4 mths in!

Jun 12, 2009

I guess I realized at my age I'm never goin to look like I did when I was 17 sooooo I needed to do some soul searching and make my mind realize this was a good and healthy weight to be.  I have 40 lbs to go and I'm STOKED and more than half way to goal!!!   I lost alot of weight with my divorce but I sure wasn't healthy and was on the brink of a horrible hospital stay and it took my children to pull me out of it. Thank God they were there for me.   I'm havin the time of my life now, I'm healthy and the weight is coming off with the help of my band. I have read where some say this was the easy way out and it really really irks me to say the least.  This is FAR from the easy way out! We are reminded on a daily basis that if we don't follow the band rules we stall and get frustrated and want to give up.  I have trained my mind body and soul to eat right, exercise and smile more and let me tell ya it's not easy!   I still look in the mirror and don't see anything new but people do tell me how well I'm doing. I guess I'll always see that "fat" girl lookin back at me. It's the disease talking because it has ruled my life for so long. Now that I'm down 40+ lbs I'm looking forward to the future with my kids and my grand kids. OH WHAT A FEELING!  I could write a book on the way an overweight persons mind corrupts their life and sends us into a downward spiral. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my band and like so many others wish I had of done this sooner. With the help of God and me of course I will get to my goal and will learn to smile more and be happy in my skin and like the person looking back at me in the mirror.

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