Jessicam2589
My pity part, boo freakin hoo
Nov 03, 2006
I'm a little sad.
Why don't people like me? And I mean this literally. I don't expect people to really answer me, but I honestly can't seem to figure it out. I I mean I have a few friends, but not a best friend anymore. And I can't seem to make more friends. I mean people talk to me, but there isn't anyone I can 100% rely on. They are more like acquaintances. I've always felt that I've been a good friend. I'm always there for my friends whenever they need me. I mean, last year on my birthday, instead of celebrating I ran to my friend who was in need. And thats OK with me. I think that's what friends are for. But why can't anyone do the same for me?
Another thing that bothers me, is I try to make friends on here. Granted I have friends in my friends list, but it seems whenever I try to get to know someone better, we'll exchange an email or 2 and then they never get back to me. I understand people have lives, and I do to, but I feel like I'm making a conscience effort to reach out. I know my story isn't as intense as others, and I'm not all too far out, but I feel like I have some good to share.
I don't know. I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself. I'm lonely. My boyfriend is here for me, but he's sooo far away. I feel like I have no one I can lean on right now. My mom has always been here for me, but I don't live with her anymore and I work 4 nights a week during the evenings. And the nights that I don't work, she's working. I'm pretty close with my sister, but she's 16 and a sophmore in high school. She has a pretty active social life...and doesn't always have time for me. Which I understand, I was the same way.
Yuck...I sound pathetic. :(
Why don't people like me? And I mean this literally. I don't expect people to really answer me, but I honestly can't seem to figure it out. I I mean I have a few friends, but not a best friend anymore. And I can't seem to make more friends. I mean people talk to me, but there isn't anyone I can 100% rely on. They are more like acquaintances. I've always felt that I've been a good friend. I'm always there for my friends whenever they need me. I mean, last year on my birthday, instead of celebrating I ran to my friend who was in need. And thats OK with me. I think that's what friends are for. But why can't anyone do the same for me?
Another thing that bothers me, is I try to make friends on here. Granted I have friends in my friends list, but it seems whenever I try to get to know someone better, we'll exchange an email or 2 and then they never get back to me. I understand people have lives, and I do to, but I feel like I'm making a conscience effort to reach out. I know my story isn't as intense as others, and I'm not all too far out, but I feel like I have some good to share.
I don't know. I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself. I'm lonely. My boyfriend is here for me, but he's sooo far away. I feel like I have no one I can lean on right now. My mom has always been here for me, but I don't live with her anymore and I work 4 nights a week during the evenings. And the nights that I don't work, she's working. I'm pretty close with my sister, but she's 16 and a sophmore in high school. She has a pretty active social life...and doesn't always have time for me. Which I understand, I was the same way.
Yuck...I sound pathetic. :(
Why are boyfriends so bullheaded???
Nov 01, 2006
This has absolutetly nothing to do with weight loss surgery, but I just need to vent. I am so super frustrated with my boyfriend right now! He just doesn't get things! I've asked him time and time again not to call my work, because my supervisor gets mad about it...but he still does it! I have even yelled at him, gotten super upset, hung up the phone on him...and he still does not get it! To me its just soo disrespectful. Especially AFTER I asked him not to do it. THen I tell him the only time he can call me at work is if its an emergency. So when he calls me AT WORK today he tells me its an emergency. And I said...ok whats going on?? And he changes the subject and says, "so how are you doing?" And I'm like nooo whats going on?? Whats the emergency?? He just tells me that he missed me and needed to talk to me. OH HELL NO! Don't ever in your life scare me like that! AHH I could beat him with a stick right now!
So I tell him today that i need a break from him...basically a break up. I can't take it anymore! I'm so tired of him constantly on my case, accusing me of things, asking me where I'm at, who I'm with, who I talk to, CALLING ME AT WORK, its just too much! I guess I feel smoothered...I always tell him he's the girl in our relationship. I honestly feel like the man. When he was here last August I paid for almost EVERY meal, I've sent him letters in the mail, I even sent him flowers because I was sorry about something! I've gotten nothing...zilch...nada. Granted he did spend $700 to fly out here to see me, but I'm doing that in 3 weeks!!!! I've alreayd spet $600 to go see him, and I'm starting to regret it!
I need to breathe.
Thanks for listening.
So I tell him today that i need a break from him...basically a break up. I can't take it anymore! I'm so tired of him constantly on my case, accusing me of things, asking me where I'm at, who I'm with, who I talk to, CALLING ME AT WORK, its just too much! I guess I feel smoothered...I always tell him he's the girl in our relationship. I honestly feel like the man. When he was here last August I paid for almost EVERY meal, I've sent him letters in the mail, I even sent him flowers because I was sorry about something! I've gotten nothing...zilch...nada. Granted he did spend $700 to fly out here to see me, but I'm doing that in 3 weeks!!!! I've alreayd spet $600 to go see him, and I'm starting to regret it!
I need to breathe.
Thanks for listening.
Happy Halloweenie!
Oct 31, 2006
I know most of you don't know much about me, or my life...and thats my fault. I should've started writing in here when I wanted to way back in June! I guess I can use the excuse that i went thru a nasty breakup with my boyfriend and just kinda forgot about it.
Anyway, today I weighed in and I weigh 202 pounds. Wooohooo! I haven't weighed this since i was like 13. Awesome awesome awesome. That means I've lost 54 in 3 and a half months. But I say 66 since I weighed 268 only a month before surgery. Somehow the month before I managed to loose 12 pounds. I think I was depressed because I was going to miss food so much and decided I just wasn't going to eat as much. Oh that and me and the ex were going thru some tough times. But...
I'm going to california in 21 days!! I get to see my Georgie....it's been 3 full months, and I miss him dearly! He is the love of my life and I can't wait to be with him!!
I think I'm taking my cousin around trick or treating tonight. He's going to be a lion. He's so darn cute. :)
Anyway, today I weighed in and I weigh 202 pounds. Wooohooo! I haven't weighed this since i was like 13. Awesome awesome awesome. That means I've lost 54 in 3 and a half months. But I say 66 since I weighed 268 only a month before surgery. Somehow the month before I managed to loose 12 pounds. I think I was depressed because I was going to miss food so much and decided I just wasn't going to eat as much. Oh that and me and the ex were going thru some tough times. But...
I'm going to california in 21 days!! I get to see my Georgie....it's been 3 full months, and I miss him dearly! He is the love of my life and I can't wait to be with him!!
I think I'm taking my cousin around trick or treating tonight. He's going to be a lion. He's so darn cute. :)
