Weigh in Sunday! The struggle continues...

May 29, 2011

I weighed in today at 133.5 lbs. The same as last week. No gain...but no loss. None. Zip. Nada. Nothing. I'm not sure what's going on but I think I might be about to start my cycle. This past week was tough which I expected. Before I stepped on the scale this morning I felt like I had done okay this past week. I didn't do as well as I hoped but didn't do too bad either. The first couple of days of the week I did okay with my routine but fell down the last few days. Yesterday was the hardest day with today climaxing at about 5:00 p.m. I'm okay now...actually recovering from some emotional trauma. I realized that my relationship with food has totally changed. I knew this before but became very aware of it today. I no longer need/use food to make me feel better or help me to make a decision about how I'm going to feel or react to a situation. No matter how bad I feel I now realize that I would rather take that pain head on and not eat to cover it up. Taste, quality and atmosphere of eating is important rather than quantity and how much of a high I can get from the extremes of food. Super sweet, super salty, super greasy etc. Crazy crazy crazy how much of an emotional battle eating and living or living to eat actually is. I did make it to church today which was really a blessing. I'm off tomorrow and I exceedingly glad because I am truly weak and tired. I'm going to go to bed early and get some much needed rest. I hope that tomorrow will be even better than today helping me to prepare for a good positive new week. Here is a picture of me at yesterday's Zumba block party. I always enjoy my Zumba workouts but to me you could tell how tired I was.

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