depressed... confused?

Mar 01, 2009

I have been having a really really tough past few weeks. I have no seen the scale budge and have been teetering between 204 and 201. I still cant see the #1 instead of the #2 in the hundreds place and its really bringing me down. My weight is my catalyst to depression. When im losing i feel great about myself and can look in the mirror and see how great I look, but when im not losing, its almost like I have goggles on and I see my fat ol self. I feel like im ridiculously hungry and its scaring the crap outta me b/c isnt the band supposed to make me less hungryy?!?!? I think im really confused about fills and how they are supposed to make me less hungry. I dont hink they change the size of the "new" stomach, they just make the hole smaller, so how will that make me eat less food? I can EASILY eat a cup or more at this point. I did experience my first blockage tho and man that was REALLY painful and pb'ed. I had read a lot of people talking about it and really had no clue what they were talking about. Right now I am at 4.5 cc's with my 2nd fill. I obv def need a 3rd fill. I wonder when people start to feel it really  helping them? :(

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