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So for those of you who have been checking and patiently waiting for my update here is my life in the last three months . . .  I left my husband, yup finally got the guts and left that situation.  He had his surgery and is doing great am I jealous of this?  Maybe.  I have had so many complications and am in so much pain most of the time I don't have the patience when he whines about a little problem he has, but that isn't why I left.  What have I done since then?  I moved to a town about 100 miles from him, I am still in school, and He has my children.  So to take away the pain, boringness, and just because I have fallen back to drinking pretty heavily.  I will not be one who blames my weight loss surgery for this or anyother thing I have done since.  My confidence in my self is much higher than I ever expected although I still have some problems with my excess skin and not wanting people to know.  Honestly I have also become a horrible slut.  And as shocking as that may be to some reading this, that also gets blamed on the surgery but not by me, I have always been truthfull in my posts.  When you weigh 128lbs and look good in a size 3, guys tend not to care about a little extra skin.  Shocking I realize but very honest.  I have yet another follow up visit with a doctor on tuesday for the latest visit to the ER for dehydration.  My bowels are very slow moving and because of this I can't eat or drink as I should be and get extremely dehydrated easily.  Add alcohol and I pretty much screw myself.  Although I have been to the hospital less for this than before I started drinking.  They tell me I will die from the complications so I might as well go out having fun.  Feel free to post but keep your negatives to yourself . . . I have already been there and done that.

So I did decide to go back to school.  But I am still falling apart.  Blood pressure gets so low that I pass out.  Blood sugar is very low the high being 56.  No one knows what is causing my problems and I am the first case that has managed to have adrenal gland problems as well.  I need everyones input on if they have regrets and any problems from the surgery. 

I have an ulcer.  Yup lucky me!!!  Well my doc is 95% sure I do.  I have to get scoped to know for sure, but for now I am on nasty ulcer meds.  I also have yet another kidney infection.  I am falling apart.  My hubby finally got his date to his wls will be Jan 18, 2008.  Now he is having last minute doubts (due to me falling apart).  Still no clue as to why I am so dizzy though.  Went for more blwk and am awaiting the results of that.  Guess I should call the office.  I will also be unemployed as of 12/21/07, Merry F&*%#$% Christmas!  I think I may go back to school.  Hmmm!  At 30, I will probably be the oldest, yuck. 

I know, I know I haven't updated in awhile, well here is why . . . I haven't been here lately, I am tired of reading people complaining about negativity of others.  WELL, maybe some people have the right to be negative.  Others need to be aware that THIS SURGERY IS NOT ALL FUN AND GAMES.  There can be and have been serious side effects.  I feel that with all the research I did, all the reading of blogs, and posting, I only really heard the wonderful and great things - never saw the negative.  Why is that?  Because if anyone post anything negative then everyone starts having a hissy fit.  I for one think the negative has been more informative than the positive.  If only I had been able to find the information before I had my surgery.  I'm not saying I would not have had the surgery, but maybe thought longer and harder and done more research.  
So why am I posting this?  Other than to finally get it of my shrinking chest, I know I can't post this on a board due to the high amount of flaming.  I AM ONE OF THE PEOPLE WHO ARE HAVING NEGATIVE PROBLEMS WITH WLS.  
Yes I am losing weight at incredible speed and am only a 30 lbs from goal and couldn't have lost the weight any other way.  But is it really safe to have lost it this fast?  My dr doesn't seem to concerned but I am and so are my friends.  I am half bald but am taking my vitamins.  Yup I was warned of this before, but didn't fully realize it would be to this extent.  I have to plunge my tub every time I take a shower because of the amount of hair loss.  I am having problems with my kidneys because of the amount of protein we have to eat.  Didn't know this could be a side affect.  I am having constant pain in my side with the possible problem of adhesions.  What is the cure?  Another surgery and more time of work.  I still have problems with food and vomiting.  I am lucky if I only puke twice a week.  I am hungry all the time, real hunger not head hunger.  The dizziness has taken over my life.  I can not exercise for fear of passing out.  I can not bend over for the same fear.  I am now severly anemic and have to take iron pills that mess with my bowels.  So I have gone from having a bowel movement once a week to extremely painful once every two weeks.  Could this cause other problems?  Sure can.  I have extreme pain in my joints because I am unable to move for fear of passing out.  I now have to go to physical therapy 3 times a week.  That I have to laugh about.  I have seen orthopedic dr's who have said once I lose weight the pain would go away.  Nope not me.  The pain has gotten worse.  And now I can not take any anti-inflammatory drugs.  If I want relief I either have to take steriods or shots of steriods - what are the side affects?  Weight gain, wonderful.  Or percocet, which has the chance of becoming addicted.  My blood pressure which has never been high, is now extremely low.  And my blood sugar levels never go above the 50 mark.  
So how am I feeling?  I get asked that question all the time, of course to avoid hearing I told you so's, I say fine.  But inside I am screaming in pain.  Will it stop?who the hell knows.   I guess that about clarifies it all, any questions fine, any flames keep them to yourself.  

So, I have been a little busy and haven't updated in a while.  I am down almost 100 lbs. in a little over 3 months.  Wow!  That's all I can say.  I have been doing well, but sometimes not so great.  I haven't hit another plateau in awhile, but I know one should be coming soon.  That's it.  Will try and update sooner.  
                  

So now that I have adopted to furries, this weekend what am I doing?  Getting two more.  I can't wait.  But I have to say this will be the end of my ever expanding family.  I am so busy lately that I feel like I am running in circles and now it is time to get the kids ready for school.  I am slowly losing weight but I am ok with that too.  I can't exercise because of the dizziness with the low bp.  But hopefully this too will pass.  My dh is looking at having wls too.  That will be interesting because men are usually such babies about pain and being ill.  Oh well, always said I had three kids anyway.  Until later. . . 
  

First I can't believe I am sharing this, but who else but fellow post ops would understand this moment.  The other day my hubby and I were swimming.  We got out of the pool and I was in the process of drying off when he yelled to me for help moving things from the drive way to the house.  I quickly grabbed my shorts, rolled the waist and ran to help.  So here is the kicker - I didn't throw on any panties.   I start bringing down a box from the drive, down the steps and across the yard when my shorts start sliding down.  The stuff in the box was veggies and I didn't want to drop them.  My hands were full and unable to stop to pull my shorts up.  My DH looks over at me as I am crying and laughing all in one and . . .  gets to see my bare ass hanging out cause I lost my shorts a few steps back.  I laughed so hard I thought I would rip a muscle.  AHHHHH the bad parts of losing weight so quickly.  
                

All I can say is WOW!!!  In the last 3 weeks I haven't lost a single pound and now in less than one week I have lost 10.  Holy Cow!!!  If I had one I would worship it.  I am so glad to be on my way once more.  I knew that being stuck was normal but didn't expect it to last that long or once moving again would jump that fast.  I still haven't lost another pant size but hopefully soon will.  I will take my measurements tonight.  As for my new furries they are great.  They definetly are fun to watch when they play and are not scared of Gabe either.  My poor baby - now the cat and the ferret's pick on him.  He is definetly not the typical pitbull but I wouldn't have him any other way.  So now my Zoo is complete and I don't think I could be happier.  2 dogs, 2 ferret's, and a cat (who rules the house).  Yup she's bent but she always was stuck up anyway.  Now I wonder what I should get next?  My husband would probably kick me out if he heard me say that.  HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
       

After 3 weeks of being stuck I am finally back to losing weight.  YEAH ME!!!!  Hopefully it will be awhile before I stall again.  I am still having a problem with eating and can't get much or am sick immediately.  I hope that will pass soon.  Other than that things are great!  Today I will also be getting two new fur babies to add to my collection.  We are getting ferret's thier names are Cleopatra and Cesar.  I am very excited.  Although they do stink I am hoping to adjust to the smell. 
          

So, I went to see Dr. Moon yesterday for my 5 week follow up.  He walks in and says that he has to retake my BP cause as low as the nurse said it was I would be dead.  Well as a matter of fact that was one of the questions I had for him.  Everytime I have gone to the dr my bp has been very low.  80/68.  or lower.  I have been very dizzy and tired.  Well now starts the problems . . . I thought I was getting enough to drink but nope.  I thought I was getting enough to eat but NOPE. (Ugh!  How the heck am I supposed to eat and drink more?).  I haven't lost any weight in the last two weeks, I know that it is normal and not to concerned with that.  Everything should get better in the next week or so if I can get in more drinking.  Wish me luck.  I am also cleared to exercise YEAH!!!  My treadmill is so dusty I sneezed the whole time I was on there last night.  I have vomitted a few times, it seems like every 2 days and it can be new foods and foods I have done well on already.  I can't wait for that to stop.  Otherwise everything is well.