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Okay so I went to the dr. on Tues 3/22  to learn that my weight was NOT 228 but 238! 47 lbs down (woo hoo) but 10 lbs MORE than I thought based on my scale that I will be putting away and just sticking with a digital one I got from bed bath and beyond.

Well I guess it doesn't change the fact that I did drop a few clothing sizes and have lost weight. Just not as much as I anticipated. Dissappointed?? very!  . . . was feeling a lil' down for a few days . . . more like the last wk or so but I'm getting back into the groove of things. I can't allow myself to let the scale determine my happiness. It's gonna come off slowly but surely.

My "official" 5 month surgiversary is tomorrow, but I'm posting today. I was 238 at the dr. on tues but this morning I am 237. So officially 48 lbs down. And I'm happy with that. I bought a size 14 the other day and they fit good now. Got them from the Avenue so kinda think they run a lil' big but I'm still happy I'm buying smaller clothes instead of BIGGER like before. Next update in 2 wks or so. :)

I wish I had been on here from day one! Would have been nice to look back on this journey from the very beginning. It's many highs and can't forget the lows. But I'm here, I had my surgery and will move forward.

First thing first are my stats. I think my scale is a lil' off from the dr's but hopefully my home scale isn't too off. That would suck! lol

As of today I weigh 228
Loss since surgery: 57 lbs.

I was amazed when I recently went to the Avenue and tried on a pair of 14 "skinny jeans" that actually fit! I'll have to take a picture in them when I wear them. I can't remember the last time I've ever purchased or have worn anything smaller than an 18 or a 20. Feels good but I have to stop myself from getting down. I feel like I have SUCH a long way to go and can't wait until I'm under 200 lbs and OUT of plus sizes altogether. But my time will come.

So far here are my pros and cons since having VSG:

Cons:
1) Uncomfortable feeling when I eat too fast (which to me isn't very fast at all . . . but I guess it is)
2) Not being able to eat and drink simultaneously (but I can drink water a LOT better than right after surgery). I've gotten used to this and it's not so bad after all.
3) I miss bread! . . . I eat small amounts of carbs, toast, brown rice, etc. But I miss having a cheeseburger WITH a bun, sandwich WITH fresh baked bread (subway anyone??) . . . and lots of other things. I've learned to deal with this and there are tons of alternatives for just about EVERY high carb meal out there I'm learning.


Pros (thus far):
1) I can (kinda sorta lol) cross my legs! . . . haven't done this in FOREVER but makes me feel more "lady like"
2) Shopping is FUN now . . . despite not being at goal, or anywhere close to it, it feels great to try on things and look decent in them
3) Confidence boost! . . . I now believe what my boyfriend has told me forever . . . I'm beautiful :)
4) Can't overeat . . . trust me I've tried (sad to say) and my stomach will NOT allow me to eat nowhere near what I used to. Thank God!
5) More active: I can excercise longer and try new weight machines at the gym that I was afraid I wouldn't even be able to "fit" on before my surgery.


There are many many more . . . but that's my short list for now. Thankfully the pros outweigh the cons! Hope it stays that way!

Look forward to sharing my journey/thoughts/ideas with anyone who'll read it! I go for my 5 month check up on the 22nd of this month just 4 days before my official "5 month surgiversary". I was a lil' dissappointed prior to scheduling the appointment with my weight loss. I try not to compare myself to others but my weight loss seems so slow. Since making my appt, I've tracked every single CALORIE I put in my mouth and go to the gym 4-5 times a wk. Last wk alone I dropped 7 lbs. This wk . . . no change. But it was enough motivation for me to realize this is a TOOL . . . not a magic formula. I've had to work for every single lb that I've lost.  . . it hasn't just fallen off.

With that being said . . . I plan on continuing my cardio and weights at the gym. Don't want to be too flabby after all this is said and done. But I'm sure I'll need something lifted or taken off permanently from my body.

Til next time . . . hopefully I'll be more of a "looser" in 11 days (fingers crossed) :)