People are finally noticing!

Nov 16, 2009

We had our big Nov. event last weekend and lots of people were telling me how good I was looking. Lots of gushing from the friends. I guess the 30 lbs I lost in the last 2 months made the difference for them to notice. I was able to get around a lot better and work longer hours during this event, but I got tried fast. I was very bad about keeping up with my shakes, both protein and vitamins. I was just really busy and kept for getting to eat. The first day I was setting up and almost blacked out while bending down and straightening back up too quickly. The second day I was good, but the third day was the day I had the most work to do. I had to cook a meal for 70 people, most of which was pre cooked at home, frozen then thawed out there and re heated. The vegan stuff I had to make fresh there. I started cooking at 1pm and didn't stop till 6pm. I was so tired by the end of it I was ready for bed right then and there, but I had a long night ahead of me so I made myself a protein shake and vitamin shake with extra emergency C in it. It got me through the night. The next day I took my shakes the way I was supposed to, and took the day to slowly break down camp, and relax a bit.

It was nice to have so many people say that I looked good, because I had hit a stall that has lasted for longer than a month. I have been losing and gain the same 5 lbs for last month and a half! Needless to say it has been frustrating, and scary. When this happens I can't stop myself from panicking that "this is all I am going to lose". You know what it is like when you have dieted, and gained and dieted. You think you are never going to be a success, and be the weight you are supposed to be! You just keep expecting the rug to be pulled out from under you. I have not told too many people about my surgery because I don't want them to know and look at me like I am a failure if don't lose the weight. This way they will just see more of the same, or look at me like WOW you look amazing. I have started to tell a few people because now it is hard to keep it a secret with the pace I am losing. I am still unsure if it is the pace I am supposed to lose at. I have lost 82 lbs since June. I guess I am not going to worry too much as long as I keep losing.

I don't think I will be over the moon happy till I get down to a size pants that I haven't in, in years. I need to go down 2 more sizes for that to happen. That or I hit onederland, under 200 lbs.     

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