Jennifer C.
My story I am sure is not unique,but it has made me who I am and has made me in the situation I am in now. I was a small child, an average teenager until I was about 16 then I got " curves". Those curves within a few years turned to chubby. By the time I was in my early 20's I was over 200 lbs, I really did not even see it coming. My dad and my mom warned me if i did not get it under control, it would be even harder later (am I the only one who did not listen?). I then started having children, child number one, I was so sick for 5 months and I delivered him at 7 months I lost 11 pounds with that pregnancy, I also had genstational diabeties, it was not too bad, but because I was worried about the baby, I did every thing they said to do. 7 months later, I got pregnant again this time the diabeties was worse and I had to have an insulin shot everyday, I did it ONLY for my daughter, not for me. Two years later another child, 3 shots a day. My OB at this point was saying enough is enough. Two years later my last child, and 5 shots a day, I was told I should have no more children, it is not safe. I was also told if I did not get my weight under control, I would be a full blown diabetic by the time I was 40. I am 37 and right on schedual.I weigh 282 I am 5'3. I have bad knees, ankles a real bad back . My cholesteral is bad (getting better with meds). I am thankful that my blood pressure is good but they warn me at any time it may not be. Never a day goes by that I am not in pain, I am tired ALL the time, I am sad alot because of my apperance. I hate to shop because if it fits it looks huge to me. I am almost in the same postion now I was in when I was pregnant, my fasting blood sugars are going up and I am wondering if I will be able to do what I need to to correct all these things.
My husband is a thin healthy man. He says he loves me as I am,I think he is afraid for me to loose weight, he cooks my favorite fattning foods, he tells me to rest or do nothing when I am tired or hurting he never pushes me to walk or excersize. I told him very recently that he can say all day long he loves me but if I do not fix this or at least start to now, I will be a very sick lady soon.I have to take 15 pills a day for multiple problems the major portion would be gone with weight control.I feel much older then my drivers license says I am.I appreciate this site and all of you in your various stages of weight loss and controling the situation. I think you are all very strong and have done a great job. Thank you for letting me come in here and not feel alone.
