Pardon my French....

Apr 29, 2014

For some reason, shit all of a sudden feels REAL! Like really real! This is about to happen! 3 sleeps and 9 more OPTI shakes! Wowzers! My journey officially started in January 2013....almost 15 months later...I'M ACTUALLY GOING TO HAVE SURGERY!!!!! Friends, family and co-workers have asked me repeatedly if I'm scared and my answer has pretty consistently been no. But the more I think about it, I actually am. I think it's normal to be afraid of surgery, in general...but after some reflection, I'm really afraid of failure. What if it doesn't work? Or what if I fuck up this amazing tool that I'm being blessed with and become FAT again!?!? As much as I try to not let myself go there, I can't help it. I got myself into this fat suit by being lazy and a serious lack of self control. I know now that I do have some amount of control...OPTI has definitely taught me that! lol But what if I get cocky and fall back in to bad habits again? 

 I need to stop writing this...maybe come back later. The more I write, the more I get inside my own head! 

Thank you to everybody for your on-going support! Please know that it's always appreciated, even if I don't say it.

Cheers xox oxo

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