melisak
The Battle
Nov 14, 2007
I feel like I am in a battle with my band. It's a battle that I need to lose. Since my last post I am up 26 pounds. I know I have good restriction in my band because it stops me cold at times. The problem is I am making sneak attacks on it. This morning I am in mild pain due to the fight last night. I won't even go into it, other than to say it was ugly. I guess it is a good sign of submission that I actually got on the scale. I haven't done that in months. So today is a new day.
3-26-07
Mar 25, 2007
I finally got my 2nd fill a week ago. It was way too tight and I had to go back to get some taken out. Theoretically I have 5.1 cc's in my 10 cc band. The two days of being too tight were beyond miserable. I couldn't swallow anything (including water) without severe pain. It is much better now. I feel restriction and am unable to eat nearly as much. My weight this morning was 305.8!
2-7-07
Feb 06, 2007
The scale said 314.4 today. I wasn't expecting that. I guess we'll see if it is a fluke. I walked on the treadmill again last night.
2-6-07
Feb 05, 2007
Boy, do I need a fill! I've got to call the clinic and try to get in soon. One problem is that since we had to take all of the snow days I won't have a day off for quite some time.
My weight is in a holding pattern. I am able to eat just about anything except bread. This past weekend was pretty bad. I am back at 317.6 today. And I started walking on my treadmill again yesterday. I couldn't face waking up at 4am anymore and decided to try to walk in the afternoon/evening when I get home from school. I think it will work out better.
My weight is in a holding pattern. I am able to eat just about anything except bread. This past weekend was pretty bad. I am back at 317.6 today. And I started walking on my treadmill again yesterday. I couldn't face waking up at 4am anymore and decided to try to walk in the afternoon/evening when I get home from school. I think it will work out better.
1-30-07
Jan 29, 2007
I am up 2.8 pounds this morning. Maybe it is catching up from the weekend. I ate more than I should have.
1-29-07
Jan 28, 2007
I think it is time for my 2nd fill. I seem to be in a holding pattern. I weigh 318.8 this morning. That is the same as last Monday. The restriction I felt after the first fill is long gone. It lasted a couple of weeks at best. I think I'll call today.
1-26-07
Jan 25, 2007
I did it! I walked on my treadmill all five days this week! On the other hand the scale was up 1.4 pounds today. That is a bummer because I have really made good choices this week. I know better than to get too upset. It will go back down.
TGIF! I love Friday. It's the best part of the weekend because you are looking so forward to the two days off!
TGIF! I love Friday. It's the best part of the weekend because you are looking so forward to the two days off!
1-24-07
Jan 23, 2007
I was down 2 tenths of a pound to 317.2 today. I walked on the treadmill today. I want to get it in all five days this week.
My mom called yesterday. She was so sad. My step-dad passed away at the end of Sept. and she is having a hard time adjusting. I wish I could make it better for her. I really think she just needs to force herself to get out and socialize. She tends to want to stay in her house and not see anyone or go anywhere. Tomorrow she is supposed to spend the day with her sister. At this point she is dreading it, but I think she will have a good time and be glad she did it. She loves her sister, it's just that she would rather not get out of the house to do anything.
My mom called yesterday. She was so sad. My step-dad passed away at the end of Sept. and she is having a hard time adjusting. I wish I could make it better for her. I really think she just needs to force herself to get out and socialize. She tends to want to stay in her house and not see anyone or go anywhere. Tomorrow she is supposed to spend the day with her sister. At this point she is dreading it, but I think she will have a good time and be glad she did it. She loves her sister, it's just that she would rather not get out of the house to do anything.
1-23-07
Jan 22, 2007
Today I weighed 317.4 pounds. That is officially the lowest I've weighed since starting this journey. I feel good and my resolve is solid at this point. I know I need a fill sometime in the near future. My first one lasted a couple of weeks, but the restriction is pretty much gone now. At this point I am doing the will power thing. I plan on going down to Paris, TX in Feb. to get my second fill.
I feel like I am at such a cross-roads in my life right now. Personally, my life is going well. I'm making steady progress in my change to a healthy life. Professionally, I am incredibly burned out. I have been a special education teacher for 20 years now. For the first 17 years I was very content and enjoyed my job almost every day. But the last few years have been very hard. It has become very challenging due to the federal regulations imposed by the NCLB initiative. The field of special education is not the same as it was when I chose this career. It is time for a change. I am currently researching the training and job opportunities in the field of medical transcription. We'll see how this plays out. One thing is for sure, I must make a change.
I feel like I am at such a cross-roads in my life right now. Personally, my life is going well. I'm making steady progress in my change to a healthy life. Professionally, I am incredibly burned out. I have been a special education teacher for 20 years now. For the first 17 years I was very content and enjoyed my job almost every day. But the last few years have been very hard. It has become very challenging due to the federal regulations imposed by the NCLB initiative. The field of special education is not the same as it was when I chose this career. It is time for a change. I am currently researching the training and job opportunities in the field of medical transcription. We'll see how this plays out. One thing is for sure, I must make a change.
1-22-07
Jan 21, 2007
Well, we survived the ice storm of 2007! Hopefully it is the last one for the year. My daughter and I were both out of school for snow days. I had to go back to work on Friday, but she got to stay home. That is ok. My district only has 2 days to make up after using built in days. Her school will have 4 to make up! She starts back in August before my school does so she always gets out earlier in May. This year it may be close to the same. Being stuck in the house all week was hard on my resolve to make wise band/food choices. I made the decision to not walk on my treadmill. I know, that was not a wise decision. But, I was back on it this morning. And I can't tell you how good it makes me feel to be back in my routine. The scale said 318.8 this morning. So I guess I didn't do terrible damage on my week off.
