Monica G.

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Well here it is June already and it seems like the days are flying by.  Kids have been out of school for a while now and it's interesting to say the least.  Things on the homefront are worse instead of better. 

I joined a gym that let's kids go too so Jacob and I have been working out 3 times a week and it seems to be working.

I also wanted to let anyone who reads this know that I have another blog that I keep up more regularly than this one if they are interested...the address it:
http://monicaslifeandtimes.blogspot.com/

come and see me there! 

I'm sorry I didn't post it sooner!  I got the results back on Friday the 23rd that the tumor in my left breast is benign!!  I do have to follow up in 6 months and we have to keep a close eye on it, but that's fine by me. 

Things around here are going okay.  I met with my NUT yesterday and she really gave me good ideas for foods and such to get the weight loss going. 

Kids are out of school for the summer and I already had to break up 2 fights yesterday....did I mention their last day was yesterday??  LOL  boys!

After my last post I ended up going to the Dr the next day because I had a seroma that needed lancing.  It's healing fine.  I went for a mammogram right away since I was there and Dr R's nurse got me in.  They did find the mass that was on the CT Scan and wanted to do an ultrasound right away so I did that too.  Then they told me that they wanted to biopsy it.  So tomorrow I go in for the biopsy.  I am not going to lie and say I am not scared, hell I am terrified.  with everything else that's gone wrong in the last 8 weeks... I don't need anymore bad news.  I am scared of the pain actually because it's on the underside of my breast.  oh well, I still have Lortab left from surgery and  I will use that.  They even told me to bring it and after I sign the consent I can take some before they even start. 
Thursday and Friday I am not supposed to do much of anything and can't lift anything at all.  I guess there are risks of bleeding.  SO I will be laying on the couch and reading, watching tv, doing crosswords or sleeping. 

We have Austyn's end of the year program on Thursday night and I am not sure I can go.  I wil have to ask the nurses tomorrow.  Tyler's graduation isn't til next Wednesday night and then he's got his first "formal" dance on the 30th!  My baby is growing up and will be in high school next year.  Though I don't know how that happened since I am in no way old enough to have a high schooler....LOL

Have a great day everyone and I will update with results from the biopsy when I can!!

Happy Hump Day everyone!  It's time for another update, even though there's not really much to report.  I am healing nicely and finally being to feel pretty human again.  Even though I do get tired very quickly and my leg muscles are still weak.  I have been taking walks around my court with Jacob and he's been such a big help to me.  Yesterday I actually ventured out by myself for the first time since surgery.  I went to visit my friend Jackie at her work (petco) and then to the store.  It was nice to get out, but I did need a nap when I got home.

I am so glad that I am not working as of now.  Yes money sucks, but so what, it's only money. I want to enjoy my time with Tyler and Jacob this summer.  Tyler will be in high school next year and pretty soon that will be over as well.  I want to enjoy them now while they still want me too!  lol

Life here at home is sucky.  I don't take Austyn in public with me anywhere unless Mike is with because he just doesn't listen to me and treats me like crap.  Sometimes Mike says something to him other times nothing.  Without something changing around here and Mike getting his head out of his ass about a lot of things, I can't say that my marriage is going to work out.  I will do whatever I can to make it, but I won't subject myself or my kids to the stresses and shit that's going on now.  We shall see

Well that's about it. Like I said, nothing too exciting around here.  I don't go back to the Dr until June 3 and then we'll see what the scale says, cuz it's NOT my friend here at home.  I am not worrying about it though, not yet anyway...lol

Have a fabulous day everyone!

I am so sorry it's been so long since have updated this site.  As you will read, things didn't go as planned and got a bit hairy there for a while.  Okay here goes:

Monday March 24th, went in for my Laproscopic Gastric Bypass surgery.  Everything went great, Of course I had some pain, but nothing that was horrible.  I went home on Thursday the 27th in the afternoon.  I was taking my liquids in okay or so I thought.  I went to the Dr on Monday th 31st to have a drain removed and questioned the nurse about dehydration and things like that.  Well that evening I started to feel really sick, I couldn't keep anything in and was even afraid to try.  I ended up paging the Dr at about 9pm and he called back finally about 10:15pm and told me to go to the ER.  That's where the drama begins....

Mike  takes me to the ER, we leave Tyler in charge overnight, and I get there and of course they do the usual IV, bloodwork and then they also do x-rays and a CT scan.  Finally at about 6:30am on Tuesday they come to me and tell me that they found a partial obstruction so they are going to admit me.  They usually clear up on their own so I should be able to go home the next day.
HA!!  Well that didn't happen.  They took x-rays every morning to see what was going on and nothing was changing....oh wait, yes it was, by now I couldn't eat anything at all....including water and the worst part was the acid reflux I had....I would end up with bile in my throat at least 8-10 a day.  It was GROSS!!  They had me on the IV but NO nutrition for 4 days.  When my Dr came in (he was on vacation) and heard that I had no nutrition for 4 days, he ordered a pic line placed in me. For those of you who don't know what a pic line is, it's like an iv, but the catheter goes all the way to the vena cava by your heart.  Finally after many more tests and x-rays they decide that this isn't going to clear up on it's own and they are going to have to open me up and fix it. 

April 9th, Wednesday, I am scheduled for another surgery, this time they will open my entire belly, at 8am.  I came out of that one okay...A LOT of pain this time.  The nausea and the acid reflux I had was GONE!!  They kept me off of anything by mouth until the following Sunday evening to help my intestines heal.  When I proved that I could drink my liquids and eat some soup they let me go.  that was April 15th!!

So all in all, I was in the hospital the second time around for 15 days.  It was hell.  I cried everyday, I missed my kids SO much.  Jacob thought I was going to die and even asked my ex, who he would have to live with.  It makes me want to cry just thinking about it. 

I have been home almost 2 weeks.  Went to the Dr last Tuesday, had my staples and the G-tube drain removed and got the clearance to drive.  I haven't driven yet because honestly I don't think I could.  I am SO weak yet and my legs are the worst.  I really believe that part of it is that I had NO nutrition at all after they admitted me and my body started to take it from my muscles.  I have been walking, but I can't go very far without getting completely wiped out.  Even showers at this point exhaust me. 
Some days I feel like I will never get better and this is how I will have to live my life.  I know it's not true, but you have no idea how frustrating it is to not be able to support Tyler's sports teams, or tell Jacob that we have to skip the big dog show in IN next month because I am just not up to it.  Right now I have to admit that I regret doing this.  I know in the long run it will be worth it....but right now...hmmmmmmmm

On a positive note...I have lost 24 lbs already as of my Dr's visit on April 22nd!  lol

Well it's official that today is my last day of work....until I heal from surgery and find a new job.  The business is filing for bankruptsy.  oh well, at least I will have all the time I need to heal after surgery on Monday! 

I think I will be starting to apply at Vet offices then.  I am just about ready to take my first semester proctor tests..I am more nervous about those than surgery!
My very good friend Tia is going to be my proctor at least, so that will help. 

After today I will be busy getting Tyler ready to leave for DC and me to head to surgery on Monday.  That means I will be cleaning the house, doing laundry, packing and making lists for Mike and the kids.  Mike's boss has offered to take Austyn for Monday so we dont' have to worry about him and Jacob trying to kill each other while Mike is at the hospital with me.  Jacob will stay home, if he needs anything my neighbor said that he can go over there.  At least the dogs won't be alone  all day. 

Well I am off to my last day of work. It's actually going to be very weird not going there every day and talking with Carlo.  We always discussed the kids and life...lol

I will be a loser...lol  That still sounds so funny to me.  At least I hope I will be.  I woke up this morning with what feels like the start of a cold.  I am losing my voice and just feel icky.  I am going to call the Dr tomorrow to see if there is anything I can take to help. 

I am so excited though.  I just can't believe that it's coming up so soon.  wow. 

I will be finding a new job after surgery as well.  My boss is closing down the business and after the talk we had today, I don't blame him at all.  I will most likely start applying at Vet offices then.  we'll see. 

are in....everything is normal enough for surgery!  There is no left ventricular hypertrophy.  It did show a little bit of back flow but not enough to need antibiotics for dental procedures and stuff.  I'm not even sure what that means, but the Dr said that I shouldn't worry abou tit....yeah okay.  I have the all clear for surgery now.  It's only 2 weeks and 5 days away!  wow, I can't believe it's finally happening.

We went to the last meeting for Tyler's DC trip tonight and I kinda worried about being in surgery the same morning that he will be on a plane.  He will be home the same day I get home so I'm sure we'll have a lot to talk about.  lol

Well just when I thought all I had to do was wait for surgery, the Dr's office called on Friday to tell me that my EKG came back "borderline".  I needed to call my PCP and have another one.  So Monday, Tyler is home sick and I call to make an appt for him and then realize that I can get my EKG done then too.  Second one good, first one showed something called Left Ventricular Hypertrophy....thickening of the muscle in the left ventricle of the heart. 

Now I have to have an ultrasound of my heart done tomorrow to be sure that I don't have it.  Keep me in your thoughts that it's normal.  THEN and only then will my PCP send the okay to my surgeon. 

Well I had my pre op testing done today at St Alexius Medical Center.  First they ask you a million questions and then the nurse took 4 vials of blood and did an EKG.  Then it was off to wait for radiology.  There they did a chest x-ray and also an Upper GI.  That has got to be the most horrible test of all.  First off, I had to fast for 12 hours which meant the last time I ate anything was 9pm last night.  My test was at 1pm today.  I was starving by then and they make you drink/eat these little crystals that cause air to build up in your stomach and then you have to drink that chalky barium.  Get tons of pics of the stomach and intestines and then I had to lay down and drink some other gross stuff and twist and turn and do acrobatics for the Dr.  lol  It sure felt that way.  By the time the test was over I didn't feel good at all.  That crap made me nauseaus.  I got home and felt terrible, I had a sharp pain in my stomach from not eating and it's still there a little bit.  I am hoping that once I get some good sleep tonight it will go away.

So as of today, I am done with all of my pre op testing/visits and stuff.  Now I just wait for surgery.  yay.  Well that was my day!