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Well, I got home yesterday about 5pm, got to bed and took a little percocet induced nap,lol. I was able to just enjoy being pampered and get lots of rest. I had a little bit of a hard time with sleep, just finding a comfy spot, but managed alright. I was glad to be home, happy I was out patient!
I had my follow up appointment today, everything looked great. My bp was  a little high, but I haven't had my meds for two days, dh is going out to get a pill crusher right now. I'm sore and achy, but am slowly getting some energy back. I'm sipping on some broth as I write this. Thank God I made some homemade broth, it's a little bit of heaven compared to the canned crap. I thought I'd feel somehow 'different' but I don't, maybe it just hasn't hit me yet as I have only sipped water and broth. I will be on clear liquids until I see my doc next Tuesday. I just have to say what a wonderful doctor and staff I have to work with. They have been so supportive and kind throughout this whole process, thanks Dr. Kouli!!! That's all for now, gonna go put my feet up and doze for a while.....

Everything's worked out, and tomorrow is the day! All I have left to do is buy my vitamin supplements after work, and I'm all set. Got myself some new jammies for tomorrow, didn't sleep a wink last night between my anxiety and my teething baby girl...I'm surprisingly 'awake' today. Nervous energy I'm guessing. Anthony is being very sweet, sending supportive texts and such.
Today I wll get my office ready for me to be gone for a week, one last day of liquids while feeling hungry. I really can't wait to eat again, but my mindset is focused on high protein, healthy foods! That's so new to me! Well, I better get to work, (most likely I'll dink around the message boards for a while yet, lol)!! I can't beleive it's happening...tomorrow, a new and thin, healthy ME!

I was making homemade broth yesterday and while I was deboning the chicken I had a few bites. I hadn't had my evening protein shake so I justified eating it in my head. I felt like crap about it all evening.
I talked to my brother about it and felt better. I'm back on track today, focused and feeling strong. I am down 16 pounds as of this morning!!  It seems I always weigh less in the am, but I'll take it! I just love watching those #'s go DOWN!
I'm amazed at how open I am about my weight now. I never wanted my hubby to know the number, now I step on the scale right in front of him, talk about my highest weight ever,(something I NEVER would have done with out this suregery pending), and feel a new closeness to him. He's really trying his best to be supportive and I've had a few super bitchy moments with him. Poor guy, he's just an easy target. I try to stay so positive and happy at work. It's like I have to support the people around me through this weight loss, lol. People feel guilty about eating in front of me and I'm like "hey, I STILL have to be around food, I still have to function in the world"! I'm sure it will get easier for them over time. They are a great group of people and only want the best for me. Okay, confession and vent over for the day.

This pre-op liquid diet that is! I still REALLY look forward to that evening meal and am kind of dreading Tuesday when I go on full SFCL diet, but I know I can do it! I'm down 11 pounds and that is very encouraging. It is just getting so real now. I can feel changes happening already in my body and mentally and they are for the good. I'm gonna be healthy and a HOTTIE! YAY me!

I never realized how much I could consume in a day. It seemed like everywhere I looked there was food.
I grudgingly drank my protein shakes and tried to hide at lunchtime in the office. I hope this next two weeks goes by fast. I really want to succeed and I'm realizing this is NOT the easy way out. I'm going to have to work hard and sacrifice.
I'm encouraged though, I know I can do this. As I browse through the before and after pics I am dreaming of posting mine! Goodbye first day!