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Today was the day for my appt with my PCP to discuss WLS.  

When the nurse was taking my stats (weight, bp, etc)  I told her why I was there--to get a referral for WLS. (This is the nurse that I really like).  She said that the Dr is not very favorable of WLS, but for me to tell her all my reasons, etc about why I need/want the surgery.  GREAT!!  I sort of jokingly said, "Maybe I should have made the appointment with the NP instead."
The nurse just smiled and said that "she" would be with me shortly.  Since my doctor is a woman this did not seem odd or strange, so I waited.

Ten minutes later there is a knock on the examining room door and in walks the NP!!!!! 
She went over my chart and saw that I had a B-12 shot less than a month ago, so she said that I was there too early for my shot and bloodwork.  I told her that I scheduled the appt to discuss my weight and that I wanted to have WLS.  She was surprised, but was not negative.  I explained my research and the reasons I knew that this is the option that will work for me.    

Anyway, once she found out that I had already been to a WLS seminar she was very impressed!!!  Not long after that, she said that she would have the nurse contact the surgeon and set up a consultation with him!!!!!
OMG!!!!!  Does this mean I got my referral???!!!!!!  I think it does.  She said that the ball was in the surgeon's court and it was up to him!!!  She agreed to go along with his decision!!!!  

The nurse is going to call me tomorrow and let me know about an appt with the surgeon.  I have a feeling that they might run into a problem like I did when I called, but at least this referral road block seems to have turned into a speed bump for the moment!!!!

I'll update when I know something.  Tomorrow is the first day of school also, so it will be a busy day!!!!!

I just got back in from my Dr's appt.  It's not looking good folks.
I didn't get to see the Dr or even the NP.  I'm not even sure if the NP is still there.  I signed in, like always and the girl said what are you here for?  I told her I was there to get my B-12 shot.  Every other time I still had my weight and blood pressure taken and the NP came in to talk to me and see how my reoccurring mono was doing.  NOT today!  The one day I was going to talk to the NP about getting a referral for WLS is the one day that the nurse (not even the one that I usually see) calls my name and ONLY gives me my shot. 
WT..!?  Before I let the nurse leave the room I stopped her and asked her if I could ask her a question.  She was very nice and said of course.  I told her that I wanted to have WLS and that I found a surgeon that I liked (or I think I do!  I like his rep anyway!).  She immediately said his name!  I said is that good or bad and she just said that he was a good surgeon. Weird!!  Anyway, I told her that even though I was going to have to self pay he required a referral and I needed to know what I needed to do to get that.  She said that I would need to schedule another appt to talk to the doctor so the doctor could tell me what she requires before she will give me a referral.  !!
So now not only do I have all of the pre testing that the surgeon will require, but now my pcp has her own hoops to jump through before she will give me a referral.   Not to mention that from what I got from the nurse, the dr will want me to go through their WL prog to see if it will work first.  I smell trap!  If I don't lose weight then she will say that I can't lose with surgery either.  If I do lose, then she will say that I don't need surgery to lose.  Damn my head hurts!

My appt to talk to the Dr is the day before school starts, Aug 22 @ 2:30pm.  I guess I will go see what hoops she has and just take it a day at a time.  My mother is not really supportive of this WLS anyway.   She means well, but she doesn't want me to persue this because she is afraid of complications.  The only ppl she knows of that have had WLS are ppl that have had RNY and some have had severe complications or gained their weight back.  I told her all about the lapband, and it does not matter to her.  She loves me and wants me to be healthy and happy, just not with surgery.  

Anyway, that's my day so far.  I'm a little down.  I'm really getting tired of all the road blocks.  I just want to get healthy and able to keep up with my children and go places with them. I also want to do things with my husband--I know he is getting so frustrated, I don't blame him! I am tired of being fat!!!!  Case closed.

Today is Tuesday, August 7, 2007.

Tomorrow I have an appt with my regular dr.  I am scheduled to get another B-12 shot for my reoccurring mono.  I think that the mono might be gone or almost.  I am not as tired as I was, so I'm hoping!  Tomorrow is also the day I need to see if I can get my referral for WLS.  I have only been going to this dr since May of this year, so I am very nervous about asking.  I don't think the dr is going to do the referral.  I was told at the WLS Class that I went to last week that the NP could do the referral.  She is the one I have been seeing lately anyway, so I am hoping!!!!  My problem is going to be that my gyno is the one that was helping me with my weight loss and I haven't seen him in almost a year.  We'll see what happens tomorrow.  I'm so nervous that I'm afraid my blood pressure is going to be up.  Not good!!!

On another note, I have been talking to my DH about trying to find $25,000 + for the surgery and additional money that I'll need for the pre-op testing and appts.  He said whatever he has to do because he can't stand me this way much longer!  He knows that I am drepressed and not happy.  Once I finally made up my mind that this surgery is what I wanted and that I was going to do it, I was happier.  I saw a light at the end of the very dark tunnel I had been in for so long!  As I started running into probs I have been really down.  I thought that the most this was going to be was between $17 and $20 based on info I had from last year.  Mind you this amount was for the same WLS from the same surgeon (just at a different hospital).  When this dr changed locations (further away from me) the price when up too!!!  Lovely!!

I'm being negative again. Opps!  I am just finding it hard knowing that there is something that I know will help me and I can't get it.  At least not now anyway.  Everytime I eat something I feel guilty knowing that I am making the problem worse.  I have tried acting like I have already had the surgery and eating that way, but of course without the band I get hungry and that doesn't work.  When I eat something I know I will not eat after being banded I think, "Boy, I will be so glad when I can't eat you any more.  I hate being able to eat you!!"  Yes, I am a little crazy!!

This is going to work out however it is meant to.  I just wish I knew how that was going to be. LOL!  I know that it is going to take awhile no matter what.  With all  of the pre-op tests and classes it would take awhile even if I had the money.  So I am going to do a few things here and there to at least get me closer.  Who knows, maybe I will win the lottery!