New month

Aug 31, 2010

 I am starting to feel better and put things in a little perspective.  Almost feel back to normal and it's only been a week. Who knew? You could be stabbed five times in the stomach and recover so quickly?  A little levity I guess. I weighed 303 today.  Pretty big.  I am starting to think about things other than the surgery so I guess that is a good sign.  There was so much focus and emphasis on it for so long...yet I'm not sure I was truly committed. Some of the people on this site gave me some good insight as to how I was feeling.  I am anxious to see the doctor...kind of wish the appointment was tomorrow instead of Friday but the extra days will give me extra perspective and probably some more questions to ask.I would really like to lose weight on my own. Maybe I can if I put my mind to it. I've been moving around a lot lately.    A lot more  I should say.  I'm still hesitant to discuss my true feelings (relief...a little)  I feel like I'm not supposed to admit that.  Guess I didn't really want to give up a portion of my stomach. I have to think about this some more...and more seriously. Hope God will help me with that!

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