ktmeditates
State of Mind
Oct 08, 2009
Hey OH Family,Its been a while since I last posted. I have been kinda discouraged. I am still making attempts to loose weight while waiting for approval for WLS. A few months back I started something called the six week body makeover diet. Well I lost about 15 lbs with that one then I began to fall under the pressures of eating again with that little bit of success. I think it happened when I ran out of meal ideas. I must say I felt really good after the first three days of that one. Unfortunately, I have had a series of family problems from income issues to a runaway. For one of them, I've been able to maintain. But when the runaway thing happened, it was such a suprise that I found my self eating before I could even realize it. I started off trying to eat what I thought was healthy, then I crossed over to those things that are really heavy in calories. Well, it did satisfy me for the moment. When the runaway returned I found it hard to get back on track. I guess you could say then I began to eat in celebration of my teens return from his week excursion. I have gone back to trying the calorie counting, (my doc's idea of weight loss) and I lost 10 lbs. Well I decided to take things a bit further to cut out TV viewing. Well, being laid off, that and food were the things that helped me make through the day. Now I must say I am at a lost. 2 weeks ago, I fell down the stairs and haven't been able to do any exercise. Guess what, doing an 1800 calorie diet doesn't work for me without the walking. So here is where I am, no exercise, no weight loss, no tv. Wondering why don't I just eat the things I want if there is no weight loss? Boy, if I could get this thing with my mind and emotions, just maybe I can have some success. I realize now that this time delay with the surgery is for me to further prepare my mind, because I will always have some kind of issues. Doc, says I can start back walkin next week. I find my self spending a lot of time in my room crying lately, about all that I am trying to change. I feel like I am alone, and I feel like a failure. Seems like I can't even get 25 lbs off own my on. I really need some encouragement from someone who understands and maybe some advice too.
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About Me
Lawrenceville, GA
Location
38.4
BMI
Surgery
04/29/2010
Surgery Date
Oct 16, 2008
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