Loralea

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I added more to my story. Hopefully, it's not too much to read, but I thought a day by day account of getting from the seminar to the surgery might help some other Type A personality out there. It really does progress, it just seems like forever.

I'm trying to get more involved in the local message board. I know I'm going to need support during and after the surgery, and I don't really have any friends or much family nearby. With 5 kids, a husband, and a full time job, I just haven't made time for a network of friends. The company I'm currently working for (who provides the awesome insurance that covers the surgery) is in San Diego. I work remotely out of my home office here in TX, so I don't even coworkers near by. Anyway, poor me...lol. I figured this was the best place to find some support.

I read the posts everyday, and have been for awhile. I just can't ever think of much to say back, especially to people who don't know me. It seems like a majority of people who post regularly on the board are all post-op. The pictures and stories are all amazing and inspiring, but intimidating too. I feel like everyone's going to look at me like I'm the fat, disgusting slob that they left behind 100+ pounds ago. Rationally, I know that's my own insecurities - everyone seems genuinely warm, accepting, and generous - but it doesn't make connecting any easier. I've decided to go to the Ft. Worth support group meeting on saturday morning. I'm half dreading it, and half looking forward to it. Either way, I'm going! I think it will be easier to talk to people on the message boards after I've met some face to face, and have more to talk about. I can't believe I'm admitting all this here, but I want it down it writing. When, I'm post-op I want this here to remind myself to reach out to others who are pre-op, and remember how hard it can be for some newcomers.

Wow, enough pity party for me. EEK! :-)

It's only been 2 1/2 weeks since I found out the surgery is covered for medical necessity, but it seems much longer. I was expecting a wait for insurance approval (hopefully approved). I just wasn't expecting all of the things I would have to do before it's even submitted to insurance for them to make a decision. So I'm still trying to be patient, and having no luck at it.

To keep myself busy in the meantime, and help me feel like I'm making progress at least, I started the pre-op diet. It was hard the first couple of days, but not too bad now.

I'm under the delusion that my surgeon's office will get all the reports back and submit everything to the insurance company next week. And that they'll turn around in 24 hours with an approval. Then the surgeon's going to want to schedule me right away....so it will be a good thing that I started that pre-op diet when I did. Otherwise I'd have to wait two weeks for that too. Well, it doesn't hurt to dream about it anyway :-)