Initial consult on June 2nd....ready...set...go....

May 27, 2011

It's been a long, hard battle. A life time of yo yo dieting. I remember being 11 years old sneaking my dad's Grape-fruit 2000 diet pills! That summer I lost 30lbs eating a bowl of cereal for breakfast, a can of tuna for lunch and half of whatever was on my dinner plate. After that I became active into sports and didn't have a weight problem. I had my first child...I gained 80lbs and lost if effortlessly...had my 2nd child and gained 100lbs...took 4 years to get if off and then i got pregnant with my 3rd child..gained 100 lbs....took 3 years of a strict vegan diet and 4 hours of walking a day to take it off...gained 120lbs with my 4th child....that was 3 years ago...and I have GAINED not lost any weight.
I'm so done..I've been on a diet my entire adult life. I don't want to obsess over it any more. I don't why i can't stop after one serving...that off switch is broken in brain. I was a raw foodist for a month..I went through a horrible 'detox"..lost 40lbs and gained back 50!
It doesn't seem fair to me or my family that THIS is what consumes me on a daily..hourly basis. I want to LIVE MY LIFE..I want to travel..explore..not be confined by the limitations of my own body. Geeze..I just want to take my kids on a play date and not worry about being the fattest mom there.
I'm ready to do this... I have my initial consultation on Thursday.. I've heard you should excersize and eat healthy BEFORE your surgery..so starting today (saturday) I am going to start walking and conditioning my body for the surgery to come. I'll let you all know how the consult goes- Mahana

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