Nearly 15 mos. post op

Mar 22, 2009

So, I've lost a whopping 170lbs since beginning my WLS journey. Truth be told, that's how much I lost my first year! I know it's a lot of weight to lose but I haven't lost any in the past 3 months (but I believe I'm slowly losing inches because I've dropped 2 more pants sizes). My weight fluctuates; one week I'll remain the same weight then two days later I'll gain 5 and then 3 weeks later I've lost the 5lbs. It's been a vicious circle. Sadly, I let the Holiday's get the best of me and I lost focus of eating right and exercising. I've been really bummed that I haven't lost a pound since January but I wasn't really doing anything to change things either. 

SoooOOOoooo....I began walking in the evenings and semi-watching what I eat. I've lost 4lbs in less than a week and I'm super excited about my weight loss again! I must admit that I love walking again. I forgot how great it feels...how great I feel! I'm getting my energy back again and I don't feel as lazy as I did a month ago. Now, I'm at the stage where I REALLY have to work at it to lose the weight and I'm fine with that b/c I feel like I'M doing this and it's not so much my surgery anymore. Oddly, that makes me feel normal again; the average American woman that's dieting and exercising to gain better health lol

My short term goal right now is to lose 20 lbs by the time I go to Vegas (mid-May). If I accomplish this, I'll FINALLY be under 200lbs at that point and I honestly can't remember the last time I was under 200 lbs. I've been 200+lbs all throughout my teens and adulthood. I would love to have plastic surgery by this time next year to remove all of my excess skin. Lord knows, I have skin hanging in places that I didn't know it could hang lol It literally hangs everywhere! lo Unfortunately, I've become self conscious of wearing really short sleeve shirts or tank tops because my arms look like wings lol When I buy shirts and they have short sleeves, I make sure it's no shorter than to my elbow. I'm already missing winter because I could wear long sleeves with no problem.

I'm also itching to become pregnant, too but I know I need to wait until after I have plastic surgery. I know that if I have a baby before then, I would wait a really long time before I have plastic surgery. Then again, I don't want to get the surgery and my stomach stretch back out, too. Decisions, decisions lol

All-in-all, I'm very happy with my surgery and the new life it has given me. I'm not afraid of sitting in chairs with arms anymore or going through turn stiles or worrying about breaking a chair due to my weight or leaving my house afraid of hearing people make comments about my size or see people stare. Believe it or not, I used to have mini panic attacks if I was faced with any of those scenarios. My boyfriend and I were looking at old pictures of us together - pre op - and I was crying because although I know that is me in the pictures, I can't believe how far I've come in such a short time. I was a large woman and I my body felt the weight every second of my super mobid obese lifestyle. It always ached and I was always tired. Ladies & gents, I can honestly say that I never want to go back to anywhere close to where I was 15+months ago. More so, once I'm out of the 200's, I never want to see it again!

For those of you who read this and don't know if you want to get WLS or not, I can truthfully say from the depths of my soul that this was the very best decision I have made for my health. I've always been overweight/obese and to go from my highest weigh-in of 390lbs to 219lbs today, speaks volumes for me. I know I have a long ways to go but the journey is well worth it. For those of you who have helped me through out this time, I appreciate you more than you'll ever know. I know I can count on you when I need you the most.

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