Megan H
Sept 15th 2006
Sep 14, 2006
My sweet kind Dr. performed my dilation on Tuesday. I kinda of had the impression that he was not pleased with me. This man is A+ all the way. He was delayed by two hours getting to me and that was fine. I fell asleep in the procedure room waiting for him. I wake up and there he is standing over me. What did I receive? Oh the ever so gentle reminder that I NEED to call him ASAP when I am having problems actually eating real food. Why? Because a stricture needs to be taken care of before it closes up to small. If it gets to small, he can not fit a balloon in to open it back up.
The first couple of weeks after my first scope, I had trouble eating solids. I blamed it on the fact that I was still recovering from the procedure and my stomach was just being sensitive. I think I thought I was eating. Major denial. Let me explain a little about what happens here
Our normal stomach create acid on the lower portion and a mucus is made in the upper portion. The mucus helps the food glide through the stomach to the acid..and digestion begins. I have the upper portion as my stomach. This is attached to the small intestine. The opening that was created to connect my new stomach and my small intestine is basically healing itself shut. This leaves little room or no room for me to pass food through my system.
When I eat food, it will sit in my stomach and block anything including the mucus that my stomach makes. So what now happens? I spend hours spitting up this mucus, until I can finally expel the food back up from where it came from. I, in my belief that there really is not anything wrong, change all of my eating habits so I end up living off of milk, protein shakes, spoonfulls of peanut butter, and once in a while I can tolerate about three ounces of yogurt.
Honest to god, right until minutes before my scope I said "But what if it is just in my head and there is nothing wrong?" Can I be my own worse enemy? I know I knew better. It stinks when you feel like something is wrong and no one has an answer. I knew something was wrong when I was passing out. I went to ER and they could not find anything. So, I leave thinking maybe it is in my head and do others think that way too. But, there was something wrong just not what we were looking for. Now Dr. Tomita has made it clear, I will be making more trouble if I wait again.
Lets talk about my scope. Holy Firecrackers!!! Since we were running on a tight schedule, I was prepped before I was drugged. This I was able to tolerate. I had to turn on my side. No biggy, did that before. Then I had to have this large apperatus put into my mouth to hold it open. I do not remember ever doing that. Ha! That was the last thing I remembered until...I frippen woke up during the procedure. What a total trip that was. I am laying on my left side. I have this thing in my mouth that is strapped around my head. All I wanted to do was spit out the large pool of spit that was resting in my left cheek. Oh and did I mention they were still scoping me. Yeah....I had a snake down my throat. I even felt them pull it out.
On the brightside, they used a drug I never had before and I was not really loopy at all afterwards...might be why I remember so much. Dr. Tomita did verify that I was indeed closed off again. He increased the size of the balloon he used to reopen. My recovery is much better compared to the last time. I even had part of an omelet last night at work.
Double shots on the rim...too a speedy and uneventful recovery. I need to get my body to bed.
A big shout out to my CHILLASROCK team for all your kind words and thoughts. I love you guys so much. The three years with you guys has been such a blessing.
The first couple of weeks after my first scope, I had trouble eating solids. I blamed it on the fact that I was still recovering from the procedure and my stomach was just being sensitive. I think I thought I was eating. Major denial. Let me explain a little about what happens here
Our normal stomach create acid on the lower portion and a mucus is made in the upper portion. The mucus helps the food glide through the stomach to the acid..and digestion begins. I have the upper portion as my stomach. This is attached to the small intestine. The opening that was created to connect my new stomach and my small intestine is basically healing itself shut. This leaves little room or no room for me to pass food through my system.
When I eat food, it will sit in my stomach and block anything including the mucus that my stomach makes. So what now happens? I spend hours spitting up this mucus, until I can finally expel the food back up from where it came from. I, in my belief that there really is not anything wrong, change all of my eating habits so I end up living off of milk, protein shakes, spoonfulls of peanut butter, and once in a while I can tolerate about three ounces of yogurt.
Honest to god, right until minutes before my scope I said "But what if it is just in my head and there is nothing wrong?" Can I be my own worse enemy? I know I knew better. It stinks when you feel like something is wrong and no one has an answer. I knew something was wrong when I was passing out. I went to ER and they could not find anything. So, I leave thinking maybe it is in my head and do others think that way too. But, there was something wrong just not what we were looking for. Now Dr. Tomita has made it clear, I will be making more trouble if I wait again.
Lets talk about my scope. Holy Firecrackers!!! Since we were running on a tight schedule, I was prepped before I was drugged. This I was able to tolerate. I had to turn on my side. No biggy, did that before. Then I had to have this large apperatus put into my mouth to hold it open. I do not remember ever doing that. Ha! That was the last thing I remembered until...I frippen woke up during the procedure. What a total trip that was. I am laying on my left side. I have this thing in my mouth that is strapped around my head. All I wanted to do was spit out the large pool of spit that was resting in my left cheek. Oh and did I mention they were still scoping me. Yeah....I had a snake down my throat. I even felt them pull it out.
On the brightside, they used a drug I never had before and I was not really loopy at all afterwards...might be why I remember so much. Dr. Tomita did verify that I was indeed closed off again. He increased the size of the balloon he used to reopen. My recovery is much better compared to the last time. I even had part of an omelet last night at work.
Double shots on the rim...too a speedy and uneventful recovery. I need to get my body to bed.
A big shout out to my CHILLASROCK team for all your kind words and thoughts. I love you guys so much. The three years with you guys has been such a blessing.
Sept 11th 2006
Sep 10, 2006
While I do not regret this surgery, I am getting frustrated. My first four months went so well. This whole summer has been spent with me living off of a full liquid diet. I had my stricture stretched at the end of July. I could not eat for three days just to let the stoma heal. I did get to where I ate some actual food for about two weeks. Now I am back to getting sick again. I am now scheduled for another stretch of my stoma tomorrow afternoon. I really hope this is the last time.
I am actually disturbed by my weight loss. I am down to 117 and I feel like a little kid instead of a women. I never thought I would want to gain weight. I know my weight is in a safe zone right now and I am sure I look fine but I like a little padding.
My summer classes went well considering being so tired. I guess even if I put more of an effort into them I could not do better than the A's I received. I should be glad I could handle the course load while feeling so bad.
I do not have time to be feeling ill this next term. I have some difficult classes coming up and I will have to work my hiney off.
I am hoping it all goes great tomorrow and for a speedy recovery.
Til next time.
I am actually disturbed by my weight loss. I am down to 117 and I feel like a little kid instead of a women. I never thought I would want to gain weight. I know my weight is in a safe zone right now and I am sure I look fine but I like a little padding.
My summer classes went well considering being so tired. I guess even if I put more of an effort into them I could not do better than the A's I received. I should be glad I could handle the course load while feeling so bad.
I do not have time to be feeling ill this next term. I have some difficult classes coming up and I will have to work my hiney off.
I am hoping it all goes great tomorrow and for a speedy recovery.
Til next time.
July 27th 2006
Jul 26, 2006
Ok, I might not make it to 115 pounds and I am fine with that. The nurse at Dr. Tomita's office suggested I start looking at how many calories I have been taking in. So it dawns on me I am taking in maybe 400-600 calories a day. The kicker is that it is all coming from liquids, soup, and sugar-free ice cream. I start replaying the past month out in my mind and I realize that I have not been eating food because I was getting so uncomfortable and was even throwing up about fifteen minutes after eating anything that can not slide on through my pouch.
The 14th, I passed out for the third time. I tore the skin off my knee in the process. One of my co-workers mentioned it to Dr. Tomita. He in returned called me and got talking about what might be causing it. I told him about how I was not really eating any food for the last month or so. He had an upper GI scheduled for me to see if I have a stricture.
On the 25th, I seen Dr. M in regards to the medical part of the surgery. Labs look good, vitals are great. He was willing to bet that I have a stricture. He also concluded that I am fainting because of the vagal nerve. This makes so much sense. The vagal nerve runs from our brainstem through our organs. When the vagal nerve gets overstimulated it sends a signal to the heart that it is overworking, resulting in the heart slowing down. The connection here is that my stomach starts to spasm trying to move the food out, either up or down. This stimulates the vagal nerve and the end result is me feeling faint or actually fainting.
I had my upper GI on the 26th. I went to the Dr's office right afterwards to get my vitamins and while I was in the parking lot Dr's right-hand gal comes chasing after me to let me know I am positive for a stricture. Monday Dr. Tomita will do a scope on me and use a balloon to dilate me open enough so that I can go back to eating. Yay, never thought I would want a rice cake so badly. And I am relieved to know there is a reason for my passing out.
The 14th, I passed out for the third time. I tore the skin off my knee in the process. One of my co-workers mentioned it to Dr. Tomita. He in returned called me and got talking about what might be causing it. I told him about how I was not really eating any food for the last month or so. He had an upper GI scheduled for me to see if I have a stricture.
On the 25th, I seen Dr. M in regards to the medical part of the surgery. Labs look good, vitals are great. He was willing to bet that I have a stricture. He also concluded that I am fainting because of the vagal nerve. This makes so much sense. The vagal nerve runs from our brainstem through our organs. When the vagal nerve gets overstimulated it sends a signal to the heart that it is overworking, resulting in the heart slowing down. The connection here is that my stomach starts to spasm trying to move the food out, either up or down. This stimulates the vagal nerve and the end result is me feeling faint or actually fainting.
I had my upper GI on the 26th. I went to the Dr's office right afterwards to get my vitamins and while I was in the parking lot Dr's right-hand gal comes chasing after me to let me know I am positive for a stricture. Monday Dr. Tomita will do a scope on me and use a balloon to dilate me open enough so that I can go back to eating. Yay, never thought I would want a rice cake so badly. And I am relieved to know there is a reason for my passing out.
July 15th 2006
Jul 14, 2006
Today is my six month post-op date. The best news, I am at the goal given to me by my Dr. Actually I am one pound under. I have been stressing out about getting here so quickly but I have been convinced now that everything is good. Dr. Tomita was just beaming at me. He must of said I looked great a dozen times. We discussed plastics. I told him I was not interested in doing my stomach. I do not have a lot of excess skin but he seems to think that after I lose some more weight I will change my mind about getting my tummy done in a year. He thinks it will look great toned. He said I will be ok to have my breasts done in six more months. I will probably wait until I am eightteen months out and see what deals I can get on my breasts and tummy all in one shot.
I went shopping this week and bought some new uniforms. Everything is in a size small. Still trying to sink it in. One of my coworkers went up to another and said about me. "I don't know who that little girl was that was working last night but...." She did not even realize who I was. I do not think I have been called little girl since I was five. Today, I went and bought some more jeans. Size 6 and they zip up all the way. I am going to resign myself to the idea that I will get down to about 115 before I stop losing.
I went shopping this week and bought some new uniforms. Everything is in a size small. Still trying to sink it in. One of my coworkers went up to another and said about me. "I don't know who that little girl was that was working last night but...." She did not even realize who I was. I do not think I have been called little girl since I was five. Today, I went and bought some more jeans. Size 6 and they zip up all the way. I am going to resign myself to the idea that I will get down to about 115 before I stop losing.
July 3rd 2006
Jul 02, 2006
Time is cruising on by. I am almost six months post-op. By my scales, I have lost one-hundred pounds since last August. Totally UNBELIEVABLE!!!
There are so many emotions going on now. I am elated because I feel so great and I love the way I am looking. I stare in the mirror because I hardly recognize myself. It is still so surprising. I get freaked by the attention I have been receiving from others. There are times I enjoy it and notice I flirt a little more. Yet, I can become closed up and fearful because I think some of the reason why I gained weight was because of the attention. I am scared. Scared this is just a chapter in my story of life and it will not last.
I have had some episodes of passing out. I get light headed and dizzy after I stand up or straighten up from bending over. Had the whole work-up done and everything seems fine on the bloodwork end. I am seeing an ENT to see if it has something to do with my inner ear. Will know more in the middle of the month.
Working weekends does not leave much room for good quality family time. Our lil town has a festival every first weekend in June. I took it off for vacation this year. We all had a great time. I took the kids to the parade. Jerry and I took them to the carnival. They wore themselves out riding the rides. Jerry and I did hit the ferris wheel.
Work is going great. It is so nice to be able to do the work I am supposed to and feel free of pain. My strength has increased and my back has been doing great. My personality has shined now that I feel well. So many comments have came my way about how I seem so much happier since I have lost weight. I do agree but I think it is more so because I feel comfortable. I was in so much pain last year that it was difficult to be "perki" and smiling. Now it takes no effort to be full of spunk with a big grin on my face.
I am so excited to share that I received or should I say earned a 4.0 in my comp and psych classes. I was so afraid to start school because I was convinced I would fail. What a surprise to myself that I did not only do much better than I expected but I am enjoying it. It is a struggle to find the perfect time schedule but I am managing. I am now taking summer courses, Intro to Windows, Word Processing, and Oral Communications. Crossing my fingers that I pull it out and get some more A's.
I am still doing good with my vitamins and water. I am able to tolerate more foods. Portions are still real tiny and I am in no rush for that to change. Yesterday, I ate steak for the first time since last year. I think I stopped eating because my jaw hurt from all the chewing instead of from being full. The pieces where real tiny and it tasted scrumptious. Majority of my food is still cottage cheese, chunk cheese, and soup. I have added more fruits and veggies. I also eat instant oatmeal or cereal for breakfast. I never thought I would measure my food. I sure do it now. Have to watch those grams of sugar. I have not actually dumped but I think the most sugar I have had at one time is twelve grams. There have been times I taken in that much and did not feel to good but never felt the "I think I am going to die" feeling. It pays to be careful and follow the rules.
Summer has been nice. Kids are a blast. They are in swim lessons, so I am playing the good mom and driving them around. We are lucky that our town has a huge pool
Well enough for today. I will be updating soon. My six month visits with the surgeon and medical Drs are coming up in the next two weeks. Til then.
There are so many emotions going on now. I am elated because I feel so great and I love the way I am looking. I stare in the mirror because I hardly recognize myself. It is still so surprising. I get freaked by the attention I have been receiving from others. There are times I enjoy it and notice I flirt a little more. Yet, I can become closed up and fearful because I think some of the reason why I gained weight was because of the attention. I am scared. Scared this is just a chapter in my story of life and it will not last.
I have had some episodes of passing out. I get light headed and dizzy after I stand up or straighten up from bending over. Had the whole work-up done and everything seems fine on the bloodwork end. I am seeing an ENT to see if it has something to do with my inner ear. Will know more in the middle of the month.
Working weekends does not leave much room for good quality family time. Our lil town has a festival every first weekend in June. I took it off for vacation this year. We all had a great time. I took the kids to the parade. Jerry and I took them to the carnival. They wore themselves out riding the rides. Jerry and I did hit the ferris wheel.
Work is going great. It is so nice to be able to do the work I am supposed to and feel free of pain. My strength has increased and my back has been doing great. My personality has shined now that I feel well. So many comments have came my way about how I seem so much happier since I have lost weight. I do agree but I think it is more so because I feel comfortable. I was in so much pain last year that it was difficult to be "perki" and smiling. Now it takes no effort to be full of spunk with a big grin on my face.
I am so excited to share that I received or should I say earned a 4.0 in my comp and psych classes. I was so afraid to start school because I was convinced I would fail. What a surprise to myself that I did not only do much better than I expected but I am enjoying it. It is a struggle to find the perfect time schedule but I am managing. I am now taking summer courses, Intro to Windows, Word Processing, and Oral Communications. Crossing my fingers that I pull it out and get some more A's.
I am still doing good with my vitamins and water. I am able to tolerate more foods. Portions are still real tiny and I am in no rush for that to change. Yesterday, I ate steak for the first time since last year. I think I stopped eating because my jaw hurt from all the chewing instead of from being full. The pieces where real tiny and it tasted scrumptious. Majority of my food is still cottage cheese, chunk cheese, and soup. I have added more fruits and veggies. I also eat instant oatmeal or cereal for breakfast. I never thought I would measure my food. I sure do it now. Have to watch those grams of sugar. I have not actually dumped but I think the most sugar I have had at one time is twelve grams. There have been times I taken in that much and did not feel to good but never felt the "I think I am going to die" feeling. It pays to be careful and follow the rules.
Summer has been nice. Kids are a blast. They are in swim lessons, so I am playing the good mom and driving them around. We are lucky that our town has a huge pool
Well enough for today. I will be updating soon. My six month visits with the surgeon and medical Drs are coming up in the next two weeks. Til then.
May 5th 2006
May 04, 2006
I weighed in this week. I have a total loss of 69 pounds now. I feel so great. I really had no pants to wear. All of my size 14 pants were just to big. My awesome mom, bless her heart, took me shopping. I about wanted to cry. I skipped size 12 and am wearing a size 10. I have not fit into a size 10 since I was 16 years old.
I feel like there is no way I could possibly get any smaller, yet I am only about 4 months post-op. There is a great chance I will lose even more and I am about 24 pounds away from my goal weight. I picked out 5 pairs of jeans in size 10, I would like to be able to get some use out of them.
School is going so much better then I bargained for. I was dreading my Comp class but as of right now, and I am half way through, I believe I am getting an A in it. I start my Psych class next week. I also signed up for 3 classes this summer.
Next week, I am going to hit the scrub shop and buy some new uniforms for work. My co-workers have been ragging on me about how big my clothes are.
Working out has become more of a struggle with all the time I am using up for my schoolwork. As luck would have it though, my skin is shrinking along with me. I was worried that I would have to much excess skin but not enough to warrant plastic surgery. It is great to be able to feel my bones. I forgot that my large body was being carried by a skeletal system.
I am doing a great job getting in my vitamins. I need to because it is still hard to really eat very much.
I feel like there is no way I could possibly get any smaller, yet I am only about 4 months post-op. There is a great chance I will lose even more and I am about 24 pounds away from my goal weight. I picked out 5 pairs of jeans in size 10, I would like to be able to get some use out of them.
School is going so much better then I bargained for. I was dreading my Comp class but as of right now, and I am half way through, I believe I am getting an A in it. I start my Psych class next week. I also signed up for 3 classes this summer.
Next week, I am going to hit the scrub shop and buy some new uniforms for work. My co-workers have been ragging on me about how big my clothes are.
Working out has become more of a struggle with all the time I am using up for my schoolwork. As luck would have it though, my skin is shrinking along with me. I was worried that I would have to much excess skin but not enough to warrant plastic surgery. It is great to be able to feel my bones. I forgot that my large body was being carried by a skeletal system.
I am doing a great job getting in my vitamins. I need to because it is still hard to really eat very much.
April 11th 2006
Apr 10, 2006
I had my 3 month visit today. I am now down 58 pounds. My weight is 163. Amazing that at Christmas I weighed 219. I am comfortable in a size 14. Would be great if I did not own all clothes in 16 or bigger.
I need to go shopping. I hate to do so and then have to go buy more clothes because I end up shrinking out of the clothes I buy. All of my work clothes are so baggy. Funny thing is, the pants are draw-string and still to big.
My belly has been paining me on and off. Hurts worse after I eat. I was thinking about it today. I drank milk because my belly hurt. So did it hurt before or after I ate. I did have a shake about an hour before. I hate the pain. Feels like my stomach is on fire. I am back on my prevacid. I need to finish the last 2 weeks of it then let the dr's office know if I am feeling better. I wish I could advance some more on my diet. I feel like I am stuck in this liquid/soft stage forever. Still doing my shakes but back to using milk. Majority of my calories are coming from my shakes. I have added vanilla also. I mix and match with various frozen fruits and extracts. I am sad to say I am starting to get bored with them. They do taste good but seem like it is the only thing I really take in.
I signed the family up for the YMCA since the last time I wrote. It is great. I went from 30 pounds on most of the strength machines to 50 pounds. There are some that I do more and a couple less. Hubby and I take the kids up there so they can play while we work out. AHHH, but here comes the nice weather. Today the kids walked with me for 40 minutes. It was great and they were sure they were going to die.
I started school last week. I am a brand-new Baker baby. My goal is to be in the nursing program in 2 years. They are a tough school. It all goes by GPA. They may be making some changes for the entrance requirements.
Here is to great changes and new adventures. I have prayed for the lord to guide me by the hand and lead me to where I am suppose to be. I sure am feeling great. Now my life is filled with study, study, and study. Never to old to learn. I am gratetful for the knowledge and overwhelmed by the volume.
I need to go shopping. I hate to do so and then have to go buy more clothes because I end up shrinking out of the clothes I buy. All of my work clothes are so baggy. Funny thing is, the pants are draw-string and still to big.
My belly has been paining me on and off. Hurts worse after I eat. I was thinking about it today. I drank milk because my belly hurt. So did it hurt before or after I ate. I did have a shake about an hour before. I hate the pain. Feels like my stomach is on fire. I am back on my prevacid. I need to finish the last 2 weeks of it then let the dr's office know if I am feeling better. I wish I could advance some more on my diet. I feel like I am stuck in this liquid/soft stage forever. Still doing my shakes but back to using milk. Majority of my calories are coming from my shakes. I have added vanilla also. I mix and match with various frozen fruits and extracts. I am sad to say I am starting to get bored with them. They do taste good but seem like it is the only thing I really take in.
I signed the family up for the YMCA since the last time I wrote. It is great. I went from 30 pounds on most of the strength machines to 50 pounds. There are some that I do more and a couple less. Hubby and I take the kids up there so they can play while we work out. AHHH, but here comes the nice weather. Today the kids walked with me for 40 minutes. It was great and they were sure they were going to die.
I started school last week. I am a brand-new Baker baby. My goal is to be in the nursing program in 2 years. They are a tough school. It all goes by GPA. They may be making some changes for the entrance requirements.
Here is to great changes and new adventures. I have prayed for the lord to guide me by the hand and lead me to where I am suppose to be. I sure am feeling great. Now my life is filled with study, study, and study. Never to old to learn. I am gratetful for the knowledge and overwhelmed by the volume.
March 2nd 2006
Mar 01, 2006
I have lost 40 pounds now. Still need to lose 53. I am so excited about how much my body is changing. I know there is a change because the kids have said to me that I look smaller. I am eating well. I have not thrown up at all. I did get that stuck feeling today for the first time. So needless to say no more grilled cheeses. That is my fav and I didnt even really like it. 2 bites into it and ugh...it really hurt. I just waited it out and it stopped about 30 minutes later.
I went back to work last weekend. Wow talk about the compliments. I have to say it sure felt good on my soul. My upperbody strength is awful though. I am working on my exercises with my ball and weights now. I will be on restrictions til middle of March.
I added a B-Complex to my vitamin regimn. It seems to be helping me with my energy levels. Dr.M says he is fine with it and that we will know when I do my 6 months labs if it is too much. I bet it will not hurt me any.
I wish I could find something that I enjoy eating. Nothing tastes the same as before. Granted, that should be a good thing. I would just like to enjoy the little I do eat. I really like my protein drinks. I add cherrys and some almond extract....yummmy Chocolate cherry almond. I even switched to water to cut out the calories I was getting from the milk.
I want to post about once a month for this first year. I will be back around April.
Feb 12th 2006
Feb 11, 2006
Today is my 32nd birthday. I have not felt this good in years. I weighed in 2 days ago @ 187. I now weigh less then I did before i had my kids.
It really amazes me, how losing almost 50 pounds can make you feel. Not to mention the way we look. Or the way others look at you.
My wound is just about a scar now. I only packed it for 2 weeks. My last visit was Feb. 1st. I told the staff I was just there for a bandaid. Haha..that is just what the Dr. ordered.
I have been getting in plenty of water. Taking my vitamins just the way I am supposed to. The protein has been my biggest problem. I got some samples from bariatriceating. Well I really did not like anything enough to purchase it. I hear rave reviews about this very very berry. Of course, that is not one of the samples they sent me. I have been supplimenting with the beneprotien. but have still been under my goal.
Yesterday, hubby and I went to the casino to celebrate my birthday. We then went shopping with our extra money. I went and chanced it and bought some protein powder at Walmart. I bought chocolate with 20 grams of protein. Hey, it just about tastes like chocolate milk. We will see how much I still like it after 30 servings.
All is well here. I have been walking alot and using my exercise ball. It will be so nice once the weather is better. This year I am going to actually swim with my kids.
It really amazes me, how losing almost 50 pounds can make you feel. Not to mention the way we look. Or the way others look at you.
My wound is just about a scar now. I only packed it for 2 weeks. My last visit was Feb. 1st. I told the staff I was just there for a bandaid. Haha..that is just what the Dr. ordered.
I have been getting in plenty of water. Taking my vitamins just the way I am supposed to. The protein has been my biggest problem. I got some samples from bariatriceating. Well I really did not like anything enough to purchase it. I hear rave reviews about this very very berry. Of course, that is not one of the samples they sent me. I have been supplimenting with the beneprotien. but have still been under my goal.
Yesterday, hubby and I went to the casino to celebrate my birthday. We then went shopping with our extra money. I went and chanced it and bought some protein powder at Walmart. I bought chocolate with 20 grams of protein. Hey, it just about tastes like chocolate milk. We will see how much I still like it after 30 servings.
All is well here. I have been walking alot and using my exercise ball. It will be so nice once the weather is better. This year I am going to actually swim with my kids.
Jan 26th 2006
Jan 25, 2006
Went to see the nurse yesterday. I have to have my little spot that hasnt healed up checked on every week. Started out using about 8 inches of packing and I would say when I packed it today I used maybe 2.5 inches. It is healing up well.
I also lost 3 more pounds since last week. I was actually disappointed but then I thought how often do I lose 3 pounds in a week.
I have really lost weight in my face. My mom came over and was surprised how much I lost already. My brother really only seen my face because I had on my big fat girl coat on. First thing he said was "Man, how much weight have you lost already?"
I was blessed with chubby cheeks even when I was skinny, so it is nice to lose some of it.
I have been doing well getting all my water in. I drink about 60 plus ounces a day. I have ate so much creamed soups and pudding that I am just about sick of it. I can now eat anything that can be blended..blahhhhh.
I set the family meals out this week and I did not include anything I can blend. I sure would love to figure out how to blend a BLT sandwich.
I just got my samples in the mail from bariatriceating.com Today I tried the cocout almond. It wasnt to bad. I dont think I would buy it. I am hoping there is something in there that I like even more.
I have went more then a month with no fast food. I have not done that since I was in highschool and was on a kick that that food was crap. Hehe well that idea only lasted about 6 months lol.
I am really trying to work on my anger issues with my one aunt. I guess deep down I am waiting for a "I am sorry" from her but I really do not think she thinks she did anything wrong. Oh I never said what she did. She went to my Dr's office before my surgery and said some things that never should have even came out of her mouth there. She REALLY crossed the line. I ended up confronting her about it yesterday and OH BOY did the shit hit the fan. I was being called a bitch as I was walking away. I sure feel better now that I told her how I felt. The kicker is even during this convo she is saying that I was trying to convince myself. I was hello convince myself of what....something I did 2 weeks ago. She believes that UofM would have never touched me because I was less then 100 pounds overweight when I had the surgery. Now we all know they would have loved to have my money. Bottom line is I qualified and that is that.
The scary thing is when I was a pt, I would fall asleep on purpose without my oxygen on. I was woke up everytime by the alarms going of on my oxisensor because my levels would drop in the matter of minutes. So that is what I was doing at home. That is the reason I needed this. Granted I will be all over healthier with less weight but no way can I survive over time with my oxygen levels dropping like that.
My blood pressure the first time I went to Dr. Tomitas office was 150/99. Yesterday, it was so low I could not even feel it when the nurse took it. It was 98/68. How great is that? Amazing what 30 pounds does to your body. Now lets see how the heck it is when I am down to 130 pounds.
Our support group meeting was at the YMCA last night. I can not wait to join. They will take the money right out of our paychecks and it is around $14.00 a check for the family. Good investment in my mind. Get the kids involved early. They are better to learn good life skills now.
After we had a clothes swap. I really made out. I got some clothes that I should shrink out of quickly but also got some that I will shrink into.
Cheers to weight loss...yummy yummy shake time
I also lost 3 more pounds since last week. I was actually disappointed but then I thought how often do I lose 3 pounds in a week.
I have really lost weight in my face. My mom came over and was surprised how much I lost already. My brother really only seen my face because I had on my big fat girl coat on. First thing he said was "Man, how much weight have you lost already?"
I was blessed with chubby cheeks even when I was skinny, so it is nice to lose some of it.
I have been doing well getting all my water in. I drink about 60 plus ounces a day. I have ate so much creamed soups and pudding that I am just about sick of it. I can now eat anything that can be blended..blahhhhh.
I set the family meals out this week and I did not include anything I can blend. I sure would love to figure out how to blend a BLT sandwich.
I just got my samples in the mail from bariatriceating.com Today I tried the cocout almond. It wasnt to bad. I dont think I would buy it. I am hoping there is something in there that I like even more.
I have went more then a month with no fast food. I have not done that since I was in highschool and was on a kick that that food was crap. Hehe well that idea only lasted about 6 months lol.
I am really trying to work on my anger issues with my one aunt. I guess deep down I am waiting for a "I am sorry" from her but I really do not think she thinks she did anything wrong. Oh I never said what she did. She went to my Dr's office before my surgery and said some things that never should have even came out of her mouth there. She REALLY crossed the line. I ended up confronting her about it yesterday and OH BOY did the shit hit the fan. I was being called a bitch as I was walking away. I sure feel better now that I told her how I felt. The kicker is even during this convo she is saying that I was trying to convince myself. I was hello convince myself of what....something I did 2 weeks ago. She believes that UofM would have never touched me because I was less then 100 pounds overweight when I had the surgery. Now we all know they would have loved to have my money. Bottom line is I qualified and that is that.
The scary thing is when I was a pt, I would fall asleep on purpose without my oxygen on. I was woke up everytime by the alarms going of on my oxisensor because my levels would drop in the matter of minutes. So that is what I was doing at home. That is the reason I needed this. Granted I will be all over healthier with less weight but no way can I survive over time with my oxygen levels dropping like that.
My blood pressure the first time I went to Dr. Tomitas office was 150/99. Yesterday, it was so low I could not even feel it when the nurse took it. It was 98/68. How great is that? Amazing what 30 pounds does to your body. Now lets see how the heck it is when I am down to 130 pounds.
Our support group meeting was at the YMCA last night. I can not wait to join. They will take the money right out of our paychecks and it is around $14.00 a check for the family. Good investment in my mind. Get the kids involved early. They are better to learn good life skills now.
After we had a clothes swap. I really made out. I got some clothes that I should shrink out of quickly but also got some that I will shrink into.
Cheers to weight loss...yummy yummy shake time
