kymber73
Down 128 lbs! but still feel fat due to excess skin!!
Apr 19, 2010
Ok so I now weigh 134lbs and have been steady for a month at that weight. This is not a bad weight and I have lost 128lbs total since Last June (2009) so I should be happy right? WRONG!!! I have a boyfriend/fiance (he asked me to marry him, we have the ring picked out and in layaway and are planning on moving in together when finances are available) and I truly love him and his kids as he loves me and my kids! So I AM happy about this! And I can wear a size 6 jeans and a normal size Med top, which I haven't done since Middle School, where as I was wearing a size 26-30 pant size and a 4XL top before GBS. But now I have to choose my clothes wisely as I have to hide my rolls of excess skin!!! I am just as depressed as before as I STILL have "FAT" to hide. I have to wear shirts with longer sleeves to hide my chicken wing arms and I CANNOT wear a bikini like I dreamed of for so long as I have a belly of excess skin to hide. Then I don't feel comfortable wearing short shorts as it shows my flabby inner thighs. And where the heck are my big boobs I used to love??? My butt is saggin as well... :-( that sux! So it is embarrassing to be naked in front of my man.
So now that I have lost the weight, I do feel better on the inside Physically that is, but mentally I still feel fat! MY insurance will not cover the surgery to have the skin removed and I have tried exercising but my surgeon told me that the muscle will tone up but the excess skin will not tone up. HOW DEPRESSING!
so much for that bikini!
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So now that I have lost the weight, I do feel better on the inside Physically that is, but mentally I still feel fat! MY insurance will not cover the surgery to have the skin removed and I have tried exercising but my surgeon told me that the muscle will tone up but the excess skin will not tone up. HOW DEPRESSING!
so much for that bikini!
Down 92lbs in all!
Nov 22, 2009
Ok so I have lost only 80lbs since surgery 5 months ago but I lost 12 lbs about a month prior to that and I didnt even have to go on that liquid diet.Even though everyone keeps telling me that I look great, I have to see a cardioligist tomorrow as my BP is dropping and the docs around here do not know why. Also I feel depressed and my kids can see it. My daughter keeps asking why I am not happy (she is 10 years old) My son and I keep arguing (he is 14). I feel all alone (yes I am single have been divorced for almost 4 years now) but it is more than all that, I just can't pin point it.
can't figure it all out, maybe it is my normal holiday blues... I love the holidays (usually) but this year is different. I feel like there is something missing and not the 92 lbs I lost either...
Oh well, different day, same crap.
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can't figure it all out, maybe it is my normal holiday blues... I love the holidays (usually) but this year is different. I feel like there is something missing and not the 92 lbs I lost either...
Oh well, different day, same crap.