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So I am 11 weeks out from my surgery and am down 51 lbs. My weight loss has slowed up the past week or so. Ive been adding more protein, water, etc. I want to be under 200lbs by the time I start my new job on 3/2.
My ex can't leave me alone and tells me repeatedly how great I look, which he can just eat his heart out!
I actually fit in to my junior jeans that I never threw out. I started buying smaller shirts too.
I feel really good about my surgery and think Im moving along quite nicely weight wise. Now, I just have some personal goals to acomplish. This surgery has really given me the confidence to look at the positive things in my life and try and acomplish things that I never thought I would!

So Ive heard about people throwing up...thats what I always heard actually. I have been lucky  so far and haven't thrown up. Last night some chicken got the best of me! It was stuck and I could actually feel it just sitting there. I knew that I had to do something...I finally had to stick my finger down my throat and made it come up. I almost instantly felt better. Now Im afraid of chicken. I think the problem was that it was a little over done and dry, but I was so hungry for some chicken...some substance, you know?!
No more dry chicken for me!!

So when I was in the hospital after my surgery I got the news that I was going to be laid off because they were closing my department in the hospital...I was soooo worried! I was being dumped by work and my boyfriend at the same time. The only thing that got me this far is my weight loss. Usually I would've gain 20lbs in such a situation, but not this time!!
Well...today, after a 3rd interview, I was offered a position in the Liver Transplant department!! I was going to be laid off 3/1/09, so this came at the perfect time! I won't lose my benefits or anything! Same pay...I couldn't have been more relieved! New job, new body and now I just need that new man LOL!

So I am officially down 40lbs as of today!! So, I went out and bought a couple shirts. One of them was too tight, but I dont even have to take it back because it will fit  in no time! I love my RNY!!

 I suffer from major depression. Before my surgery my doc. took me off my time released medication(because we cant take time release meds after surgery) and up'd one of the other medications I was on to make up for it. Well, it didnt work. I was tearful and emotional. Okay so then I go and have my surgery on 12/1. I was in a lot of pain because of a hematoma that was under one of my incisions. Also, I couldnt get my anti depressants in until about 2 weeks after surgery. So there I was, with my hormones all over the place because of surgery, trying to deal with my emotional eating issues, and I wasnt working(My depression gets worse if Im not working). So my relationship with my boyfriend was difficult for both of us and we were fighting more than usual. So because we were fighting for the most of the month (I was usually mad and fighting at him because he works about 4 minutes from my house and probably only visited me 5 times in a month) he decided we should go on a break. I understood his reasons and told him I would back off a little, even though that was when he should have been supporting me the most! Oh yea, I was told I was going to be laid off on 2/1 from a place that I planned on retiring from, but he didnt care. So then yesterday I found out he started talking to his ex again....he wants some space from me and cant return my calls, but he can rekindle his relationship with his ex. Now Im not allowed at his house to see my dog because his mom lives across the street and loves his ex, so I cant be seen there.
So if I wouldnt have had my surgery then we would still be together! Isnt that awful?! However, when he saw me yesterday for the first time in awhile he kept telling me how great I looked because Ive lost 35lbs...I told him I would call him for a drink in 5 months (after I lose the majority of weight) so he can see what he missed!!
Has anyone else been in this kind of situation? I know Im rambling on, but this is the place I feel that I have friends that relate to me and I feel safe!
Im so sad, but maybe this is a blessing. A new job, a new body and a new (real) man!!!

So I am back to work. Everything was going great until lunch time. I had some soup (leftovers that Ive eaten before and had no problems) and I got sick. I was light headed and having hot flashes like crazy. Lucky for me I work at a hospital and just spent the majority of my lunch hour on a bed in a room resting. I felt better after I laid down for a good 20 minutes, but I can't so this everyday! I brought, what I had learned, were "safe" foods for me, but something just didn't mix right.
Otherwise...it's great to be out of the house and back to work. Even if it is only for 3 weeks. The hospital is shutting down my department and I will be laid off as of 2/1/09. I have to stock up on my meds and get in all my doctors visits in before the end of February when my benefits run out!!
I hope everyone is doing great this New Year!

So my boyfriend and I are done..no more.. what can I do to help with the pain? Food? No! Booze? No! Its just one of those days when you need to get a six pack of tall boys and drink until you fall asleep and then tomorrow will be better. I know that Ive been taught things to deal with this kind of sitituation and was aware that I wouldnt have food anymore to lean on, but its easier said then done. I get to just suffer through, actually feel the emotions. Who wants to do that?!

So I was just stood up by my boyfriend...on New Years Eve! He told me he didn't know what the big deal is, so I am at home by myself on New Years. Its just very embarrassing and sad for me. This is the time I would dive into the incredibly large amount of homemade cookies around my house, but my surgery has taught me that that would be a mistake. I almost bought a pack of smokes on the way home from my boyfriends,,,but I resisted the urge. I need a little something to ease the pain and my old stand bys aren't available anymore. What is a girl to do?
On a positive note, I have lost 30lbs so far.
I want to wish everyone a Happy and SAFE New Years!! 

I had my 2 week post op on Tuesday, 12/16/08 and I am ahead of schedule. I was down 21lbs at my appointment and am down 25lbs as of today. Im still really tired all the time and get an upset stomach constantly. Even water (which I LOVE) makes my tummy upset. Im still getting my liquids in even through the upset stomachs...but...Im not getting my protein in like I am suppose too. I have been abel to get all of my meds down every day this week, which is progress. I am hoping the protein will fall innto place like the meds. Ive also moved on to pureed foods, which is good because I dont think I couldve done mashed potatos one more day!!

So after my last post I started to feel a little better. I found a new way to get my meds in too, which helps with my over all mood. So Ive been feeling okay...I slowly began to be able to get myself out of bed myself...which is liberating. I went to the doctors yesterday, after the urging of their nurse and my giant lump is just a hematoma on my muscle. So it might hurt for a little while...it will slowly break up and go away so thats good news! I just wanted to leave an update since I was such a baby in my last post.  Oh and Ive lost 16lbs so far so thats good too!