mjloyd
HAH! I'm doing it!
Apr 02, 2007
One week appointment w/Dr. H.
Mar 30, 2007
So I have my cottage cheese, eggs, cheese, etc.... I'm glad to be getting some real food but not this way! Oh well, I move on and see what happens. I do have to admit after 2 more shakes and a cup of cottage cheese, I'm definitely not hungry anymore! This is the first time I haven't felt hungry in 10 days!
Things are better!
Mar 28, 2007
Today I go see Dr. Houston. We'll see how much I've lost since surgery. This is a week and a half. I hope he lets me have some cottage cheese or something! Oh well, I'll let you know after my appointment. I'm planninng on going to Dr. Frye's group today plus I have an appointment with Amanda. The meds that she ordered the changes in work pretty well, just taste nasty but much better than crushing them.
HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mar 26, 2007
!OMG! I am so damn hungry!! My family is cooking their dinner which they are eating just what they want but the smells are killing me. I just want sit down and cry!!! In fact I am crying! I just feel so alone in this right now and I know I'm not. So many others have been through this before! I just can't understand why I'm so hungry. I just want to die! Of course before you ask, I've had 3 protein shakes, 2 bottles of water, 2 jellos and 2 popscicles. I've gotten all of my stuff in!!! Yesterday was better. Today has been a nightmare. I went to pick the kids up and go to Goodies so I could get me some elastic pants to be able to have something to wear. Regular pants tend to rub my incisions and hurt. It's been the first day I've been left at home alone. It's been a tough day. Couldn't find the DVD remote so I could watch my movies. Couldn't focus on reading my new book. I read the same paragraph over 9 times before I put it up. Television is so limited. There's nothing on during the day. Occasionally Lifetime will have something on but today it was nada!
I asked my husband what he was cooking. He told me pizza and looked like he wanted to crawl under the stairs. But I just had to ask, it seemed to make me feel better.
Tomorrow night my little man (Steven) is taking his "friend" who just happens to be named Rachel to Geinghis Grill. Well Mark is taking them. She invited him to a dance. He doesn't like to go to dances so he invited her to GG....without consulting us. Of course we just could'nt say no because it was so cute. But of course we had a conversationn about talking to mama and daddy about clearing things with us before he goes inviting his friends out to eat! I'm glad though. They'll be out of the house and the smells won't be in the house.
Well I'm going now. Gotta crush up my multitude of pills and get them down. Goodnight!
Surgery over!!! Home!!!!
Mar 24, 2007
I have so much to catch you upon so I'll just start with Monday and surgery. I was in and out of surgery to my room in about 4 1/2 hours. Surgery went really well. No complications at all!! I survived the whole time without a problem other than a fever which was taken care of with lots of walking and deep breathing! Playing with my little toy they provided was way too much fun. I came home on Thursday. I did well until yesterday.
On Friday I noticed some hunger. I knew I didn't feel hungry necessarily but i wanted something to eat. A "meltdown" ensued!!!! After telling my family, "OH SURE EAT IN FRONT OF ME. I don't care! I can handle it", my reserve caved and I melted. Luckily one of my dear WLS buddies called just in time to catch the brunt of it. My poor husband was a little taken back. He can support me as much as possible for someone who has never been through surgery but OMG, he wasn't prepared for this! All I could say was "what have I done??? I'm HUNGRY!!!!" Bottom line to this meltdown is that it's all from headhunger/ habits. I have developed some really bad habits over the years. I'm having to change my whole way of looking at food. I'll keep ya posted on how this goes! For me, it's protein shakes and SF popscicles, at least till I can do the blended foods next weekend.
So far I'm down 12.5 pounds. I'm amazed!!!
It's the weekend!! 2 days to D-day!
Mar 16, 2007
Oh yea! My kids are so weird!!! But I love them!
9 days and counting!!!
Mar 10, 2007
Less than 2 weeks!
Mar 06, 2007
My dear friend April suggested that I need to exercise to get my strength up and make surgery easier. She's right and I think that will help me with my depression.
OK, this is just an update so I can come back when I want to eat and remember WHY I don't want to eat!
AAAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!
Mar 01, 2007
I'll be so glad when it FINALLY gets here!