Since I last weighed...another loss (sorry soo long..)

Nov 23, 2009

 I am soo in love lately. Inlove with my surgery and my decision! Plus my scale has become my worst enemy. I dont weigh myself any more. I let my clothes sizes do my weighing for me. I did get weighed this am..Just to see... I think my scale lies. It has weighed me in at 137#s but I got weighed at school and was 134#s. My scale hates me!  You know what?!? The feelings are mutual! Im thinkin of throwing it in the trash.

When I did my last shopping for new clothes, I tried on a size 8 pants...THEY FIT!! They were a tad snug..but the important thing is in a couple of months, they wont be so snug (I hope). I havent been a size 8 since after I graduated high school in 1995. (cap and gown was a small and dress was a size 5/6 and I weighed 105lbs at 5ft tall). I cant wait until I get my spring refund check..Shopping spree here I come!! My husband did say with our tax refund I was gonna get some to do some shopping.. I love clothes shopping now..as where last summer I just wore the same old rags that I had for the last 5yrs (even some were my pregnancy clothes). NOW when I get paid from work, I go and buy at least one new outfit..This week I am gonna try Old Navy..I have never shopped there before..I was too fat for their clothes. I also want to try fitting into Victoria Secret Bras.. Along with my 87lb weight loss, my "girls" have also lost some wt... They are a lot lighter..But wrinkly from excess skin.. Oh well..maybe my ins will cover some PS or I will save.

I was walking around campus at school today, and I ran into a professor I had when I first came to Hilbert College and she is also my advisor. She knew I had the surgery. Any way..She said I look 10yrs younger!!! I told her that I now get proofed for cigs and alcohol (which is true since surgery). I am 33yrs old, wife of 7yrs and mom of 3 kids!! LOL  Im not gonna complain..I figure when I hit my 40s I will look like Im in my 30s. LOL  

I cant wait until I hit goal! Its gonna happen soon..I can feel it. For the first time last wk, I played football with my kids and chased them around the yard. I have never done that before. My husband is going to buy me the new Reebok sneakers for chrismas and resize my wedding bands and mothers ring. My fingers and feet shrunk..I was a  size 7 ring, and a size 6.5 shoe..Now even with ring guards, my rings are just about falling off, and I can fit into a size 5.5 shoe.. Who would have thought my feet and fingers where so small? When I was fat..everyone thought I was big boned..They were wrong.I tried telling people I wasnt that big boned. They told me that 105lbs would be too skinny for me..Well I used to be that tiny..Wore a bikini..and did not look sickly. I did not have an eating disorder..Just was naturally skinny. Once I was done growing and realized I love junk food, and fast food, that is when I packed on the weight.  It did not help that I was raped ON my 21st birthday..That helped me gain the weight. That and being in an emotionally abusive relationship with my 2 daughters fathers. I will never wear a bikini again (unless I have PS) but I will wear one of the 2 piece bathing suits that is a longer top and skirt type bottoms (I love those ones..).  I had one from a couple of summers ago when I lost 30lbs on Nutrisystem, but I gained the weight back and then some..the bathing suit got too small..NOW it is too big. LOL Who would have thought my bathing suit from a few summers ago would be too big??

BTW...I need to update my avatar with some new pics... Just waiting to take some new ones.. I was in the 150s when that pic was taken at the beginning of summer..I used to wear jeans all summer...That will never happen again (just no couchie shorts)!! Like I said..I'm loving my new life!!

Well guess thats it for now..

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