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OMG, OMG, OMG....had to jump on here really quick.  I wanted to get a baseline for weight because vacation starts today.  I lost another 2lbs!  Yippee!  Praise the Lord!

-36lbs as of this AM.  Hopefully I'll have more to report after vacation!

See you at the end of the week.

Only one pound, but it moved!  I am now in the 230's...haven't seen those numbers for about 2 yrs.  Only 12 more pounds to go until I hit a number that I haven't seen since I got married 10 yrs ago!  Whoo hoo!!

Well, I went out and stocked up on some essentials for the shore.  $62 worth!  Yikes!  But you know what?  It would have cost so much more down there.  $3.99 for a 24 pk of bottled water.  For that I would have only gotten about 2 or 3 bottles down there.   I am SO looking forward to getting away for a few days.  It will be so nice to forget work and enjoy the sand and water.

Until next week....Chiao!   

Ohhhh!!!  NEw smilies!!!  I LIKE!!! 

Tomorrow at 12:30pm, I start my long awaited vacation.  This past week at work has been shear hell.  I've been bring home work, last night I was at work until 9:30pm, and today I stayed until 6:15pm.  Dh thinks I am crazy, but I want to make sure all of my work is done and I have nothing hanging.

We leave on Sunday for Ocean City,NJ and I can not wait!  This is the first vacation we're staying away longer than one night since our 5th wedding anniversary 5 yrs ago!  I am planning on being a big lazy bum on the beach!  Yeah baby!  Of course, I need 100 SPF sunscreen.  Have you seen the pics of how fair I am?  LOL  These thighs haven't seen sun in I can't tell you how many years!  LOL

On the weight/food front.  The scale didn't move this week.  I think I am getting used to not seeing a change.  I will weigh myself on Sat, see if it moved.  Food is not my friend.  Last night at work, I was trying to eat fish.  Well, I thought I was finally going to get sick to my stomach.  I thre up, but not the fish.  I had two huge mouthfuls of  this spit like substance.  I couldn't belive it.  I still have issues of getting sick like this at least 3-4 tims a week, if not more.  I know I am not getting all my protien in.  I also have been having a real problem this week getting all my water/fluid in.    I hope it's just due to the fact that I have been so busy this week.

Well, I might be able to make one more entry before we leave on Sunday.  I will let you know if the scale moved!  LOL

TTFN

I haven't logged all week because it was a very stressful week this week.  We had our company picnic on Thursday (very fun), which meant that we needed to close earlier than normal in order to go.  So with vacations and a "shorter week" , it was crunch time.  I also had to reprimand one of my workers, this week.  Which meant that I needed to do a review to mark her performance, met several times with my boss, and I had to make a spreadsheet to notate her performance.  I hate this part of my job.  Really hate it!

So yesterday I while I was getting ready for work, I noticed that I needed to clean out my brush about 4x's because my hair was coming out in clumps.  NOT COOL!  I decided then and there that it was coming off.  While I was at work, a co-worker noticed how thin my hair was getting.  DOUBLE not cool!!!  That just had sealed the fate of my locks (or lack there of).  So after work, I went straight to the salon and got it cut off.  My pic here doesn't show how short it really is.  It's much shorter in the back than the front.  I also got a few foils for highlights to give it a little lift.

Got on the scale this AM, and I am down another pound.  At least it's moving!  Next week is vacation.  I am hoping to swim everyday and get a good amount of walking in on the beach while we are there.  Hopefully when I get back the scale will have moved a little.  I am right at 240 on the nose this AM.  I am excited to see the 230's again.  Once I get to 227, this journey will be surreal for me.  That's the lowest weight I have been for about 11 yrs.  I got there about 2 yrs ago, right before my father-in-law passed.  Before that was approximately about the time I got engaged...10.5 yrs ago.  How exciting!!!

One the food front, I still hate to eat.  By this I mean, at least 3x's a week - if not more - I have an issue of food getting stuck.  It seems that beef gives me a problem teh most.  But I also have issues with eating too fast.  Once it gets stuck, I endure extreme pain.  Then I feel nauseous...then my mouth starts to water serverly...to the point where I have to spit it out...it looks like I had a mouth full of water.  Then I get foamy spit coming up.  Once the pain and spit pass (about 15-20 minutes)...I am usually done with my meal.  I can't take the pain and I just call it a day with the meal.  This could be right in the beginning of the meal, or it could be towards the end.  I just hate the thought of eating thiking that I might have to go through the pain again.  Still have never thrown up, though.  I guess that's good, huh?

Well, I guess I should wrap this novel up.
Until next time!

I love days like today.  It's going to storm.  Don't know when, but it's getting dark.  Nowhere to go.  Just relaxing, surfing the web, watching TV, and doing laundry.

Hubby got a promotion at work.  It's a huge plus for us, because obviously, he will bring in more money.    The only thing I am not  crazy about is that he will be in a training class for 8 wks starting Sept 15th.  6 of the eight weeks he will have to stay at a hotel about 1.5 hrs away.  I am SO not looking foward to being alone at night again (he  worked 3rd shift for about 3.5 yrs).    I hate being by myself at night.  Every little bump in the nite I think someone is breaking in.    And being our cars were broken into about a month ago, it just adds to my insecurities.  On a good note, I won't have to cook huge meals.  I will be able to cook for just our son and me.  That's a plus!    and hey, it's only 6 weeks, right?  I'm almost 8 weeks post op right now.  So I need to have a positive out look...these past 8 weeks flew by, so will those 8 weeks.

Now, I will definately need a babysitter for when I go to the gym.  I am hoping to have him showered and in bed no later that 8:30pm every nite.  So now I will need to convince someone to stay here while I go to the gym for about an hour. **sigh**

I am on my way out, but I had to note....

32lbs down today!  Yeah baby!    Didn't think I was ever going to get out of the 20's....

I feel better now.

One side note....noticing that my hair is getting thinner and that my double chin is now a turkey waddle.  I just hangs.  Know any good exercises to get rid of a turkey waddle??  Pleae PM me!!   

  ONLY ONE FREAKING POUND AGAIN !!!  WTF?!?!

I'm at a loss.... I've been pushing myself trying to get in more than usual amount of exercise I've been doing.  Trying to get all my fluids in.  No snacking at night.  Most days, I am only eating 3x's a day.  If I have time, I may actually get in a small yogurt, 1/4c of nuts, or fruit as a snack.  I don't get it. 

I know I should be greatful that I am losing and not gaining.  I just can't help but feel in the back of my mind....am I going to fail at WLS, too??   I pray that all of this I put my body though was not in vein.  My goodness, I didn't do all this just to end up failing in the end.  No way!  I just pray that my weight loss (more than 1lb a week) starts to resume soon!  Cuz at this rate, a year from now I will have only lost 60% of my excess weight.  That ain't gonna cut it....I want to have lost at least 100lbs at my surgeversary.  I have 133 lbs total to lose.  I would be nice to finally say I have less than 100lbs left to lose!  AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!  Sorry....just frustrated and I am having a pity party.

Because of the schedule hubby has, I don't get to the gym as often as I would like.  However, he had off Thursday & Friday, and goes in late on the weekend.  So, I have been to the gym for 3 days straight so far this week.  Can I just say thast my shins are killing me?!?  LOL    Thursday: treadmill for 44 mins eliptical for 4 mins.  Friday: bike for 40 mins eliptical for 5 mins.  Saturday: Treadmill for 45 mins Bike for 20 mins.  Yea me!    The eliptical kicks my a$$ man!!!  I don't know how people stay on there for so long.  My Dr did tell me if I can work up the endurance for it, that is the machine I can work off the most calories on.  I know why, because it's almost like you are running on the darned thing.  And if you go too slow on it, nothing registers (time, distance, etc).  Ask me how I know!!!  LOL

I am tempted to step on the scale.  Bbbbuuuuuttttt.... I will wait.  Aunt Flow came to visit this morning.  I am thinking that's why only 1 lb loss this week.  I think that is also why I have been in such a rotten mood lately.  I will say this though, latelyI can feel that I lost something.  Hubby said my butt looks smaller.  I love him!    I actually caught a glance of my self in the mirror this morning at the gym and noticed my clothes looked really big.  Hmmmm, who whould have thunk!

TTFN 

So I went for my 6 wk post-op checkup today.  I wanted to talk to Dr Marymor about my lack-luster weight loss.  To my suprise, he was quite happy with my progress.  I told him that I thought I should be further along than I am.  He then reassured me that I am astually past where the target is for 6 wks.  He said that at 6 wks, I should be between a 10 & 15 % of my excess weight.  I am at 19%, so I am actually ahead of the game.  He recommended that if I want to see it work off faster, to excercise more.  I knew that was coming.  Easier said than done thought right now.  When school starts again, then I will be able to excercise on a more constistant basis.

On the eating front....I have been doing well with getting all my protien in daily.  Now I have to really work on my fluids.  The nutritionist told me that I need to start taking calcium supplements.  I knew that one was coming, too.

All-in-all...a positive review from the doc!  Yeah me!

Yesterday was our 10th wedding anniversary.  Hubby got me a pretty anniversary band.  He was going to send it to get sized, but I told him there was no sense in doing that.  I would only need it re-sized again in a few months.  I didn't want the setting to get messed up and I didn' want the band to lose any of its integrity.   My engagement ring was sized up after I had our son because of all the weight I had gained.  But they didn't cut the band and add gold (truely re-sizing the band), all they did was stretch the band.  Which, in turn, made the band really weak.  It's all banged up.  I need to have it reset.

Today was my first day on regular foods.  I had not-so-soggy cereal for breakfast, the inside of a pizza cheese steak for lunch, and the chicken and cheese off of a grilled chicken salad for dinner.  I did have a few pieces of lettuce and a crouton with the chicken.  Because I was eating so slow and so little, the waiter kept comping over and asking if we were OK.  He even went as far as to ask me if I wanted a box to take my salad home in.  I told him "Na, not yet.  I'm still working on it".  But I could tell he thought I was lying.  He kept walking past us looking at my food. 

I haven't been back to the gym yet since I signed up.  I am going to go tomorrow.  My goal is to go 30 mins on the treadmill and 3 mins on the eliptical.