Marcie H.

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Am I the only one that feels judged by those who know I have had surgery? I am 11 months post op and am at a point that I can eat somewhat normally now - much smaller portions of course. I have noticed lately when I am out with family they watch my plate, I feel like they are watching me thinking she's going to eat too much again and gain all the weight back. I am still very careful in my food selections and my portions however I will order my own food instead of taking a few bites from their plates.

I haven't been on in awhile, life happens I guess.
I have recovered from my last surgery, went on vacation and settled back into my daily routines. Life is great...
The weight is now so slow, but I am staying steady. Yes I admit I need to exercise much, much more than I do....
I am able to eat basically anything but still follow the rules, eat right, slow and stay away from a lot of carbs.
Feeling great and yes I admit after everything that has happened in the last year. I am very happy I decided to have the surgery.

Whoot, Whoot

102 pounds gone!!!!
I am so excited to finally be here.....

I went in on July 8th (7 months exactly from my first surgery) to have a hernia repair. I had a "very large" hernia due to the first surgery and the infection that followed.
Oh my....   it has been so painful, the Dr's told me I would have a considerable amount of pain due to the fact that the hernia was so large.
It's been a week and I am finally starting to feel better, still very sore I walk like the hunchback and very slow, but I have to thankful that I was able to have it all done lapriscopically this time and no problems of infection (I must admit - I was sure worried)
I am also about 20 lbs away from being at a weight I feel I would be comfortable at.  If I continue loosing past that, then that will be a blessing to me, if not I will be happy there.

It's been awhile since I have updated, I still sign on frequently to see how eveyone else is doing, but really haven't had much to report.
I went to my doctor on Friday for my 6 month check up and to talk to him about the hard lump I have in the center of my stomach.
To date I have lost 90 lbs, went from a size 22 to a 16.... and have adjusted very well to everything despite the rocky road I started on. I can pretty much eat anything I want - but still very small amounts. I don't even try to push it because I like that I can take a few bites of something and be totally satisfied. I no longer have the queezy feeling when I eat things, but I can say at best that food no longer controls my life.  I can actually say no if someone invites me out to dinner because I'm just not that interested anymore.
Now as far as the hard lump... It's a hernia, so I am so happily looking at another surgery (not) according to the Dr is large in size which makes is less urgent so I can basically plan on having the surgery at my convience. (Bad thing to tell me - I may put if off forever) the thought of going through any of this again is not top on my list. It will be done lapriscopically (worked so well the first time)

Ok so I am a few weeks late off of my first goal.
I originally wanted to be under 200 by the time my daughter got married.
She was married on March 13th so I didn't quite make it.
The important thing is I got there, the last few weeks I have had a really slow go at it.  I know we all have pleateaus and it's an important part of the process, but like everyone else that has been there, it was very discouraging.
With all the complications I have had I am still not at a point of being so happy with my surgery I would recommend it to anyone else, however I am now at least feeling that it is still the right thing for me.
I had a terrible time resisting foods and now I know I have limitations and the end result is feeling very sick, not that it will make me fat, because obviously making me fat did not phase me.
I am still learning what works and doesn't work for me as far as food, still working hard to get in all my protein, but all in all I am doing well and so happy that I don't have to deal with constant dr appts and wound care. 

Just wanted to give my thoughts out there for anyone thinking about going to Disneyland and being concerned about eating. My family and I just went to California for Valentines weekend.
I had no problems at all finding things I could eat.
The hotel we stayed in had a small snack bar that had yogurts, I found chili 2 places that served mexican food so I could eat refried beans and a place that offered soups.  I could have also had a cheseburger with no bun, but I had plenty of other choices.
So my message is don't be afraid to venture out and enjoy your new life, I know I was really worried at first but it was much easier than I thought.  All it takes is a little time to find the right foods.

I have lost 55 pounds since I have started this journey! I am still dealing with the healing (almost there - I still have about 2cm of incision that isn't closed but progressing everyday. I am finally feeling somewhat normal. I am getting my strength back a little more each day and I am not in as much pain. I still don't notice much of a difference in the way my pants fit around my waist because they say my stomach area is still really swollen from all that has been going on. However I can tell in the way my shirts fit and the way the pants fit in the butt. Everything is pretty saggy. My daughter keeps encouraging me to go through my clothes and sort out the smaller things, but I still don't feel like it, I am just not ready to celebrate. I figure once I am done changing bandages and am no longer reminded of the parts that went wrong I will finally feel excited and be happy that I have made this decision, until then I am just going through the motions.

The journey is still going but getting better.  The Dr's removed the wound vac on Friday and sent me home with still more training on wound care. I have only 4cm to go and the wound is finally healed. I will be so glad when it is better. I still get tired really easily and have no energy, especially to exercise.  My stomach is still really swollen so it doesn't look or feel like I have lost any weight.  Most people notice my face is thinner, but to me I look more ill than that I am loosing weight.
The eating is still a challenge, not too bad when I am home but when I am out, I try to find things that I know will be ok for me, but I still usually never feel very well after eating.  I am a little concerned tho, the last 2 days I have been feeling hungry (that isn't supposed to happen yet!) I am not sure if it's head hunger or if I am really starting to feel again.  I am still working to make the right choices and get the proper nutrition so I am not sure what is going on....
I have been in school for the last year and took a break during my surgery (thankfully I was smart there) but today I have to go back.  I am concerned that I will get too tired after working and then going to class until 10:00 pm. I came home for a quick nap before class just to help out some.
Anyway I will update soon. Take care everyone

It's been a little over a month since my surgery and dealing with the post op infection.  I am getting much better and becoming a little more happy with my life.  I have a wound vacuum that has been placed to help heal and it is working well. The medical advisers say it will probably be 3 or more weeks before I can have it removed, but I am getting stronger each day and I am back to work about 5 to 6 hours a day, which makes me feel much better.
I am still learning what I can and can not tolerate as far as food.  I still can not eat very much at one time which is a good thing because I am loosing weight quickly. 
I still can not say that I am happy I had this done but I am glad that I am healing and I am looking forward to feeling somewhat normal again.