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This will be a VERY short entry.  Today I am nine days post-op.  I am still so very sore & swollen.  I can not sit up for too long because of the pain.  I start to cramp up because of the way my stomach is bending.  I am SO so happy that I finally got the hernia repair done.  Two things -  one I no longer look PG & two I finally have a flat tummy!  Woo hoo!  I did not know what to expect when it came to the extra skin being removed.  I did not think the incision was going to be as long as it is.  It goes from my bra line to my pubic hair.  And the part below the bellybutton is what I am having real pain with as of late.  One other thing I noticed.  Now that the hernia is closed up, I now have that real "FULL" feeling when I eat again.  Phew!  I thought I stretched out my poor little pouch.  Dr M said it's not possible, but I was starting to worry because I was able to eat frequently and medium sized portions.  I am now back to eating very small portions, and I stay full for a long time - thank goodness!  The scale hasn't been my friend lately because I am retaining so many fluids right now.  I feel like I am just a swollen beast.  I know it's only temporary, so I am not stressing out too much about it.

My butt & right leg are going numb from the way I am sitting, and my lower abdomen is throbbing.  I must sign off for now!  More pics to come as I heal better and swelling goes down! 

Happy St Pat's Day!

Tomorrow will mark three weeks until my hernia is repaired.  I am excited and nervous all at the same time!  I am excited because I will finally feel like I don't look PG for the first time in a year and three months!  It's getting so big and misshapened (sp?) lately.  Most times when I am finished eating, it looks as is I have a football poking out.  Yup, it has turned out pointed recently.  I don't get why it does that, but I am SO glad it will be taken care of soon.  I am also nervous, because of the obvious.  It's surgery.  There are always things that can go wrong.  OH!  And my surgoen said he may be able to take some of my extra skin off.  Woo Hoo!    I am SO excited about that.  He did tell me it won't be a tummy tuck because he is not a cometic surgeon.  But he could remove some of the extra skin before closing me up.  That would make the skin pull in from the sides, not down like a tummy tuck.  Hey, works for me!  He said he won't be able to know if he can do it until I am opened up to see what it looks like in there.  I am just way excited that he's enven considering it!

On a side note.  I am super sad.  Hubby lost his job yesterday.  Don't know what the future holds right now.  But I do know that God might close a door, but he always opens a window.  Right?  Right!

I will post an update when I am post-op.

TTFN!

Oh...P.S....Happy Valentine's Day!   

So I went in to see Dr Marymor today to schedule my hernia repair.  Looking like the week of March 8th.  I will post more when I have everything set.

Holy Hannah - it's been a while since I've written anything.  Sorry.  It's true what they say, as you get to goal, there seems like so much less to write about.  I am in a Size Medium shirt & can wear a Size 8/10 pants - depending on the cut.  I still am very heavy in the thigh/rear area.  It's something I have always had, and will forever deal with.  It's OK - as long as I can hide the saggy skin, I am good.  So many people try to get plastics done.  I am going to get my hernia fixed, and that is it.  I don't want to get a tummy tuck done because where does it stop?  I think with people getting plastics done, you are never "really" satisfied with how you look,  Tummy done.  Then at a later time, lower body lift.  Then arm lift.  Then face lift for the sagging neck...where does it stop?  I am so happy right now at the size I am, why drive myself nuts by pointing out everything that's wrong?  It's just a vicious cycle that I am choosing to remove myself from.  No more put-down self talk!

Hernia repair to be done in March.  The date is not set yet, but Dr Marymor said a hernia repair can be scheduled a week ahead of time.  So we will see! 

Until then - wishing you and yours a very happy & healthy New Year!! 

Had a bit of a scare yesterday.  I thought I had a twist in my bowel.  I was really scared.  I didn't know what to do.  Go to the hospital?  Call 911...as I said, I was really scared.  When the pain first started I thought I just had gas.  Within the next 30 mins the pain got so intense, it hurt to sit, lay down...it even hurt to breathe.  At this point, I was having flash backs to when I had issues with my galbladder 15 yrs ago.  But obviously it couldn't be galstones since I no longer have my glabladder.  Then I though of my bowel.  And I remember hearing the longer you wait to ge it fixed, the more it could turn out to be fatal.  DH was not home - I was here with my son by myself.  All I could keep thinking of was my son having to deal with his mother passed out or even worse, dead.  Not the way I want him to remember me, ya know?  I also kept thinking - CRAP if I need emergency surgery for this, right now I am going to have to recover from this only to have to go thru another recovery in the spring when I get my hernia fixed?!?  No way do I want that!  Can't they just fix the hernia while they are in there fixing the twist?!?  Ugh!

So I finally ended up calling Dr Marymor (I just found out this week he started his own bariatric practice - yea!) because I didn't know what to do.  He told me from all of the symptoms I had that he really didn't feel it was a twisted bowel.  He told me it was more likely gas pains which aggrevated my hernia.  Or vice versa - can't remember exactly because my mind was racing.  Anyhow, I had to end up binding myself.  And it worked wonders.  Within 15 mins, I could notice a change.  I was so releaved.  He also told me not to eat anything for the next couple of hours,  just to drink liquids.  Warm liquids would help with the discomfort.  And it did.

Phew!  So glad!!

Wow!  Today is one year exactly.  Had my 1 yr follow up today with Dr Boe (who is taking over Dr Marymor's patients).  He was very nice.  We talked about my hernia and told me it's an elective surgery since mine is so large.  Chances are that since it's not small, it won't get pinched which would make me need emergency surgery.  So basically, I can pick when I want to have it fixed.  He told me that the recovery is much longer than the RNY surgery, and that I would have a lifting restriction of at least 3 months.  WOW...this I will have to think about.  I do not want to ruin my summer, that's for sure.  I am thinking that in the fall I may think about getting this done.  I don't know.  He told me they would use the same incision site from the RNY to go in.  I asked him if a tummy tuck was possible.  He said I would have to contact a plastic surgeon about that.  They would work together to do both at the same time.  Chances are that insurance won't cover the tummy tuck unless it was deemed medically necessary. 

On the weight front.  He told me he was perfectly happy with where I am.  And he asked what weight I wanted to get to.  I told him 160lbs was my ideal goal.  He said for my height, anything from 140 thru 170 was a healthy range.  So if wanted to just want to get to 170, that was OK.  AWESOME! :-)

I can't stop eating them!  I need to stop.  While I have not put any weight on, I have not lost anything either.  I am still stuck at 176lbs.  I need to make a plan to nip this in the bud now....excercise regualrly (which I have NOT) and to stop eating carbs.  If I don't I could start the scale moving again, just in the wrong direction!  Ugh!  I sure as hell don't want to be doing that!

It's a three day weekend, this weekend.  Woo Hoo!  Looking forward to some relaxing lazy days.  I have to walk with DS in the Memorial Day parade on Monday.  Birthday party on Saturday....and that's all I am planning for the weekend!

I finally hit 100lbs!            I was seriously starting to think that I would never get to it!  It's almost b een a month at -98lbs...finally, this AM I hit -101lbs!  Holy Crap!  To celebrate, I went to the gym!  LOL  Actually, the hubby is supposed to start his shift at 12pm today, so I took advantage of the situation since I have off from work.  Very cool!

By the Dr's goal, I have 37lbs to go.  By MY goal, I have about 17lbs to go.  I am still not sure if I was 160lbs or 150lbs to be my goal.  I am sure I will know when I get there.  And I am getting close!

Other than that, not much new.  My hernia is still here.  It's really annoying the heck outta me.  Not only does it give me physical pain now and then, but it is so bothersome because it sticks out so far.  I can not wear anything snug because I feel so self concious.  I feel like I look like I am pregnant.   I am just hoping that insurance covers fixing it.  And I am really hoping that they can do a tummy tuck while they are fixing it.  That would be LOVELY.

I still have "friends" that feel like it's their duty to point out my imperfections.  Like I already don't know they are there...HELLO!  I know they can't help themselves because they are jealous, but it still hurts.  My relationship with my hubby is great.  But I feel like I am losing friends because they can't handle the physical changes they see in me.  I am still the same person inside.  I just look very different.  That is something THEY have to deal with, or get over.  Not ME.  If they can't handle it, then they were really never truly my friend, right?

TTFN

I had a huge WOW moment last night.  On Thursday, someone from work gave me pants that were too big for her, a size 10.  Some girls that I work with told me to go in the bathroom and try them on, because the pair of pants I had on that day were way too big (size 14).  I kept telling then, "they are not going to fit.  I only just started wearing a sizxe 12, and they just fit".  TSize 12 is not skin tight on me, I do have loose areas.  But they are not loose enough that I could possibly try a size 10.  So last night (Friday), I was getting undressed so I vould put my PJ's on.  Don't know what possesed me to give the pants a try....but I did.  No, I actually know why I tried them.  I really wanted to know how close I was to getting into them.  But you know what?  THEY FREAKING FIT!!!    Holy freaking Hannah!!!  I got them up...and was able to zipper & button them!   

Still waiting on those two pounds to finally get to my 100 pd loss....I'll get there, I know.  Just the waiting is killing me!

WOW!  Holy smokes, I can't believe today is nine months since I had my surgery.  I am down 98lbs.  I was hoping to hit my 100lbs today, but no such luck.  I know I will get there, I just was hoping it would make my day even more special.  I had my 9 month labs done this AM.  I am anxious to see what the numbers come back like.  Sadly, not much else to report. 

I have spring fever pretty bad.  I can not wait for it to get warm and stay warm so I can play in the garden.  I am so looking forward to this being the first year that I will be able to get up and down with ease.  Last summer I really couldn't garden too well due to the healing process.  So I am really looking forward to having a nice garden this year.  My rose bushes need a good trim.  Hopefully it I can get enough off without injuring myself like I did last spring!  I need to invest in leather gloves.

TTFN!

Sappy Paint Haddy's Day!