struggled with eating carb foods. Protein hasn't appealed to me very much. And that's very naughty! So I'm going to try to do better. A bit hard not to obsess about the damned scale. Last week I lost a lot and this week it's been 3 pounds and every day the scale hasn't budged(probably my fault for eating carbs) :( I just really want to be succesful at this. I will say that on the bright side I went form a size 26 to a size 22. That made clothes shopping far more fun. Anyways I'm going to try to do better!!!
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About Me
Salt Lake City, UT
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29.7
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Surgery
02/23/2010
Surgery Date
Jan 26, 2010
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