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Just wanted to come in here and add that I've have stopped losing weight. Doc says I should weigh 150 and I'm at 170 and perfectly happy and healthy! So he can kiss my ass!

I wear Medium scrubs and in jeans anywhere from a 6 to a 12, depending on how it's made. My ol' man thinks I'm hot and has become very insecure in our relationship for about the last year or so but he will have to get over it cause I'm not gaining my weight back to have him feel secure about us.

I have 10mos left to bridge to my RN and they're busting my ass! It's harder than what I expected but I'm doing it. 1000's have done it before me and 1000's will do it after me. I know it's do-able and I will persevere and get it done! May 2011 here I come! LMAO!

I miss coming in here but I have no time to breathe between work and school and family.

If anyone would like to email me its [email protected]

Have a good one
Deb

16 months post-op and I'm through!

I'm at 179# and have been here for a bit now. Yea, I gain a couple of pounds here and there but it goes back down after a little while so I ain't too much worried about it.

I don't come here much anymore because both of my parents are in Renal Failure. My mom is here in Waycross with me and my dad is in Jax, Fla. So I've been having to go in between 2 states to try and get them 2 straight. I'm also fixing to finally start the bridge program at South Georgia College in May and I'm trying to get through these last 2 classes I have to have before then. My daughter has some kind of cyst on her spine that she's being treated for and I'm worried about her and my oldest boy just got threw out of the military! JESUS, I'm a busy ass woman just trying to keep up with what life is throwing and also be able to find the time to work dialysis again and finish school.

 I'd love to be able to come back here and hang out again like I used to. I met alot of nice people here that I miss alot. But we got'a do what we got'a do, right?

Well this is gonna be short and sweet. Got'a get up at 3AM to get ready to get back to work. These weekends are getting shorter and I really wanna vacation! LMAO!

Just wanted to say I wish everyone well and best wishes for all of our journeys...No matter what they are or where they may take us :)

Love Ya'll,
Deb

Here I am again Margaret LOL

I'm down to 182# as of this morning :) This has been a ride from hell at times but I wouldn't change any of it. I have been having some health issues I wanted to post. My left leg below the knee has went numb and I have been dx with "foot drop" I have to have a Mylogram, Nerve Conduction Study (NCV) and a Electromyogram (EMG) to try and figure out whats going on. The doc says that ppl that have this surgery have problems with Pernicious Anemia. We do not have the "intrinsic factor" anymore therefore our bodies can not utilize B12. We HAVE to take the shots once a month. But no one told me about it and there's some things that you know but you have to be reminded from time to time or you forget. I knew this but I'd forgotten. So he's done some blood work and is checking B12 levels, Homocystien and methylcolonic acid levels. One of these is an enzyme that comes from the heart and the other come from protein metabolism (eating alot of protein). I'm hoping that a shot or pill will fix me because I'm tired of dragging around this foot/leg. Ppl think I've had a stroke and some think I have a fake leg/foot!!! Geez...it's like trading one evil for another :(

I'm doing OK other than that. My weight loss has slowed to a crawl but ppl say losing it slowly is better than fast because your skin has time to retract...IF it's going to. I still need plastics, I have NO boobs left and I just need someone to "shape" me through my trunk and I'd prolly lose another 25# and that would deff put me where the doc wants me to be. I only want to be at 180 but he wants me at 150 so...I'm purty much through with the weight loss part and now I'm fixing to go into the "maintaining" mode. Need plastics and then my journey is done :) *BIG SIGH* I'm happy with myself, would do it again, my heart has no structural damage from the CHF. My cardiologist is a happy camper about that, LOL :)

I'm in my last semester at South Georgia College getting the final core courses before the "Bridge Program" starts up in May. Then 1 yr. and I'll be an RN! I need my ASN purty bad...my financial future depends on it...So if the LORD's willing and the creek don't rise, LOL

It'll prolly be another couple of months before I come on here and blog again. But ya'll can holler at me when ya' will and I'll holler back when I can. I get up at 3am M-TH, and work as a Dialysis Nurse/Supervisor, then classes, don't get in bed till around 10pm. But I promise to try and get back with ya'll asap :)

Love you guys and couldn't have done this without you! OH and its ppls are the best!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

(((((((((((((((((BIG HUGZZZZZ)))))))))))))))))
Deb

STATS;
182#
Jeans size 10
Shirt size L
Scrubs bottoms Med.
Scrubs top L
Bra 36D
Panties 7
Shoes are still a 10W womens LOL

Good luck my friends :)

Well here I am, 1 year out and...drum roll please...*snicker*...170# LOST!!!!!!!!!!

I was turned onto this site by a friend I met in LPN school. She herself has had the Gastic By-Pass over in Brunswick. If it wouldn't have been for her I'd have never known about the VSG and that it would be affordable enough for me to actually be able to have one performed! I'd do it again in a heart beat! This is a very good, informational web site for the obese from all walks of life! I thank GOD they came up with this place. It has saved my life through the grace of GOD and the skill of a surgeons hand.

It hasn't been easy to say the least, with all the getting too full too fast and throwing up or getting the slimmies, hurting in the chest, etc...This is a journey, one you have to get used to and follow the rules. Which I'm sorry to say I have not. Which I believe if I would've I would have already lost the 183# that was my goal by this time.

I don't care the responses I get to this, if any. But it's true =/

I didn't follow the rules from the very beginning. On the flight home I was at an airport and went over to some Mexican restaurant and ordered a bowl of some kind of hot and spicy soup. That, by the way, I found out about on this website. Although I didn't drink much of it, it was very hot to me (I was about 4 days post-op) and I wished afterwords that I hadn't have eaten it. Thank the LORD I haven't had a problem AT ALL! NO leaks, NO problems AT ALL!! The thing with this is, you eat because your hungry yes, but for me and me alone (my post, my opinion) its so hard to get used to how much is too much =/ I've always had grinlin (sp?) I do get hungry and always have. I had to stop coming here because it was so very depressing that some people didn't have the feelings of hunger when I was sitting here starving =/ Or at least I thought I was LOL
I honestly didn't know if the $11,000.00 would be worth it or not. But here I sit 1 year post-op and can say that YES! This surgery has been a miracle for me. No more CHF, No more HTN, No more Edema! I can even jog! Just a little for right now, but you have to crawl before you walk,,,Right?

Although I don't come in and post like I used to, I do still come in and read from time to time. And I'm always keeping up with my ticker =) I have added some pics from Halloween but they really don't do me any justice because of what I'm wearing LOL But I'm gonna get one of the kids to take a pic with some other clothes on to be able to show the extreme difference very soon...

If anyone would like to ask questions about my experience in MX or about my journey through the past year. I'll be more than willing to answer them =)

I miss you guys-Keep in touch if ya' like =)
CYA......Ms_Deb

PS
Here are some stats;
Starting weight- 363
Starting clothes size-5X or 30W
Bra size-48D

Weight now-193
Clothes size now-12 jeans/L shirt
Bra size-38C

As you can see, I've shrunk a whole lot over the past year. Even not following directions like I should've, I still think I've done a good job and I LOVE MY SLEEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been working my ass off trying to get the last 20# off. And although it's been hard as hell, it"s do-able. I had to join the gym back in the middle of May because the weight was just stopping and I wasn't through yet! I didn't pay $11,000.00 to NOT reach at least under 200#!!!!!! So I guess I got a little bit mad at myself and joined the gym and took my frustrations out there. IT'S WORKED!!!!!!!! =)

I remember back when I was planning the VSG in MX. I told my bf at the time, "If I can just lose to under 250#, or if I could lose say, 150#, that's a WHOLE person! I bet I would FEEL amazing!!!!!!" And here I sit about to cry cause I made, you could say, my first REAL goal! For a woman to have had 3 kids, and got up to nearly 400# I really don't look that bad without clothes on, considering...Of course I have some extra skin that will need to be removed. And my PCP says that I'd probably lose about 3" everywhere if I did have it removed. But alas, I need lots of money for that cause my insurance sucks!!!!

I'm sitting here right now about in tears! It's an amazing and proud personal moment for me =) I really can't believe I'm even sitting here typing this right now, I probably would've been dead if not for the VSG and the LORD willing by now. I was a "walking time bomb" my cardiologist had said. This time last year I couldn't even walk to my mail box without feeling as though I was gonna pass out! And now I get up every morning, go to the gym for 2 hours, and sweat my ass off! I can walk a brisk 2 miles without getting winded, I have even started running a little bit on the tread mill. RUNNING! I haven't ran since I was a teen!!!!!!! I wasn't this proud of myself when I graduated with my LPN, and probably won't be as proud when I graduate with my RN!!!!!!! To go from having CHF, HTN, and edema in my legs so bad, I'd cry when I walked because it hurt so bad. I'd need a buggy to hang onto when I'd go to WalMart! Now I'm running! OMG! HE is good to each and every one of us, and gives us the capacity to do ANYTHING in this world we WANT to. It's all in how bad do WE want it!
GOD is GOOD!!!!!!!!!!! And today is a great, blessed day for me!
Now lemme close this thing before I blow up my computer with all this water flowing from my eyes! =)
Thank you GOD, OH friends, VSG, Dr. Aceves, and ME!!!! =)
I still got 30+ #'s to go, but it'll come, I just have to be patient, and persevere 
GOD BLESS US ALL!!!!!!!!!!

Well here I am again...
Last month I was having such a hard time losing anymore weight. I went to the gym and joined with my daughter (which quit going about 2 weeks after I joined), so I go everyday, by myself. My motivation is that I added on tanning to my package. So if I go in to tan I got'a work out! No excuses there, LOL.
I have started losing again but not alot at a time. It's very slow going, the guy at the gym sold me this HUGE thing of protien called ELITE. Its really good, can't hardly taste the protien once you mix it up.
I went to a nutritionalist because my labs are still out'a wack. She said for me to start mixing my protein with skim milk and a hand full of fruit, she said I'm just not getting in what my body needs to function. I'd started having black outs and thats why I finally broke down and went to her. I'd been taking my pills and doing what I was supposed to to lose weight but not what I was supposed to to be and stay healthy. And thats the reason for this surgery after all is to be healthy. Not skinny and unhealthy. But I'm now at 217# and look great, everyone keeps telling me I don't need to lose any more but I want to get well under 200# and maintain. My bf calls me his "Bronze Goddess" now =) LOL
Life is life-My boy that was in Iraq came back and saw the family for a week. He left out this morning to go back to Fort Hood TX, where's he's stationed at for the time being. I sure do miss'm already!
I'm still trying to do the RN thing...its hard! But doable...
Well thats me and my boring ass life lol....Be back soon =)

Well this isn't at my 6 mo. mark, little late here, but it'll do...
I'm a little depressed here...Since moving in with my daughter I haven't lost a thing :/ I know I'm not eatting what I should but I'm staying within the weight limits but can still eat ALOT more than I used 2. Hungry more often also. I take my pills yada yada......I did join the gym were she has membership cause she wants to lose 15# so I told'r I'd go with her so we could help each other. Well I just joined this week and have went a total of 6 hrs. and haven't lost a # :(
I weight 226#, have lost a total of 137#, went from 28-30W / 5X, to a 16W / XL. I've cut my hair short because it started thinning on the top and crown of my head, and it was noticable. I also have naturally curly hair and can even cover up a bad hair cut with this mess! LOL My hairdresser said for me to up my protein, and gave me a protein additive as a leave-in-conditioner. Got'a go back the first of July for him to check out any progress.
Even if I stop here, I think I'd still be somewhat satisfied :) I weigh what I did 10 yrs. ago, I'm ALOT healthier, and I WANT to go to the gym and workout for a bit. Makes me feel good in a weird kind'a way LOL But I would still LOVE to meet my personal goal of 180#...That would really be nice! So what do ya' do? I recon keep on keeping on, right?
Welp, that's me right now...I'll holler again and update ya'll from time to time...I ain't forgot ya'll :)

I haven't been around here for awhile. I started college again trying to Bridge over to get my RN and between going to classes, studin', work, and family I just haven't had the time to get on here to blog anything. So here's an update on the surgery stuffs =)

When I started classes, I also stopped working out of anykind. I do try to park just as far away from the school as possible so I can get that extra step in, but that's it. With the weather being as cold as it is I really don't wanna get out there and do anything, LOL. Maybe when it warms up some I'll try and fit it in. Right now I'm freezing!!!!!!!! I've always been the one in the room that's sitting there sweating in 30 degree weather. Now it can be 70 in my house and I got on a sweat suit and coat and still bitching I'm cold! LOL Go figure!
I can eat whatever I please, nothing makes me sick or nauseous. I probably could've lost more by now, but because of the way I'm eating I really don't try to deprive myself of what I want. If I want a Cappichino, I buy it...might make 3 servings out'a it...but I still buy it, etc. I still have good restriction, can't eat but a little bit and I'm done. There are days I think I could eat the paint off the walls but others I don't wanna eat nothing! I've been taking the Nexium I bought while in MX, only 1 time per day. But I take my last one today so I'm going to WalMart to buy some OTC PPI and I'm gonna start taking it 2 times per day. Because I feel hungry alot more than I should. I thought that maybe after my body adjusted to the surgery and things that the hunger would stop or slow down but it hasn't. Everybody says to make sure you take your PPI and if you have to, to take 2. So that's what I'm fixing to start doing and I'll blog here and state whether it worked or not.
Here the other day I saw a friend of mine I went to LPN school with and she's had the RNY and she said I looked so good! It made me feel good until she got on my ass for not eating. She said if I wanted a protein shake for breakfast that was fine but at lunch and supper I needed to eat something to make my tummy get used to digesting food readily. I know all this but that day I just didn't feel like food! After I eat anything I feel full and sometimes about 15 mins or so after I'm done I feel sooooooooooo bad! Not sick bad, just BAD! Like let me go take a power nap bad or something...So I have my days where I just don't wanna go through all that just to get a bite in.
Everybody talks about how much energy they have and all this and that and I have NONE....I take my vitamins and all that it's just sometimes it feels like I have to really put effort into just making myself move from one room to the other! Dunno...I wanna sleep alot too, all this might be from me starting classes again and being mentally exhausted.
I started this on Aug. 9th and lost 37# on my own till sugery day Nov. 1st. and since then I've lost 62# for a GRAND total of 99# !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've lost a small person here LMAO I feel really good sometimes as far as being able to do stuff I used to not be able to. Tie my shoes, walk a distance without being out'a breath, ya'll know the drill LOL. I wish I could have done this years ago!
Needing some clothes here though! I went the other day to the Salvation Army and they only had one pair of capris that I could fit into and they said they were 18's but then I went to WalMart just to try on jeans to see what true size I was and I could fit into a 22 but it was tight, but the 24 was a little lose for my taste...So I decided to put'm back and wait a little longer to see if I could just get the 22's and be done with it. No since in buying 24's and only wear them for a month, then have to get rid of them too. I'm having a problem with the crotches on pants! LMAO All the clothes I have and try on..the crotch wants to hang between my knees! WTF!? I don't wanna wear something that either makes me look like a got a turd in the back or a dick in the front! Come on now! LMAO I think the tag on the capris was messed up or something...But it did put a smile on my face when they fit and the tag said 18 LMAO!!!!!!! I'm freezing and have no clothes! I've been wearing the same 2 pair of pants to school for 2 weeks now! Damn, I need to go to Jacksonville I guess, they got'a BIG Salvation Army down there. Maybe I could get something then....I think that's my biggest bitch about all this is not having anything that looks descent to wear, LMAO
O and one more thing before I go...It is hard to fix food for your family, that they'll eat at least, and you be able to eat too! Everything, or most of everything, my family wants to eat is bad for ME. So alot of the times I'll do a protien shake and be done with it. That's still a very hard part of all this too me. When I was pre-op and I couldn't eat nothing, just drink everything, and they were in here eating the paint off the walls and it was smelling so damn good. (Chicken n Rice, Rice n Beans w/corn bread, spagetti w/ Garlic bread, etc.) I used to cry because I was hungry too! Well that hasn't changed! I still feel depressed when they're all in here eating whatever and it's smelling good and I'm hungry and KNOW I can't eat that stuff....I just leave the room, go sit by myself and cry! I know it's for my own good that I don't eat those things anymore! But it still bothers me cause I'm hungry too! Why didn't Ralph buy anything I could eat if he knew he was gonna be cooking this shit for supper?! Is my thinking, anyways! I feel left out alot, at least from meal time =(
Well, that's been me here lately.....Guess I'll try to update this thing again when I find the time........Take care to whomever reads this and Good luck & GOD bless us all on our own journeys....

I haven't posted on here in awhile so I wanted to do an update...
I'm 7 weeks out and I'm doing OK I suppose. As of last week I'd lost 34# since surgery. Since my pre-op diet (Aug. 9th) 71#. I bought me a bike, to which I haven't owned since I was like 13yo, LOL. I've been riding at least 3 days per week for 1 hour to 2 1/2 hours. I've been plugging in TheDailyPlate everything that passes my lips and with me riding the bike I've been keeping a deficit of KCALS on the days I ride. I've been trying to make the best choices as far as food/drink is concerned. BUT late at night I'm still having problems with munching. Although all day long I'm a good girl and I eat when and what I'm supposed to, as soon as the sun goes down, it's on like hambone!!! During these times I really try hard to keep to the high protein stuff, but I get so tired of all the protein. I have ate a salad once and it was so good! I also open a can of green beans and nuke'm and if I get the munchies I'll eat 1/4 cup of those. Green beans have barely anything in them so they're OK to eat. I still have the mind set as to what the hell have I done to myself. I'll be eating something that tastes so good and really want just a serving size at least of it but can't get more than a few bites of pure protein in at a time. Usually I'll eat about every 2 hours or so, because unlike some ppl I still get hungry but because I can only eat so much at a time I'm getting hungry not too long after I eat. I do not drink before, during or after meals but the hunger still comes back within a few hours. I love crunchy things, but in order to have anything crunchy I have to eat things that aren't really that good for me. And yes,,,I have ate things I knew I wasn't supposed to. My son brought home some chocolate covered cherries, and my bf a almond snicker bar =( Well hell of course I'm gonna want some. But I've limited myself to 1 bite and let it go after that. If they just wouldn't bring the shit home I wouldn't be bothered by it! My bf cooked hot wings knowing I have a vise for them. I ate hot wings for 2 days! Although they do have some decent protein they're deep fried so here we go with the fat! Needless to say if I would have went strictly by what everybody says your supposed to eat I probably would've lost more than I have. I went to MX so I have no NUT to ask what are the limits, choices, etc. So I come here but when I ask here about eating certain things I get flamed about it...I'm doing the best I can considering...I'm glad I had the surgery cause I wouldn't be at the weight I am without it. I'm glad I had the surgery because if I hadn't I would be eating the paint off the walls. But sometimes still I get those feelings that with all the money I put into this surgery I should be following the rules and changing eating habits and the relationship that I've had with food all my life or all of this will be for nothing. The night time munchies are my down fall I know this. Not having the will pwer to tell my family and be firm about it to keep that junk shit out'a my house...These are just a few...But I am proud of the fact that I'm riding my bike and I am consciously trying to make better food choices for myself. The bf keeps bitching about how much money just my food costs in compare to the family as a whole. But damn, he knew this wasn't gonna be a cheap ride! I still have problems getting in all my water and all my protein in the same day. One day I'm able to get in all the fluids and the next day I get in all the protein but not all my fluids. I have noticed though that IF I can/could do both, and I have a couple of days, I do lose better and more at a time. I try to change things up so as to not let my body go into starvation mode. I did have a stall for about a week early out, but as soon as I upped the intake it broke easily and I started going down again. I think this is the clue...to get it all in, in the same day in order to lose. I'll keep trying and I'll keep updating this thing from time to time. I have to remind myself of this thing because I get so busy with trying to find work, riding my bike, and thinking about what I'm eating,,,it's hard to remember it all, LMAO...Anyway...till next time =)

Just wanted to say today that yesterday was the first time I've gotten sick since surgery and puked! I fixed my plate with just a tiny bit of stuff, done great, had leftovers, felt fine! Then later everybody went back for more ('bout 4hours later), and I grabbed a piece of turkey. I put the last bite in my mouth and knew it wasn't going down! I was so damn full I couldn't even swallow my spit!!!!!!!!!!! Yeah, I puked, but my chest still hurt afterwards, just not as bad.
Other than this I've been feeling fine, eating whatever my tummy can handle, I still need to learn to slow down eating, and not eat so much!!!!!!!!!!! I'm gonna get this thing! There is a learning curve! I thought I really, really knew what I was getting into. But you never know until you walk in the shoes! If I could just figure this thing out, I'd be fine! I just haven't been able to say, OK I KNOW I can eat this, this much, and I'll be satisfied, without being stuffed, or sick. When I get there I'll be a very happy camper. Right now I'm more concerned at getting there than I am losing the damn weight!!!!!!!!!!!!. Don't know how that's going yet this week, trying to stay away from the scales.
Anyways, maybe next week I'll be down some. That would help my feelings some =)