Some Updates

Sep 20, 2009

Here I am almost 30 months out.  I'm still doing well in post-op life.  I have, however, returned to some bad habits.  I'm still less than my surgeon's goal but I feel like a big, fat pig some days.  I'd like to lose 15 lbs to get back to my lowest.  There's no way I'm buying clothes in a bigger size.  It's the principle of it now.  lol  I'm still in size 4 but size 6 fits better. lol

Life has been a roller coaster of sorts.  As my May 2007 family knows, my husband has been less than supportive of the new me.  The word "repulsive" was tossed out more than once.  I joined an "adult" chat site though my end of it is more "chat" than "adult".  If anyone wants more info, private message me.  I've actually met 10 people who had RNY so we talk about post-op life a lot.  My husband also joined this virtual world and has become horribly addicted to it.  So addicted that he'd come to bed at 5:50 am knowing I wake up by alarm at 6.  Well, hugely long story short, I was in a "club" in this virtual world and the live DJ played a song by Tesla.  You 80s babies will remember Tesla.  Anyway, their new song is called "Breakin' Free".  Read the lyrics.  That night I got the kick in the skinny ass I needed.  On September 11 I filed for divorce.  This virtual, yet very live DJ plays this song for me at every show.  It gave me the strength because that song is 100% about my life.

I'm not sure what the future will bring but it has to bring better things for me and my daughter.  She's fine with the divorce.  Some events happened that have made her HATE him with every fiber of her being and I find that sad.  So, I'm not only doing this divorce for me, but to show her that no woman, or person for that matter, deserves to be treated badly.

Sorry to make this post so long but I wanted to let you all know what's going on.  Surgery brings lots of changes.  Some changes are fabulous and some really make you open your eyes.  But, I wouldn't trade my new life for my old one ever!

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