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Ok that was not fun I was just eating baked potatoe and I got is stuck.  Chew Chew Chew Chew.  Well here we christmas time and I'm 43 lbs lighter then have been in years.  I'm where clothes that I would have never wear before. Ihave been buying high heels again.  Yahoo. Merry Christmas to me. 

I have only lost 2 lbs this week.  Man it sucks because I have worked out everyday this week and stepped up the protein intake also.  I know this happens but it still sucks.  

Well yesterday was my daughter's 14th Birthday we went out to lunch with my sister and her family and my brother and my good friend Vicki and her husband. We had fun I didn't eat much but that is ok.  My friend Vicki who I also call my second mom she had RNY 3 years ago she looks so great she had a tummy tuck about 2 months ago.  So there was two of us that didn't eat that much.  

Well I normal love this time of year but for some reason this year I'm just not into it.  I wasn't even going to put up a tree this year but my hubby to be got us one and me and Sam (DD) put it up last night and now the house is ready for christmas.  

Last year was so much fun because my parents came home for christmas. It was the 1st time in about 7 years that they had been home for christmas. See they are snowbirds.  I guess I have been doing alot of thinking I guess when you are given a second chance at new life you really start to think about things.  I sometime wish my parents won't go south until after the holidays. But I understand why they do it both my parents can't handle the cold all that well.  I guess when it comes to christmas everyone should be together at christmas time.  
 
I also have been thinking about a christmas 5 years ago when I go a call from by dad asking me to go up to the nursing home because his mom, my grandma was not doing to well.  I got there and my brother was her room holding her hand and I came in and take the other hand told her I loved her and told her it was ok to go and with that said she looked at me and my brother  and take her last breath.  

Now I'm sure your asking will what about my soon to be hubby's family will there is whole other story.  But we don't talk to them at all either.  That became a big fight about 2or 3 years ago.  I sometime have thought that I should just be the adult in it and say I'm sorry but how do you forgive someone that tells you, your a bad mom and you don't love your kids and just because you gave birth to them doesn't mean that your mom.  My world is my kids I live for my kids so to have someone tell my that I'm this bad mom just doesn't fly in my book.

So I guess in short this year I'm just depressed for christmas.  Sorry to on load.  

Everyone have a Great Holiday Season. 

We went to a christmas party last night.  It was fun it was a bunch of friends that all got together. The nice part no kids.  There was alot of food but you know me couldn't eat that much which was just fine for me because I like posting my ticker and showing how much the scale is moving.  I love loserville.  I can tell the change in my health even for one no more HB pressure.  My back is not hurting anymore when I get up.  The big thing is I sleep good at night.  Yahoo for that

Here is the count down to our wedding 

Here is a picture of my dress






This is the bridemaids dress I'll have four bridmaids 2 will be in black and 2 will be in olive green

Sotrry had to step on the scale today and I'm under 200lbs never to see that number again on the scale 

Well I did I have worked out for the frist time since surgery.  I feel great.  I did a 30 min work out just like my Dr told me I could do.  He told me to work out 30min each day.  So I think I will wake up 30 min early each day before and get my work out in the morning.

Yes tomorrow is going to be my frist day back to work.  One good thing is I work from home so if I feel I need a nap I can just go and take one.  With the head could that I have I'm sure I will need one.

I was out shopping yesterday and ran in to a friend of mine from work.  And she told me I look great she asked me how much I have lost and I told her 27 lbs she told me that it looks like alot more.  Man what a self estem booster it's been nice to here help say I look good.

My good friend April yesterday told me it was time to find a different jacket because the one I had on was getting to be to big.  I told her no way I like this jacket.  She told me she was going to turn me into the what not ware.  I guess it some show that they pick you clothing choice apart and they take you on a shopping spree.  Well that would be nice. Because I do know before to long that is what I'm going to have to do.

I do have some clothes that I have kept over the year.  I have jeans that are from size 20W down to size 9.  The size 20W don't fit and more and they are going to the Goodwill.  I'm into a size 18W right now but they are also getting to be to big.

Will I had my 1st post op appt today with my surgeon.  He said everything is looking good and I'm looking good.  I'm on to the stage of food with pureed food for 5 days and then I can start on normal food.  I go back to see him on Dec 29, 2006.

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