MacOnMe
I think I'm in a funk...
Aug 28, 2009
I am in such a funk lately...I'm sad, depressed, lonely...and a number of other things. I know I should be extremely excited right now about surgery, which I am! I'm so thankful and lucky to have insurance approval and a surgery date. I know that having that Gastric Bypass is going to one of the hardest things I will ever have to do. I'm ready for this challenge and o start the next chapter in my life.I am so thankful to everyone on OH that blogs about their experience. Each person has help me in a different way. I read all the posts and look at all the pictures and I'm so proud of everyone. I notice that most people have a significant other even before the weight loss. I think that's where my loneliness is coming from. Don't get me wrong I have my family and a few friends who are here for me, but they really don't understand a fraction of how I feel or what I am about to go through. I am so emotional these days and I have no one to talk to about it. I know I don't need a boyfriend or a husband to get through this, but it would be nice to have someone. I'm 25 years old and I have never been on a date, never had a boyfriend. I have tons of guy friends, but that's exactly just what it is, friendship. I know I'm still young and have tons of time to meet the right person, but Id at least like to have trial and error. This partly to do with a new guy at work. When he and I first met I literally couldn't breath, I thought Id died and gone to heaven. He is so nice, and funny and super easy to talk to. We get along great. BUT each time I see him a little part of me just dies inside I know better than to like someone like him. I'm the last person he would look at in that way. I work in a ER with a ton of young beautiful single doctors and nurses and he can pretty much have his pick of anyone. I blame the fact that he wouldn't be interested in me because of me weight,. I am scared that once the weight does eventually come off , what If i still cant find someone. I know, I know thats another whole set of anxiety prescriptions waiting to happen. Its just scary for me. I don't want anyone here to think that I'm doing this surgery for vanity reasons. For me that is a perk. I just want to me healthy and around to see my nieces grow up. I have prepared myself for all the health risks and things that are risk that may or may not happen when it comes to WLS. I just hope that if that time ever comes that I have someone to help me cross that bridge. Like I said Im in a funk.....
Thanks for reading...
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About Me
Alsip, IL
Location
40.4
BMI
Surgery
09/29/2009
Surgery Date
Oct 20, 2008
Member Since
