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This sweet baby of mine was born July 23rd. He is now almost 10 weeks old and I couldn't be happier to have him here in this world with me. He was a little guy weighing in at 6lbs 2.4 oz. I gained 26lbs altogether in this journey and so far I have lost 17 of those lbs and my weight is losing at a rate of about 3-4lbs a month now. He is such a good baby and such a beautiful child and I'm not saying that because he's my baby but he is totally different than what I ever experienced with other babies. When he was born the first thing I heard was "look at all of that hair!" A week before I delivered I had an ultrasound done and they were able to photograph that he had hair, they just didn't know how much hair he had. My little pal had so much lanugo on him that he didn't have enough time to shed all of it. He has a full thick crown of wavy hair on his head but his forehead, ears and back were still hairy. I thought it was so cute because he had all of that hair but his eyebrows took a month to start coming in. Everyone wanted to see him so bad but out of everyone I was so happy when my father came to see him. He was the first visitor, and my father didn't know that I had given the baby's middle name his name until he met him and I delivered a heartfelt letter to him. My dad was honored. My baby is Constantine the III in his family and my husband and his father couldn't be more happier. Raising him has become second nature to me. After bringing hundreds of puppies into the world and helping nursed so many other animals having my own offspring has just been a blessing. I didn't get the depression that so many people talked about. I remember what it was like when doctor after doctor told me that I would never conceive naturally so the entire ride has been fun and it gets better everyday. Not havin a dull moment in my life anymore is what I love the most.  

Well its been a month now and I thought I would report that sooo much has happened. My baby's birthday was set for July 24th, it has now been moved up a day. I will have him on Wednesday the 23rd! Tuesday I go and see the doctor and then next day is the big day. I have no gained 21lbs in this journey. I will know my total weight gain on Tuesday. Time is really starting to fly. I feel like I didn't get not nearly everything that I wanted to do like the entire house but my husband promises me that it will get done before we return home from the hospital. He is in nesting mode along with me so I have great faith that it will get done.

Last time I wrote I think I was around 35 weeks. When I got to week 37 I couldn't wait for him to arrive. It wasn't because I was tired of being pregnant I just knew that at that age he was considered at term and I just started wanting to see him. All the cute clothes I've got for him I just can't wait to put them on him. I feel so unorganized but then again I ask myself, " Can you ever really be ready like you think you should be?" I don't think anyone can be. It has gotten to the point where I have started over buying things and I guess a part of me is just in shock... Its like I cannot believe that a human is going to come out of me. Like a part of me has acknowleged it but has been in some part of denial.  I've bought all of this baby stuff but none of it really hit a dose of reality into me until last week when I bought diapers and baby wipes. My husband and I both were just in shock. It was like "Wow! This is really happening." I had never bought diapers and wipes and to open these and store them was just weird. The pampers was so little. Then I saw a week old baby this weekend and she was so tiny. I hope I don't freak out when its time to hold someone so small.

Meanwhile, Im just trying to do all I can without stressing myself before Wednesday. This weekend was a great weekend. We went to the movies, and I went to a huge consignment sale where I racked up on all the final things that I needed extras on. I also got my hair done into something easily manageable after I have the baby.  My husband spent most of the day Saturday adding the final touches to the nursery. He installed extra receptacles as his nursery only had one. He is such a sweetheart. He has really transformed that room. It used to be a bonus room but now its a large beautiful nursery. He painted it and put extra outlets in. I of course was in charge of all the decor and him and I teamed together on placement of the furniture.

At any rate this has been a great experience. I have no one but God and Dr. Richards to thank for this. Had it not been for them I don't think I would have ever gotten pregnant. If I could I would be pregnant forever.

Well its been a while since I've updated so I thought I would get on here and write my update. I am now 34 1/2 weeks pregnant. I went to the doctor this past Monday and I now have a scheduled delivery date. After months of facing the inevitable I have decided to be on the safe side and have an elective c-section. If he can hang out in there for a little longer he is scheduled to be induced at 39 weeks. We are scheduled to be at the hospital on July 24th at 8 AM. 

I have lots to do as his nursery is still being repainted and he has orders still coming in for his nursery from all over the world. His nursery furniture arrived in May so all I will have to do is set everything into place, unpack everything, and hang his clothes and have his linens dry cleaned and hang all of the wall decor up and I still have to practice this car seat thing and once I get that down then I have to teach my husband how to work the car seat. Easier said then done. I have 11 dogs to take care of. One of them may be having puppies, and my poor husband is working 60hrs a week so that he can take a couple of vacation days off when the little one arrives.  Gosh I love this child and I haven't even met him yet. Pregnancy is weird because the whole time you feel absent minded and you know something beneficial is inside of you but you really don't feel or believe that its a person. A lot of times I have found myself forgetting that I had a preggo tummy and I would find myself trying on shirts and it taking a second to realize that it doesn't fit right because of my stomach :laughs:.  All in all its been a wonderful experience. If he didn't have to come out at some point I would be pregnant forever.  

I have to say that gastric bypass has given me confidence that I never thought i'd have even at pregnancy. I have only gained 10 lbs in this journey so far and I have gotten nothing but compliments and I have to say that I think I look pretty darn good to be in my 3rd trimester. A lot of women tend to overeat big time thinking that they have to eat double sized meals for the 2 of them. I didn't do this, here in the 3rd trimester my hunger drive started to pick up but I am so used to eating everything low fat, low sugar that the extra snack and meal hasn't affected me. I was still considered overweight when I got pregnant at 168lbs so I knew that I had enough fat reserves that he would take in regardless if I ate more or not. 9 months is a long time to eat out of your normal diet and thats how bad habits come back. As a result I have gotten so many compliments in that my face and body didnt swell up and everyone can tell that my 10lbs is all baby.  

I predict that in my next pregnancy I will "show" quicker but still will not gain much. No one could really tell that I was pregnant until about 3 weeks ago. I think next time it will show in the 2nd trimester. 

As far as the baby goes, he has passed every test and he has been closely monitored because Im a gastric bypass patient. His weight at about 32 weeks was 3lbs 14oz which was slightly bigger than norm for his age. So he's a plump little fella, I saw his fat little cheeks on the ultrasound. I go back on the 30th for another growth ultrasound and he should be close to 6lbs by then.  I can tell that space is really cramped for him now as his movements feel more compact . I was told that around 34 weeks there would be a major slowdown in movement because he is about out of space to move around because he's growing so rapidly. Sleep is really hard to get nowadays. Like a baby I have to rock myself to sleep. Anyway its now 1 AM and im going to attempt to get a couple of hrs of sleep. Goodnight.

Well today I am one year post op and today I am also 26 weeks into my pregnancy. What a day! It has been a quick year. If someone had told me that I would lose a ton of weight and be pregnant I would have laughed as if they just told me that they were Jesus. When I went in I was 256lbs. Today I am at 172lbs. Its funny because in this pregnancy up until now I have only gained a maximum of 8.5 lbs but then I lost a couple of lbs here recently. When I became pregnant I was at 172lbs, but a month later I was still losing and I was at 168. Then in Jan. my weight started picking back up and I gained 3lbs. Earlier this month I was at 176.5 but then I found out that I have to have iron infusions and b12 shots because I cannot absorb the pill form so now along with vitamin D and my prenatals I am doing just fine but after the iron infusion I started getting more energy and now i have lost 4lbs. Anyway things are great and going along so fast. Next month I should be finished with the nursery. I can't believe that this is my last week in my second trimester. This next trimester is going to go very fast as I will be going to the doctor every two weeks for checkups.

Well I am now 18 weeks and I couldn't be more happier. I don't feel sick and slugish all the time anymore. Im full of energy again and I have started shopping for my baby. Today I went to the doctor and because my husband couldn't come due to work I told the doctor not to reveal the sex. Instead, I told him to put the pictures and the gender in an envelope and when my hubby got home we would find out then. When I saw the picture he was definitely all male. I'm so happy that I've given my husband a son for his first child.  I have a crib that is a custom built crib that I have to pick up tomorrow some four hrs away so I have to get to bed but I am so happy I can't sleep.  I am so proud of my baby's progress. My baby's test results came back and he is fine so far. A perfectly normal baby... I couldn't have asked for more.

Well I've now reached week 15 and I must say a part of me is still in shock but i'm not in denial. I'm upset because I have started gaining weight starting with 3lbs, and for the first time in a long time I feel hunger now. I am still so disappointed in all the time, surgeries, and money that I invested on these silly doctors who were all convinced that I needed IVF to have children. I went to the 3rd best clinic in the state which was Nashville Fertility Clinic and I met with the top doctor of them all which was a Dr. Whitworth and she told me that IVF was recommended.  Well so much for that. I can't cry about it now. I just wish the doctors could have just told me "Tara, its your weight." I lost weight thinking that when I was ready for a family I would make the investment in getting IVF and here I am in the middle of my beautiful weight loss progress it stops to a screaching hault because I'm pregnant. I am married and my husband was so happy that I couldn't be shelfish and get an abortion just because I wanted to look good. Once my baby was no longer a blastocyst and began taking the form of a human I couldn't bring myself to having one done. I had wanted a child so bad after losing mine 5 years ago but I didn't expect it to happen naturally at a time when I focusing more on me and not a family. Doctors should be more careful of what they tell their patients because after such disappointing news I had the mindset that I was infertile. Its like breaking the news that someone died and then realizing that they are still alive after letting the news settle in for a bit. 

I don't know if its selfish of me but I feel like just when I was just starting to live life, I get something handed to me that hinders it. I'll never be free like I wanted to be. I don't know if this is a blessing or a curse. When you are infertile for so long you start to make some kind of good of it and use it to your advantage. You kinda feel like you have this freedom in a way and then on the other hand you feel so out of place and sad at times and you dread the future. Now that i'm not infertile anymore I feel like "dang, is this real life?" unwanted pregnancies?, i'm just as common and ordinary as the next woman now. 

To complicate life even more I don't even get to look forward to having my baby like I wanted. I always dreamed of a natural birth with no meds. Now i'm being told that because I had an old fibroid tumor removed some 4 yrs ago that it would be in my best interest to have a C-Section to prevent uterine rupture. So now I look forward to drugs, being numbed up and a seeing a kid that I can't even hold immediately, i'll just get to look at until i get in the recovery room.  Because I will be having the same incision as when I had the tumor removed I look forward to that same pain again and a crying, nagging kid to boot.  I am trying to make the best out of the situation and it just strange how as prepared as we are for to welcome a baby and how I once wanted to adopt so bad, now I'm just so unhappy in a sense and I just don't see where this is going. I just have such mixed emotions.

Well another month has gone by and I am now in my second month. I am currently 9 weeks pregnant and its a pain in the rear. The baby is now the size of an olive. I had to quit my job because it was hazardous lifting 80+ lbs dogs all the time. Back in the days when I was in the mid 200's it was easy. Now i've lost so much weight and its just rough and it was risking my pregnancy. The baby seems to be doing fine right now. I am seeing two doctors because I am a gastric bypass person who is still losing weight so I am somewhat considered as high risk but I think the baby is going to develop just fine. I haven't weighed myself in about a week now. Last time I weight myself I was 172 with clothes off, now I weigh 172 with clothes and shoes on at the doctors office So i'm probably 169-170 now. I get dizzy everytime I get up nowadays.  Anyway thats all I have to report for now.

Wow, 



Sooo much has happened in the last month since i've wrote. I moved the wedding date up so my hunny came up here and we married! Just 4 days before the wedding though I found out I was expecting a baby!. I was so shocked. I thought for kicks I would take an early pregnancy test and it came up positive. I rushed myself to the hospital out of disbelief and they verified that I was pregnant. A couple of days later I was spotting so I freaked and went to the doctor but it stopped the same day and I haven't spotted again yet. My husband is so excited, its our first baby and I never expected to get pregnant naturally. For the last 5 years doctors told me that I would need to have IVF done and they couldnt figure out why I was infertile. For the last couple of years I didnt try having kids. I am just shocked that the second I lose weight I get pregnant without trying... It just happens by nature and accident. I am now weighing in at 176.4-177. I am so glad to be at a healthy weight however I am concerned about not losing too much weight while this pregnancy is going on. I have my first doctors appointment next week when I turn 6 weeks. I am hoping for the best!

Wow, 



It has happened already. It was exactly 6 months ago that I had surgery. Time has really gone fast. I weighed myself tonight and I weigh more than what I thought. I am only at 183.6.  I have lost 73 lbs in this journey so far. I am sad though because I have only lost 2 lbs in the last month. My weight loss is slowing down already. I was hoping to have lost close to a hundred by now. Oh well, meanwhile, I went into a store yesterday and a lady hadn't seen me since pre-op. She was shocked and amazed so that felt really good. My fiance will be here next weekend and I feel like my body is such a mess. He's moving up here a month before schedule and I just feel terrible. My self esteem is just wilted right now because I planned to look totally different and although i've lost 73lbs I still feel just as big as I was before I went in. I still have this big fat stomach and I just look terrible. Anyway thats all I have to say for now.

Well I just realized that its been over a month since my last post. I have been sooo busy. Business life didn't go so well, I ended up having to close my store. Meanwhile, I now weigh in at 185.4. I had a wow moment about a week ago. I was looking at myself and I noticed that I can see my collarbone now, it sticks out, then I noticed that my wrist bone sticks out... I was so freaked out I thought about going to the doctor, but then my friend told me thats normal for those bones to be noticable.. Ha! I felt like such a dingbat. I have been this weight for a couple of weeks now. I'm just waiting for my weight loss to pick back up. In the meantime I finally tried on clothes since all of mine were hanging off of me. I am now at a 16. They are tight around the hips but loose at the legs. I look funny in clothes right now. I never dreamed I'd be in the 180's again. The last time I weighed this much I think I was in the 11th grade. That was way too big for a junior back then. I kinda thought that for me to just drop 2 sizes after losing 70lbs was kinda low but after reading other womens profiles it seems to be the norm for 70lbs weight loss. My tummy is starting to go down but I need to do more exercises to firm my whole body up. I can't get rid of my upper thighs for nothing. Even when I was thin I still was a pretty shapely girl.  My fiance will be here in 2 months so I have to get on the ball even more so I can look good for his arrival. So here are my realistic body goals for the end of the year. 

1. Get a gym routine 
2. Be in the 150's by December
3. Become more toned
4. Look good when I finally get to woohoo :laughs:
5. Look nice in lingere