meliss0725
New Doctor and another New Start
Mar 15, 2008
Here I am again and hopefully this time (the third) will be a charm. I have still not lost any weight. I am all settled in my new home and I have sligtly less to worry about now. Finances are thight but I am digging us upward out of it. I wish that my husban's business would take off so that he can be happy and we don't have to rely on me so much.
I found a new doctor here in Chicagoland. I am really impressed with his "aftercare" program. I went for 1 fill so far, I was only at .5cc and now I am at 1.0cc. I also am seeing their nutritionist, psychologist and Nurse Practitioner. My goal is to lose 30 lbs by summer so that I can get pregnant.
As for my medical issues, I think that the Sarcoidosis is in remission. I am in need of a blood test to show the change in ACE levels in my blood. I also just found out that I am a carrier for thaelessemia (sp?) which is a blood disorder that causes coolieys anemia (I think that was it's old name). I have a mild form which is causing anemia in me but that is not a big deal. My hubby needs to be tested but he is Jewish and I am Italian and I have been blessed with this because of my family heritage as carriers of this disease. They say that people of Medeterrainean descent can get this disease. Glad I do not have it 100% because it is pretty bad. So hubby is on the way to get a blood test and I am pretty sure that he will not also be a carrier.
So, I am resolving to be here every day and I am now using Sparkpeople to log my food. It really helps to do that because I will be able to SEE my caloric intake as it happens. Thank goodness for technology because I would never be writing down my food, that would just drive me nuts.
I found a new doctor here in Chicagoland. I am really impressed with his "aftercare" program. I went for 1 fill so far, I was only at .5cc and now I am at 1.0cc. I also am seeing their nutritionist, psychologist and Nurse Practitioner. My goal is to lose 30 lbs by summer so that I can get pregnant.
As for my medical issues, I think that the Sarcoidosis is in remission. I am in need of a blood test to show the change in ACE levels in my blood. I also just found out that I am a carrier for thaelessemia (sp?) which is a blood disorder that causes coolieys anemia (I think that was it's old name). I have a mild form which is causing anemia in me but that is not a big deal. My hubby needs to be tested but he is Jewish and I am Italian and I have been blessed with this because of my family heritage as carriers of this disease. They say that people of Medeterrainean descent can get this disease. Glad I do not have it 100% because it is pretty bad. So hubby is on the way to get a blood test and I am pretty sure that he will not also be a carrier.
So, I am resolving to be here every day and I am now using Sparkpeople to log my food. It really helps to do that because I will be able to SEE my caloric intake as it happens. Thank goodness for technology because I would never be writing down my food, that would just drive me nuts.
A short post
Mar 09, 2008
GET TO THE GYM MELISSA!!!!!! NOTHING ELSE IS MORE IMPORTANT!
That's it for today.
That's it for today.
The Plan
Oct 11, 2007
I have thought about switching to the bypass time and time again. I would be curious to hear what the doctor and the insurance company say. I am not the kind of person to preach to you or to be mean spirited about your decision. This is totally up to you and it is personal.
I will say that I am not against the bypass totally but I still have the same feelings as I did when I chose the band over the bypass (healthier, less risks, etc) but I really do need to get this weight off so it is something worth considering. I guess that I am not running to the doctor to switch to bypass also because I am scared silly of surgery, even now.
I am trying something else out right now.
1. Mental readiness - I came back to OH which helped me decide in the first place
2. I am trying a new eating progam (because I think it still comes down just to calories in vs. calories out)
3. I am going to get myself to exercise very, very, soon (yes, this is a mental block and a time issue for me)
Anyway I can share some of my thoughts:
The band did not live up to my expectations but I did not live up the the band lifestyle either. I think that while I was too tight I ae easy food, like cheese and crackers for dinner or red meat with no attempt at even touching chicken or fish. I made lot's of pasta and I had my own experience on what would go down and what would not. I used this as my primary drivers on what to eat. I would sometimes eat chip or ice cream for dinner if I was feeling especially tight.
I started thinking about what was at the core of my issues. I do not think that I am 100% emotional eater, I may be more of a convenience eater. I rarely go for fries or burgers and I will opt for good food if it is readily available and agreeable with my personal band experience. I could not eat salad almost from the beginning and I was not one to slow down and chew. It was my issue alone and I cannot blame my band or my doctor. I do blame the fact that I did not seek fills and unfills often enough. I thought that I was having a perfectly normal experience.
I think that thias takes a lifestyle change overall and while most people hate the word diet, I am going to start on a healthy eating plan. My husband and I have decided to go on Seattle Sutton's healthy eating. I order food and it gets delivered to my house fresh twice a week. It is not diet food it is regular fresh food but the meals are balanced and the portions are right. People always say that "when you go off of that, you can not keep it up" and other things. Here is how I rationalized it. I no longer have to cook or shop for food. Heck, I do not have to even do dishes anymore because it comes packaged in sectioned bowls. I took the 1200 calorie option that someone else has figured out for me. I love fresh veggies but cooking them and them making sure I eat them was always a problem. For example one of the meals contains asparaugs. I love asparagus and purchased some a few weeks ago. I threw out over 3/4ths of what I cooked because I could not eat it fast enough during that week. The difference is that what I get from SSHE is 2-3 spears along with chicken or fish or whatever is on the menu. I do not go through the fridge looking to finish something just because I do not want to throw it out. Also, i do not have to worry about "what's for dinner" if the food is already there. I also do not feel guilty about going out to dinner because I know that will not have a week long binge because the SSHE is waiting for me the next day. This happened this week because last night I had a team dinner meeting and I ate more than I wanted but what I really wanted was my SSHE food that was at home.
I am starting to realize that my food issues are complex and in my heart I never thought they were about junk food or depression or midnight snacking. I simply do not have those issues, at least not to any measureable degree. If i had to look into the psychology of it all I really think that I might have ADD. Adult's can have this condition too. If I tweak things about my behavior and make it easier for me not to have to make all these food choices I might have found my path to weight loss. You see my choices were more mindless than anything. I think I was eating solely with 2-3 criteria in mind: Is the food here? Does it taste good? What do I have to do to get it from the fridge to my tummy? Kind of simple in a strange way. I am also not too much of a snacker but I gotta have it when I want it so I am not going to beat myself up over it when I do. I do not keep cookies or snacks in the house but I do keep things like cereal bars and they seem to satisfy me. I can just reach for that when I ned a snack.
This new healthy eating program is costing me around $100 per week. I spend around $80 living my current lifestyle and I usually pick up a massive salad with bread and butter for lunch and perhaps a big bowl of pasta for dinner (because I have made too much and it is just "there" so I eat it). I belive that this latest "try" is going to be successful. I know that the band is just a tool, it does not force weight loss the same way bypass does. I think it is behavior that has to change in the long-run.
The band keeps me from one or two physical behaviors but my mind is stronger than my band and I really need to address my behavior. That's what I am concentrating on this time and I am confident that oit will work.
I will say that I am not against the bypass totally but I still have the same feelings as I did when I chose the band over the bypass (healthier, less risks, etc) but I really do need to get this weight off so it is something worth considering. I guess that I am not running to the doctor to switch to bypass also because I am scared silly of surgery, even now.
I am trying something else out right now.
1. Mental readiness - I came back to OH which helped me decide in the first place
2. I am trying a new eating progam (because I think it still comes down just to calories in vs. calories out)
3. I am going to get myself to exercise very, very, soon (yes, this is a mental block and a time issue for me)
Anyway I can share some of my thoughts:
The band did not live up to my expectations but I did not live up the the band lifestyle either. I think that while I was too tight I ae easy food, like cheese and crackers for dinner or red meat with no attempt at even touching chicken or fish. I made lot's of pasta and I had my own experience on what would go down and what would not. I used this as my primary drivers on what to eat. I would sometimes eat chip or ice cream for dinner if I was feeling especially tight.
I started thinking about what was at the core of my issues. I do not think that I am 100% emotional eater, I may be more of a convenience eater. I rarely go for fries or burgers and I will opt for good food if it is readily available and agreeable with my personal band experience. I could not eat salad almost from the beginning and I was not one to slow down and chew. It was my issue alone and I cannot blame my band or my doctor. I do blame the fact that I did not seek fills and unfills often enough. I thought that I was having a perfectly normal experience.
I think that thias takes a lifestyle change overall and while most people hate the word diet, I am going to start on a healthy eating plan. My husband and I have decided to go on Seattle Sutton's healthy eating. I order food and it gets delivered to my house fresh twice a week. It is not diet food it is regular fresh food but the meals are balanced and the portions are right. People always say that "when you go off of that, you can not keep it up" and other things. Here is how I rationalized it. I no longer have to cook or shop for food. Heck, I do not have to even do dishes anymore because it comes packaged in sectioned bowls. I took the 1200 calorie option that someone else has figured out for me. I love fresh veggies but cooking them and them making sure I eat them was always a problem. For example one of the meals contains asparaugs. I love asparagus and purchased some a few weeks ago. I threw out over 3/4ths of what I cooked because I could not eat it fast enough during that week. The difference is that what I get from SSHE is 2-3 spears along with chicken or fish or whatever is on the menu. I do not go through the fridge looking to finish something just because I do not want to throw it out. Also, i do not have to worry about "what's for dinner" if the food is already there. I also do not feel guilty about going out to dinner because I know that will not have a week long binge because the SSHE is waiting for me the next day. This happened this week because last night I had a team dinner meeting and I ate more than I wanted but what I really wanted was my SSHE food that was at home.
I am starting to realize that my food issues are complex and in my heart I never thought they were about junk food or depression or midnight snacking. I simply do not have those issues, at least not to any measureable degree. If i had to look into the psychology of it all I really think that I might have ADD. Adult's can have this condition too. If I tweak things about my behavior and make it easier for me not to have to make all these food choices I might have found my path to weight loss. You see my choices were more mindless than anything. I think I was eating solely with 2-3 criteria in mind: Is the food here? Does it taste good? What do I have to do to get it from the fridge to my tummy? Kind of simple in a strange way. I am also not too much of a snacker but I gotta have it when I want it so I am not going to beat myself up over it when I do. I do not keep cookies or snacks in the house but I do keep things like cereal bars and they seem to satisfy me. I can just reach for that when I ned a snack.
This new healthy eating program is costing me around $100 per week. I spend around $80 living my current lifestyle and I usually pick up a massive salad with bread and butter for lunch and perhaps a big bowl of pasta for dinner (because I have made too much and it is just "there" so I eat it). I belive that this latest "try" is going to be successful. I know that the band is just a tool, it does not force weight loss the same way bypass does. I think it is behavior that has to change in the long-run.
The band keeps me from one or two physical behaviors but my mind is stronger than my band and I really need to address my behavior. That's what I am concentrating on this time and I am confident that oit will work.
Goodbye Sarcoidosis
Oct 11, 2007
This past spring I was diagnosed with a disease called Sarcoidosis. I found out about this disease because I thought that my band had slipped or I was having reflux. I felt a knot in my chest and some burning. It turned out to be my lymphnodes in my chest and it was detected on a chest x-ray. An "under-educated" radiologist diagnosed me with cancer and personally refusing that diagnosis, my pulmonologist biopsied my lungs and found Sarcoid.
Sarcoidosis is an auto-immune disease with many manifestations but mainly in the lungs. There is no cure and there is no real undersatnding of the cause of this disease. You may have heard of it because 9/11 workers came down with it. I was not there on 9/11 but I worked across from the stock exchange at that time and went back to work after our building had been "cleaned". I am not sure how I got it but I am just thanking God every day that I am doing well and I suspect that I may be in remission. The good news is that the disease can go away on its own.
The tricky thing about Sarcoidosis is that it can be found in other places in the body. The skin, brain and heart and also kidney or spleen. Usually there is no interference with the functioning of the organ but there can be. Other than very deep coughing and chest pain, I think I may have had it in my eyes at one time (although I just got confirmation it is not in either one) I think I may have had it in my spleen because of some odd pains in that reason.
The thing I am so happy about is that all my symptoms are gone. I had one symptom which was a twitch or muscle spasam right below my right eye which was visible but only if you were looking for it. Needless to say it was annoying and a very strange sensation. I also had one in a never before used muscle right on the tip of my nose. It was the strangest sensation and it happened frequently. I did not make the connection with the disease and this strange twitching. I thought it was nerves or something else. My happy moment came today when I realized that I can not remember the last time I had that little twitch. It was obvious when my cough went away. I had co-workers come over to me and say that they noticed an improvement. At one point I was unable to finish a sentence without running out of breath or coughing and they noticed that too. Now it is totally gone. With that twitch gone I did not even notice that it had left me. I am happy to see it go and I am feeling like I have overcome this disease.
Now, let me be successful with my band
Sarcoidosis is an auto-immune disease with many manifestations but mainly in the lungs. There is no cure and there is no real undersatnding of the cause of this disease. You may have heard of it because 9/11 workers came down with it. I was not there on 9/11 but I worked across from the stock exchange at that time and went back to work after our building had been "cleaned". I am not sure how I got it but I am just thanking God every day that I am doing well and I suspect that I may be in remission. The good news is that the disease can go away on its own.
The tricky thing about Sarcoidosis is that it can be found in other places in the body. The skin, brain and heart and also kidney or spleen. Usually there is no interference with the functioning of the organ but there can be. Other than very deep coughing and chest pain, I think I may have had it in my eyes at one time (although I just got confirmation it is not in either one) I think I may have had it in my spleen because of some odd pains in that reason.
The thing I am so happy about is that all my symptoms are gone. I had one symptom which was a twitch or muscle spasam right below my right eye which was visible but only if you were looking for it. Needless to say it was annoying and a very strange sensation. I also had one in a never before used muscle right on the tip of my nose. It was the strangest sensation and it happened frequently. I did not make the connection with the disease and this strange twitching. I thought it was nerves or something else. My happy moment came today when I realized that I can not remember the last time I had that little twitch. It was obvious when my cough went away. I had co-workers come over to me and say that they noticed an improvement. At one point I was unable to finish a sentence without running out of breath or coughing and they noticed that too. Now it is totally gone. With that twitch gone I did not even notice that it had left me. I am happy to see it go and I am feeling like I have overcome this disease.
Now, let me be successful with my band
I'm Baaaack
Oct 06, 2007
OK, being the original Lapband post person yes, I hold that honor of being the first Lap Band patient to post to the Lap Band forum here on OH. (believe it or not, I was the very first). I get very nostalgic about this site because you all helped me so much 4 years ago. I was full of hope then and I am full of hope now. This lapband will work if you make it work and I suppose I never did that.
I can not blame my situation on my doctor or depression or anything really. I suppose that I can thank my Lapband for not adding 20 pounds on to my already morbidly obese body. I have gained and lost arounf 5 lbs in the past 2 years after being down to 238 from 257.
I have lost a few things by keeping this weight on though. Not pretty things at all but facing the truth is half the battle. I am starting to have some pretty bad but not unexpected side effects from this weight. I have lost much of my strength and energy and passion for physical activity. I find it very difficult to go out and take a walk now. My joints are in serious jeopardy and I am certain that I will need to have surgery on my left knee. My muscle tone is going away and I am having a hard time lifting heavy things as it hurts so much to sleep on my side and my shoulder hurts from the weight of my body bearing down on it. I am a side sleeper and I am afraid that I will crush my joints if I am not careful.
I do wish to thank my Lapband for something else...something important. In my neverending quest to make this band work, I went to my surgeon for a check up this past May. It turns out that what I thought was heartburn or band slippage was something alltogther different. As part of my exam, a video espohogram, I had a chest x-ray. I think that the radiologist saw something that he did not like. I moved from NY to Chicago and got a letter from Dr. Geiss' office telling me to seek another chest x-ray. To make a long story short, they diagnosed Lymphoma and multiple Lung Matasteses (lung cancer) from the first doctor. I was freightened out of my mind. Luckily I found a pulmonologist who tested me for something else because he did not think that it was possible for me to have cancer, at least the risk was very low. I do have another diease which is not cancerous. The disease is called Sarcoidosis and it effects my lymphnodes in my lungs and there are many small spots on my lungs called granulomas. I have diminished lung capacity (not too bad though) and I was coughing for months. It also causes arthritis. There is no cure and it effects young people in their 20's and 30's and sadly african americans are impacted with more severe symptoms. You may know this disease because it impacted many 9/11 firefighters and some civilians who were in the area. I worked in downtown NYC for several weeks - months following the attack. I am very lucky because my disease seems to be in remission now because many of the symptoms, including extreme malise and my hacking cough have disappeared in a matter of 2 months since being diagnosed. I am convinced that it will NOT come back and I want to regain my life again. That includes losing weight. At least 75 - 100 lbs over the next year. I found inner strength and faith through this disease and I will look to that same strength to achieve my new health goals.
Let's see...in 2003, there were no smilies. Blogging was not a word in my vocabulary and my OH website crashed all the time that I never posted anything much. I am going to post to this site regularly and would love to share my positive attitude and leverage your success and strength to help me through this. I set out on this journey 4 years ago and I seem to have taken a detour. Please join me in getting back on track. I could use all the help that I can get.
All Previous Posts
Oct 06, 2007
I am currently researching all alternatives for weight loss. I have already set up one or more appointments with doctors on Long Island, hoping to find my comfort zone. I am scared to tears trying to make this decision because even a dentist visit scares me. My best friend had the surgery last year and I can now eat my words because although I hate to admit it, I gave her a very hard time. I am very proud of her and did not mean to be so upset when she made her decision and stuck with it.
I still hold the belief that the anatomy should not be changed but after seeing her progress (100 lbs lost) and my lack of progress (dispite 3x's per week with a very expensive trainer), I am doing my research. I have heard the good, the bad and the ugly and I even know someone who had a very bad experience with the surgery.
I could use any support or words that anyone would like to share and if there is someone on Long Island also looking to do research, I would be happy to chat with you.
3/8/2003
I have appointments with the following doctors on Long Island:
Dr. Geiss
Dr. Adaniel
Dr. Garber
Dr. Gellman
Will wait to make other appointments. I really want to find the best one for me. Any suggestions and/or comments would be welcome, positive or negative.
Future update...
March 26, 2006 - Almost 3 YEARS later.
OK, my profile looks messy (It seems to have deterioriated over the past few years) but I am working on getting it fixed. I started coming back here recently and I think that it is one of the bect moves that I have made. I am on a Mental-Re Banding campaign and once again determined the lose the weight that plauged me when I first had my surgery. Someone recently asked me to summarize my experience and I think that I gave a good summary of where I am to date:
First, congratulations on your surgery! It took me a long time to decide on the Lap Band and I know that the process is long and filled with emotion. OH helped me a lot and it seems to have grown significantly over the past 3 years. Funny thing is that I am the first person who found the Lap Band Forum and I placed the first post on here. I am glad that I came back so that I can learn from others to help me to succeed and also help some who are looking for support.
My story is a bit different from most, I did not suffer from any health problems, depression or other issues. I did not seek the surgery to cure anything and I had no expectations or assumed no guarantees that it would work quickly or without my input. I am simply a very busy person and type A personality. The reason that I say that is because I am in my mid thirties, I was working at as a Vice President for a very large Financial Services firm and I was finishing my MS and my MBA at the same time. I am the breadwinner in my relationship (now marriage) and I carry a ton of responsibility. I purchased 2 houses in this time frame, lost my job, found a new job and got married. I am no different from many people but I am different from some that I see post and complain that the band did not work for them because of the fault of a Doctor or the band itself or because they assumed they could now eat anything and lose weight like an RNY patient. I do not judge anyone else and I understand that people have circumstances that lead them to the exact position they are in life. The only thing that I think sets me apart is that I am looking for a plan to move myself from that position into another one that reflects the goals that I have set for myself. The only one who can get me there is me. I can receive help from partners like Doctors, the wonderful people on OH, my family and friends. Bottom line, it is still up to me.
The long and short of it is that now 3 years later, I weigh the same as I did on my day of surgery. I think the root cause in my case is that I did not take time for the necessary follow-up. I wound up on the road for work in another state for 1 year after the band, wedding planning and school and work got in the way of me focusing on the band. If I had made the time to go to support meetings, see my doctor and make time to focus on what I was eating I could have found the path that would have helped me to achieve my weight loss goals. It took me around 6-8 months to decide to get my first fill. I was not listening to my body and I did not take the time to get the facts on what restriction feels like. I lost focus. I did not take time to exercise (although I did for 1 full year before surgery). I gave up taking out the time for me to focus on other goals such as work and school. Again, I lost focus. Lastly, I did have enough restriction for the band to be a "bother" in my life; meaning that I could not eat certain foods, so I turned to things that were easy to eat like high fat meats and chip and ice cream. Again, I lost focus and took the easy way out.
So here I am the same weight as my surgery day and at one point I even put on up to 8 lbs more. Two things hit me recently:
My husband and I want children
My body is starting to feel like I am going past a point of no-return. I do not have the same energy that I have enjoyed most of my life, even being 100 lbs overweight.
I really needed to do something quick! Well, every day I remember that I have a band in my body. I go to sleep and I think about it. I wonder if it is hurting me more than helping me. So one day over these past few weeks, I decided to let it help me. I always knew that it was there and I always knew it could be activated at any time. It is the single reason that when I weighed the risks of Lap Band over RNY I decided on the Lap Band. I could turn it up or down at any point in my life. So , the time is NOW! I decided to go back to my doctor, seek the support that I need and go on a mental-re banding campaign as if I was never banded before. Here are some of the "tools" that I am using to help me get to my goals:
I had an adjustment of my band and made a follow-up visit with my Dr.
I went back to OH and looked for support
I made an appointment with the Nutritionist
I am going back to the gym in 2 weeks
I am using FitDay religiously
I am listening to my body and making an effort to address every piece of food that enters my mouth
I am doing more planning of meals and circumstances that cause me to make really bad decisions about food
I joined MasteringFood.com and am hopefully not wasting $120.00
I put my husband on a diet also (he willingly accepted)
So that's it! Please feel free to ask me more questions. It helps me with my journey to answer other people. I guess that when I write it down I really have to think about it and make it a priority.
I have appointments with the following doctors on Long Island:
Dr. Geiss
Dr. Adaniel
Dr. Garber
Dr. Gellman
Will wait to make other appointments. I really want to find the best one for me. Any suggestions and/or comments would be welcome, positive or negative.
March 26, 2006 - Almost 3 YEARS later.
OK, my profile looks messy (It seems to have deterioriated over the past few years) but I am working on getting it fixed. I started coming back here recently and I think that it is one of the bect moves that I have made. I am on a Mental-Re Banding campaign and once again determined the lose the weight that plauged me when I first had my surgery. Someone recently asked me to summarize my experience and I think that I gave a good summary of where I am to date:
First, congratulations on your surgery! It took me a long time to decide on the Lap Band and I know that the process is long and filled with emotion. OH helped me a lot and it seems to have grown significantly over the past 3 years. Funny thing is that I am the first person who found the Lap Band Forum and I placed the first post on here. I am glad that I came back so that I can learn from others to help me to succeed and also help some who are looking for support.
My story is a bit different from most, I did not suffer from any health problems, depression or other issues. I did not seek the surgery to cure anything and I had no expectations or assumed no guarantees that it would work quickly or without my input. I am simply a very busy person and type A personality. The reason that I say that is because I am in my mid thirties, I was working at as a Vice President for a very large Financial Services firm and I was finishing my MS and my MBA at the same time. I am the breadwinner in my relationship (now marriage) and I carry a ton of responsibility. I purchased 2 houses in this time frame, lost my job, found a new job and got married. I am no different from many people but I am different from some that I see post and complain that the band did not work for them because of the fault of a Doctor or the band itself or because they assumed they could now eat anything and lose weight like an RNY patient. I do not judge anyone else and I understand that people have circumstances that lead them to the exact position they are in life. The only thing that I think sets me apart is that I am looking for a plan to move myself from that position into another one that reflects the goals that I have set for myself. The only one who can get me there is me. I can receive help from partners like Doctors, the wonderful people on OH, my family and friends. Bottom line, it is still up to me.
The long and short of it is that now 3 years later, I weigh the same as I did on my day of surgery. I think the root cause in my case is that I did not take time for the necessary follow-up. I wound up on the road for work in another state for 1 year after the band, wedding planning and school and work got in the way of me focusing on the band. If I had made the time to go to support meetings, see my doctor and make time to focus on what I was eating I could have found the path that would have helped me to achieve my weight loss goals. It took me around 6-8 months to decide to get my first fill. I was not listening to my body and I did not take the time to get the facts on what restriction feels like. I lost focus. I did not take time to exercise (although I did for 1 full year before surgery). I gave up taking out the time for me to focus on other goals such as work and school. Again, I lost focus. Lastly, I did have enough restriction for the band to be a "bother" in my life; meaning that I could not eat certain foods, so I turned to things that were easy to eat like high fat meats and chip and ice cream. Again, I lost focus and took the easy way out.
So here I am the same weight as my surgery day and at one point I even put on up to 8 lbs more. Two things hit me recently:
My husband and I want children
My body is starting to feel like I am going past a point of no-return. I do not have the same energy that I have enjoyed most of my life, even being 100 lbs overweight.
I really needed to do something quick! Well, every day I remember that I have a band in my body. I go to sleep and I think about it. I wonder if it is hurting me more than helping me. So one day over these past few weeks, I decided to let it help me. I always knew that it was there and I always knew it could be activated at any time. It is the single reason that when I weighed the risks of Lap Band over RNY I decided on the Lap Band. I could turn it up or down at any point in my life. So , the time is NOW! I decided to go back to my doctor, seek the support that I need and go on a mental-re banding campaign as if I was never banded before. Here are some of the "tools" that I am using to help me get to my goals:
I had an adjustment of my band and made a follow-up visit with my Dr.
I went back to OH and looked for support
I made an appointment with the Nutritionist
I am going back to the gym in 2 weeks
I am using FitDay religiously
I am listening to my body and making an effort to address every piece of food that enters my mouth
I am doing more planning of meals and circumstances that cause me to make really bad decisions about food
I joined MasteringFood.com and am hopefully not wasting $120.00
I put my husband on a diet also (he willingly accepted)
So that's it! Please feel free to ask me more questions. It helps me with my journey to answer other people. I guess that when I write it down I really have to think about it and make it a priority.
