mom_of_3_angels
Food Funeral
Mar 11, 2011
Ok, so here I am in month 5 of the process and I cannot stop eating!!! I was doing so good and now I am on a popcorn kick. I am eating it almost everynight, with about 2 tablespoons or up to 4 tablespoons and some parm cheese on top! I wont even be hungry but the head says we must have popcorn!! And like a little robot I go and eat it. I make it and then eat it and then hurt (I have gallstones!) and feel miserable.I've also been "bad" about eating jelly beans, a cheeseburger and pizza. I even indulged in hot wings!!!!! I haven't eaten things like this for about 7 months but as I get closer to my goal I start sabotaging myself!! I am so worried that this will cause the surgeons to not let me have surgery in May. (May is my projected time frame, nothing official there!)
On the doctor front.... I go on Tuesday for the 5 month visit. I am meeting with the Director of the program again, which in a way is disappointing b/c I thought I would be meeting my surgeon at this visit but maybe that comes in month 6. I will also be going through physical therapy again, this time to get the measurements that were not taken previously. I also plan on talking to them about pre-op shakes, do I buy them now or at the 6th month visit. I also hope that I can schedule the 6th month visit by April 8 since I will be leaving for home (yippee) to visit my family and will not be back until the 28th of the month. I'm hopeful they will allow me to schedule before I leave to go home to visit so that I can get everything submitted to BCBS. Maybe that would be my Easter Miracle....to be approved!!! A new birth for me on the most special holiday!!!
