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1st appt at the vandy weight lost center was april 12th.saw the surgeon may 11th.files where sent to insurance june 1st.
got approved june 8th got my date june 11th.
right now im doing the waiting game to see if im going to get the ok from my insurance company.they have given approvel to others so im hopeful.my info was sent to the insurance company VHP on June 1st 04.
i have never felt so useless in my life.i hate waiting i feel like there is nothing i can do which is a feeling i dont handle very well lol.but im glad i found this place so i dont feel like im in it all alone.
june 9,04 i found out to day i have been approved i called my mom and my best friend crying.im scared i wont lie about that but im so excited to get my life back.this time next yr i can take my kids to a fair and fit in the rides lol.or play wiht my 5 yr old on the floor and be able to get back up with out help,or play basketball with my girls.
june 11,04 i got my date today its JULY 29th.im happy and scared all at the same time.
july 11,04 its 12:51am and im on here reading i learn something new on here every night i love it.i have 18 days till my surgery and im so excited lol.im scared 2 which is crazy how can you have such differnt feelings at the same time? i have got everything that i can think of that i will need for after my surgery.so im ready and counting the days down.i have never been so ready to make such a BIG change in my life.
july 16th,04 well i now have 13 days left before my surgery can you say hurry up dang gon it lol.these days seems to be just crawling by but im going to try and go out this weekend.to try and take my mind off wls for a night anyway lol.i have been breathing,living,reading WLS i think its time for me to give my brain and my family and friends a break lol.its just hard to be sooo excited about something and hold it in.they moved my 2rd sleep study date to the 21st. so lets hope i can get my pcap before surgery so i will have it after when i get home.i just hope it does make a differnce in how i sleep i really could use that. i went out and did my shopping for things i will need post-op guess you can say im more than ready lol.well till next time everyone be happy :o)
July 24,04 man i have 5 days left and im soooo excited right now i could yell lol.well im ready got everything i need for when i come home.im just really ready for it to be over.only bad thing is i found out a few days ago my MOM is just going to drop my ass off at the hospital she isnt going to stay up there with me.i know i sound like a big baby but i would be telling a lie if i said i wasnt scared.im this womans only child and she is going to drop my fat ass off and come back to my place and go to sleep lol.come on now if i had done this to her she would flip out lol.but its cool im going to be ok im just going to make sure i take phone numbers with me and im going to bother the hell out of someone early in the morning lol.but other than that im doing good just ready for thursday to get here already i think i have said this before im not very good at waiting lol i feel like a kid waiting on xmas day to get here lol.
july 25,04 man on man lol ok i have 4 days till thur im soooooooooo ready lol ok i know i know i have said that before.
well i have 12 hrs till i have to leave for the hosptial.im so ready for it to come.im scared and my stomach is flip flopping so i think im just going to try and get some sleep i didnt sleep good last night at all.so im real tired right now.knowing me i will get up at about 11 or 12 and be in here reading till time for me to take my shower and leave.i just wanted to thank everyone for your prayers and well wishes.thank you so much for the love.
AUG 8,04 ok i came out of surgery with no problems.but good lord that pain was no joke.my 1st thought was man what did i do to myself.this 1st week has been so hard.and i know in time(so everyone says lol) i will be so happy i had this done.but right now im just tripping because i did so much reading on this and i thought i was overly ready.but now that im living it i see that it is so much harder than i thought it would be.Now dont get me wrong i knew it would be hard.but damn not this hard its been hard for me to eat.then i started this damn coughing real bad all over again .now last time it was my blood pressure meds.i hope its some meds im on this time so i can change it and stop this.every time i get to coughing really hard i tend to throw up.and man o man let me tell you that hurts soooooooooo bad.
crazy part is im not throwing up my food its this clear stuff.
when i called the doc office i was told that this is kind of common and to try and get all my fuilds in and to make sure i get 30 or more min's in between eating and drinking. which is hard and then to get all these meds in when they need to be in when i still cant even get a full 5oz of drink in during one sitting.other than that i feel good and have no problem with walking for my exercise.Im off my pain meds only time i have used it since 4 days after i came home was at night at bed time on days i have over done it.but for the last 3 days i havent used it at all. cant wait till i can eat and drink a little bit more normal and i will be happy.
aug 14th,04 well not much has changed im still having problems getting all my protein in.1 of the reasons is taste i have gone though alot of differnt ones. right now im drinking isopure its better than the milk like ones. but its so dang on sweet i had to mix with with some tea to day to try and mask that sweet taste.i ordered some unjury unflavor today and i hope it doesn have a flavor and i will add it to drinks and food then i can get in all the protein i need.so pray for me lol im going to need it.because once i gets here im going to have to drink it just like this high azz isopure i have already.as for getting food in i had a 1/2 thing or refriend beans today with chesse but it has taken me since 11am (its 6 pm now)to get almost all of it down.i dont know if thats normal or not but thats about all i can do. o and i had 1oz of chicken. im still having problems with meat of any kind or fish.im still on blended food and will be the rest of this month.My prayer for today is LORD please let things get better.i mean i m good when it comes to walking or doing things around the house but its killing me wasnting to drink some nice cold water or juice or tea and cant get but a few sips in before it starts to hurt.its only been 16 days so if it doesnt get better in the next few weeks im going to call my doc office back. im not do to see my surgern till sep 7th.im so tired of applesauce and jello and refriend beans that i dont know what to do :o(.
Aug 18,04 well i went to the ER and was there all most all of last night :o( .im still hurting from eating and drinking.1st off i had to go off on folks because they kept telling me that this is normal BULL.they did a scan test (dont know the name) and it showed everything was ok. but im sorry i cant keep doing this. it hurts so bad when i eat or drink that it has made me cry some days.i am going back to the doc office tomarrow.im just praying that they dont give me that same damn its normal line.why is it that out of everyone i have talked to that has already had this surgery(some even that had it same day as me)didnt have this problem.im happy about the weight lost im now 309 if their scale was right.but damn what a way to lose feeling like your dieing for something to eat and drink.man if i could just drink with out the pain it wouldnt be so mad.
Aug 25,04 i went to see my surgeon on the 19th. he took me off the actigall.he seems to think that it may be messing my stomach up.im praying that is what it is so i know i will be getting better.im able to get in a few bites now so i think that may have been it.im going to have a scope thing lol done in the morning to make sure everything is ok.to top it i have a dang on cold and im finding it hard to take meds for it.but im making it i just have to keep telling myself that i did the right thing by having this surgery.as of aug 19th im down 28 lbs 307.which is great cant wait till i hit under 300 i will be so happy.
AUG 26 went and had the scope thing done and they did have to use the thing to open me up some.he said it was very tight down there.so eating and drinking doesnt cause pain any more thank god.
Sep 5th,04 im soooo depressed that i dont know what to do.im having problems finding food to eat and things to drink that i can stand the taste of.love milk and was trying to use lactose free milk(which i had to use even before surgery)to take my protein powder in.but it made me so sick i was calling on the lord.why am i the only damn person on here that i have talked to that 12 damn grams of suger fucks up.im sorry for the cussing but i feel like im going crazy.my hands are peeling so bad and the acne on my face and back is worse then when i was 16.what i want to know is when is this shit going to get better.everyone says its going to get better yea ok WHEN damnit.im a month out and my ass still having problems eating.right now the only thing i can eat with out problems is water melon and i even got some of it a few days ago that was so damn sweet i couldnt take it.which i know is because my damn taste buds have been changed damn can i just eat or drink any damn thing and it taste right and go down with no problems.guess im just feeling bad for myself but its getting to the point i think i need to go for help for depression.only damn good thing is i think im under 300 now but i cant even enjoy that shit right now.
SEP 9,04 i have seen the surgeon and the dietitian both of which told me i have got to get more fluids in.im trying i really am because i really dont want to be out some were and pass out on the floor lol.which is how i feel alot of the time.im down to 294 so im still losing weight but got to get better at getting protein and water in.also found out that july 21st i was 338.1 not 335 i know small differnce but hey i want credit for those extra 3 lbs i lost lol.well i dont have much more to say to day not much else has changed.
SEP 21,04 well i joined the ymca last week and have started to doing water work outs. i try very hard to get to the pool about 30 mins early so i can walk laps in the pool before class starts.im shooting for 4 days a week work out in the pool i want to do six days and resting on the 7th.
Oct 9,04 i havent been on this site for awhile i have just been though so much that i just didnt feel up to it.good news is im down to 280.but the rest of my life has been hell for the last week or so.i have tried very very hard to keep my eyes on the prize and to stay on top of my work outs and foods im eating but i have been sick on top of other things happening in my life the last 2 weeks that have just made me say fuck it.i know i will get back on track im just going though a ruff period in my life right now.and i need to slow down and breath and firgue out how im going to do what i know i n eed to do.well dont have much else to say just needed to vent a little.guess when i can bring myself to talk about it i will post more on whats happening.
OCT 26th,04 well im a year older I turned 37 Oct 17th and it was depressing lol.no cake no icecream no party :o(.but i got over it giving everything up at one time is some hard shit to do yall.
but im getting better at it i guess because i weighed in today at 269 so im 69 pounds down.but i would be telling a lie if i said that getting up and working out is easy.im cool once i get started its just starting which is why im looking for a work out friend that is use to getting up everyday and working out.so he or she can push my ass to get up and do it 2.
Dec 5th,04 well lets see im down to 255. so im down 83 lbs ifi did that math right lol.its still hard for me to get all the protein in but i am doing better.Im able to get more fluids in now which is good.but i seem to be hungry all the damn time.so what i try and do is just drink some times when i think im hungry.I still cant take bread of any kind whihc i guess is good but i have been dieing for s sandwich lol i guess because i know i cant have it.funny how yor brain works but over all im doing much better just gettign tired of eating the same things over and over.
Jan 18,05 ok im down to 241 im stillhaving pproblems with the protein drinks and powders.They still make my stomach crap im not sure why and the surgeon and others i have talked with dont know either.Im happy about my weight lost but very upset about not having a 100 pounds gone yet :o( these last darn 3 pounds just wont come off. i have been back and forth reading on the site but i do have to say i dont as much as i use 2.
I work out some kind of way every day im hitting the Ymca to work out no less than 3 days a week i shoot for everyday but it doesnt always happen since im not driving right now.
Jan 27 2005 im down to about 240 which it seems i have been at 242 or 240 for ever.Any way i had my tonsils removed jan 21,05 and your would think that i would have lost some pounds during this time i cant eat.well id id i lost the damn water weight that the Iv's added on to my ass during the 24 hrs i was in the hospital.But now im down to 240 where i was at before the surgery and i havent lost any more all this week.I know im being to hard on my self and that i need to stay off the scale.its been six months and im still not down 100 pounds these last 30 pounds have been so hard to get off.i have not been able to go to the Ymca since Thur and i can feel it.I cant believe im saying this but icant wait to get back to working out.
March 1 05 Well still having problems with the protein drinks which i feel like is making my lost slow but as of today i am down 109 pounds which makes me 229lbs.Im so happy about my lost but im still working everyday to eat right and worek out.when i dont work out its to the point now that i feel bad and get mad at myself for not making it.Which i think is a good thing because it makes me get up off my butt and hit the gym.
March 31,05 Im down 123 pounds i now weight 216 and im so happy to have that weight off.i have 46 more pounds to go to get to my goal weight im sooooo excited i want to yell it out every where i go lol.im still in the habit of working out adn days i dont get to go to the YMCA i can feel it. my body seems to almost shut down when i dont go work out.i have notice that at a certain time of the afternoon and evening i seem really really hungry im working on getting a new treadmill so when that hunger hits i can jump on it and start walking. Im really trying to set up a routine that i can stick with the rest of my life to keep this weight under control.
April 23,05 Im not doing to good i was down to 215 now im back up to 217 i do n ot beleive this.I have been told that more than likely its muscle because im weight lifting heavy every other day>so now i have to make up my mind if i want to keep working on getting toned up or do i want to do just cardo to get the weight going again.I dont know what to do because i really want to be toned and get cut but i also want to get down to my goal weight.Guess i need to talk with a trainer to get a better understanding of what i should do.
Aug 13,05 i have written in here in awhile so i will have to break all the new info down a little at a time lol. Well im a yr out and down to 195 from 339 :o) and very very happy about that.Im still working out but have had to cut down some because of some nerve damage to my left leg and foot.long story but short version i have no idea how it happen and so far the docters dont either or how to fix it. but im still trying to work my tool and get down to my goal weight of 170.
