Joeyb278
My life has been a constant struggle with weight loss. I have always been overwieght since middle school. My family is heavy so it's definately in the jeans. Even though I was heavy I was ok. A few years ago I started working in a call center and that is when my weight got out of control before I even realized it. I tried all sorts of diets. I took pills, did meal replacements, tried anything I could afford. I attempted to do the weight loss surgery in 2004 but my insurance would not cover it. After that I kept trying with diets and I would lose some weight but kept getting it back. A few months ago I had a very scary incedent where I tought I was having a heart attack. Since then I have been in constant fear of dying because of my weight. It turns out it was a panic attack caused by bronchitis that made me short of breath. It was one of the scariest moments of my life. In march of 2012 I got sick from cellulitis on my left leg. I went to the emegency room and was hospitalized for 4 weeks because of the severity of the infection. On that night the nurses weighed me and I was at 530lbs!!! I had not been weighed in a long time and I was shocked wen I saw that weight. since then the fear of dying increased to 100 times more in my mind. Because of my sickness I had no appetite at all and the meds I was taking left me weak all the time. After I was discharged from the hospital I was barely eating anything and constantly fearing that something else was wrong with me. My leg healed, thank God, but emotionally and mentally I was still messed up. I went back to the ER 2 more times after that, both times being told that it was just my anxiety. The second time I went back to the ER the doctors kept me for testing of my heart and monitoring. That was memorial day weekend 2012 and when they weighed me there I was down to 460lbs. I was very happy about that and made the decision to try once more for WLs. I Thank God that this time everything went well and my approval from my insurance came back in 24 hours!!! So although I am in better state of mind I am still with some lingering feelings of fear. My surgery is set for 8/13/2012 and I'm ready to start this new chapter in my life. Since I started the process and been on the pre op diet I'm down to 435lbs. Hopfully my journey stays on this positive path and I can have a normal healthy life!!
