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Wow, it's been forever since I've posted on here. Well. today that changes. I've gained 22 pounds, and I'm ready to lose them. For a while there, I didnt care what I ate or how much--I was going thru some serious emotional ish. BUT, one thing I've realized, is that I had not given myself time to experience the new body that I was blessed with. But now All that changes. I plan to write ery thing I eat, to keep myself accountable. So here it goes:

I ate a can of tuna for bk fast.

I ate a can for lunch.

I ate some chicken spaghetti, minus the noodles. So basically some veggies and chicken in spaghetti sauce.

Oh yea, I snuck 2-3 raviolli noodles from my daughter's plate at lunch.

I like tuna. If you go easy on the mayo, the result is kinda dry tuna that feels like a little rock in ur belly. Quite filling :)

Until tommorrow...

Wow. Where do I start....

Well, a little over a month ago I found myself in a string of bad luck. Spent the night in jail, court cost, bills, spring clothes for the kids, etc...everything was piling up. At the same time, I was having a horrible time with these rashes under my panni. So I decided to change/fix my ways, and exit the bar and head for church. Cuz, I was surely kickin it! It was bringing a sure fire curse in my life.

So I start going to church, and I said to myself. You know what, man gone do what man gone do. If this judge throws the book at me and fine me a million dollars--so be it---I'm giving my money to God first--and let the chips fall where they may.

AND WHAT DID I DO THAT FOR? OHHH WEE!

Totally blessed. All, and I mean all, of the money that I lost in paying of my court debts had been restored to me, my car...required little work to be fixed, money kept comming into my account. I'd tithe off of it, and I'd get more. Surely, I have been blessed.

So a few weeks ago, I had my ps consult for a panniculectomy. Submited the paper work to the ins. co. and was DENIED.

I started researching everything I could about appeals, and used one of them that I found online in creating my own. It was 6 pages. The thing is, that all of the Ohio appeals that I read online had ended badly for the patient. ALL of them were denied. So I knew that if I had to go all the way, that I would have a very heavy battle on my hands. And it vexed me. I thought about it night and day. And I prayed to the Lord, and I begged and begged.

I submitted my appeals 2 days ago, and this morning, I got a call from the insurance company with the news THAT I HAD BEEN APPROVED! Yea!
PRAISE THE LORD!

Its been said, that panniculectomy is one of the hardest surgeries to get approval for...and I'm a living testament that GOD MAKES A WAY WHEN THERE SEEMS TO BE NO WAY!.

As a matter of fact, I've read only a few OHIO panniculectomy stories, and NONE here in TOLEDO, OHIO. So, I wanted to make sure that I pay it forward for all of those in the struggle, who like me, spends hours scouring the internet, hoping for that glimpse of hope that someone has in some way, paved the road for them.

Here is my info:

I have Paramount Advantage insurance
I was denied at first,
Appealed then Approved.
I am a resident of Toledo, Ohio.
Yes, panniculectomies are approved, even without a hernia.

I suffered from consistant rashes, shoulder pain, and high blood pressure. I will be more than willing to forward a copy of my appeal letter, all you have to do is shoot me an email.

And remember,
In all things, consider HIM, and then thank HIM.

For the Word says,
"No eye has seen,
No ear has heard,
 No mind has conceived 
 What God has prepared for those who love him--
But God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. "

Amen~~

I had my first appointment with Dr. White, and he pulled out the drainage tube.....omg THE PAIN.  HELL, IM STILL IN PAIN!  That shit hurt, yup, it really did.

But on a better note, I lost 11.5 pounds in one week! yeah me!

My official pre op wieight was 298, as of today, i wieght 287. I am so excited.  I didnt know i lost that much, I cried in the exam room, im such a sap.  All I can say is thank you Jesus!

Im tired, i have a cold, and no voice so im ending this post early.  Have a blessed day!

Honesty is the best  policy. So cliche'. However, most people don't honor that. I would even go as far as to say that  most people that to be honest is to be foolish.  There have been so many times when my honesty was not appreciated. Times when I was mocked for even admitting mistakes, but today, my honesty was honored and understood. In this life changing descion, God showed me favor and showed both my nurse and doctor reason.  Here's my story:

I quit smoking on August 5th, 2007.  I went nearly 30 days without smoking. Well my sister fell ill, and I took a smoke sometime in september.  But i got back on the wagon and tried to continue to be smoke free.  However, on several occassions i  succomed to social smoking whenever i was around friends.  I just couldnt resist.  I had no problems at home, hell, i never even really thought about ciggarettes, but i seemed to be so weak around friends and relatives.

This surgery date has come so quick, i scheduled this surgery almost a month ago, and the time has just flown by.  I became scared, anxious, exited, nervous, making my ability to say no even harder. 

What broke the camel's back was when i smoked this week, hell, i have surgery on monday of next week.  How could i consciously go through with it  knowing that had a a few ciggies the week before? So i told my nut about my feelings and about my smoking.  Then she told the nurse, who then called me and notified me that she was going to tell the doctor.  Of course, i knew that there was a chance that my nut would tell the doctor, but at the time, i felt as if i had to, because i felt that he needed to know the same information that i did.

But I didnt realize the impact of the possibility of hear.............ing her call me to tell me that my surgery was cancelled.  I thought that I would be ok either way, but I just became even more scared. Scared at the thought of never reaching my full potential, and throwing away a very big blessing from God.  I became frantic.

I felt so stupid for telling the truth.  I mean, come on, who tells the truth these days? I felt like a stupid freakin idiot.  But i contiplated
 my actions, and you know what--I NEED TO GROW THE FK UP!   I cant smoke to be social, i cant afford it.  I have responsibilites to my kids and my self and to my surgeon not to smoke, not to get ulcers, not to put my life at risk.  So i decided, if he says he's cancelling, then i deserve it!

But that didnt stop me from praying and asking for favor. And you know what? I got it!!   Kathy from Dr. White's office said that they appreciated my honesty, and if i promise never to smoke again, that they will go ahead with my suregery. WOW! Thank you Jesus! Thank you for your favor! WOW!  She said that she could feel my emotions about the situation and my confession.

Positive results from being honest? Wow, i had to write this down.
God is so good to me, he gives me so much favor, for that Lord, I thank you. Amen.

Well, I missed the first set of scheduled tests, and I had to rescheule them to Oct. 17th and 18th.  I offically have a date: November 19th at 10:30 am!!!! Whoooooooo hoooooooooooooo!

I am so excited about this whole thing. Although my body feels so horrible. I feel like someone has strapped sand bags to my body.  Its like my wants to move at galcier pace and anything faster than that is unacceptable.  And my feet....dont let me get started on those! They hurt so badly when i get up to walk. The pain.........I'm at my highest wieght of my life, and I really believe that I am just too short to carry this wieght.  My freaking everything hurts. And i have this horrid sinus thing goin on. Its really fucking with my breathing. Its like my nose is partially stopped up and only allowing to get most of the air I am supposed to get.  And this same bugger keeps growing back ever fuckin day. I take it out...next day..its back. What the hell? At first i thought it was the ciggy smoke drying my nose, but I dont smoke anymore, (ok, I cheated once this week) but still, my nose feels sooo dry.

I plan to do this beginner salsa dance dvd, I really would like to lose 15 pounds before surgery. It will give me a great head start!

Ok, so I had my psych. eval on Sept. 5th.  I got the results back two weeks later. I think it was the 17th.

So today, I call the surgeon's office, talked to Kristi, (to give her my cell phone number in case im not at home when she calls),  and she said that I was approved last night. I just spoke to her on monday, she didnt even have the psych eval yet.  So, some time, between tuesday and thursday it came,and in two days time.....I WAS APPROVED! YAHOOOOO!

GOD IS SO SO SOOOO GOOD, ALL THE TIME, EVERY DAY. HIS MERY ENDURES FOR EVER, I KNOW THAT HE WILL NEVER LEAVE OR FORSAKE ME.  I LOVE CHRIST, AND HE LOVES ME. I AM BLESSED BECAUSE OF HIS LOVE AND I WILL CONTINUE TO BE BLESSED BECAUSE I WILL NEVER CEASE TO LOVE AND REVERE HIM.

ON MY WAY TO THE LOSERS' SIDE!
 PRAISE JESUS!

My appt. dates:

Oct. 3rd @ kristi , 9:30 am
Oct. 4th, @ Dr. White's office 5800 monroe, 9:15 am
Oct. 17th @Kristi, 2 pm.
October 3rd@physical therapy @ 1045 am

I am totally regretting cheating smoking ciggies right now. I told the lady at the dr. office, she souded very upset.  I dont think it'll delay the surgery. I will never smoke again! Oh, GOD, help me, eeek!

L	Legendary
I	Important
S	Slippery
A	Ambitious

What does slippery supposed to mean?? lol. I dont know.....my mind totally goes in the gutter on that one...he he.

I snagged this from someone's blog area. Man, what a transformation. I want to be her when I grow up lol.

Im beginning to lose the fight against ciggy smoke. I havent smoked to day, but i did yesterday. Ive got to get a grip on this.

When u see awesome transformations, it makes wanna work out everyday, hell even start now...but my big lard ass just wont get up.

Here is an awesome post on fear. It was posted in the forum, just today, and i had to hijack it.


F.E.A.R. is simply this
False 
Evidence
Appearing 
Real

The Devil's job is to Steal Kill and destroy (John 10:10)
We tend to think that he means to physically kill us, but Sometimes it simply means to Steal the words and promises that God has spoken over us. 
He wants to Kills the dreams that God has place inside of us. 
He wants to destroy the self image that we have, simply because he knows that we are made in God's Image. 

If the devil can kill our dreams, steal our promises, and destroy our image, he can get us into to a level of fear that we have us stagnant and scared to move.

If you keep reading John 10:10, Jesus, says "But I have come that they might have life and have life more abundantly" God wants us to live in abundance. That means our health, our money, our everyday lives.

You post ops had enough faith to going under the knife to change your life. Whether you call it faith in God or Faith in your surgeon. It was still faith.
Us Pre ops have made the decision to do the same. I'll tell anyone...Don't let the devil take faith!!

Here is my weight lost wish list:

1. weigh 150 pounds

2. take sexxxxy pics

3. takes some professional  family pics with my kids 

4. Make 7 corset outfits size 10--and rock the hell out of em!

5. Be totally sexxy every day for one whole year...no breaks!

6. off topic, but get a nice paralegal job and not let the stupids of the world affect my work perfomance. 

7. Off topic again.. take my kids on 2 cruises this year! this is a must do!

8. oh yea, i wouldnt mind meeting a well to do man that is everything i envision a real man to be...or at least very very close to it.

9. Get to at least chapter 10 in my book before the new year.