kayakgirl
Giving in to obesity?
Mar 29, 2013
For many years I have been very active despite my weight. I have lugged my 100+ extra pounds whilst hiking, xcountry skiing and cycling. I have felt almost weightless while paddling in my 17 foot sea kayak. BUT it was so F%$$%#ING hard to do all of that! And this past winter I felt myself giving up on doing those things I love. It was just too damn hard to lace my skates, to get up from a ski fall or to go up the Lake Fortune trail. I basically got fed up.
Then after many years of considering WLS I finally got my doc to make the referral. (He finally got it in on March 21)
I feel like a weird shift has happened though and I'm a bit concerned about it. I seem to have "given in" to being fat. I am no longer forcing myself to do the physical things that I enjoy. I no longer force myself to stop at 2 slices of toast. I no longer focus on salads. I no longer make that extra effort.
And I am beginning to feel pretty crappy. I'm more short of breath, I'm sleeping poorly and eating things that don't necessarily agree with my tummy.
Yesterday I went to Additionelle to get some spring/summer clothes and found that I have "blossomed" from a comfortable 18 to a somewhat snug 20/2X... I just gave into that too.
The fight has gone out of me. I thought that some of you might understand in a way that my slender friends can't.
Thanks.
