January 3, 2012

Jan 03, 2012

Just a quick entry because I want to write down something that really touched me today.

My dad came to take me grocery shopping. I feel frustrated because I can't do that for myself yet and I'm not used to being this dependent on other people. My energy sucks, my tiredness is killing me, I am making myself go back to work tomorrow though because I need normalcy. I voiced all of this to my dad and thanked him for about the 50th time for everything in the last 2 weeks. He said to me... When you were born, I was the first one to hold you because your mother was groggy from the anesthesia. I've taken care of you from that moment on, and I always will. Even when I'm not physically here anymore, I'll still take care of you. 

I teared up immediately. I still tear up thinking about it. Don't know if it's the start of the emotions, the fact I've been off the hormone therapy for almost 3 months (I get to start back the first day of my next cycle, however I've skipped a month so I'm hoping it's not another 3 weeks), the hormones from the fat cells...but my god, I just needed to hear something like that today. 

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