msbjames1
Eating Disorder?
Apr 07, 2011
They said my surgery is just a tool. I have been trying to remind myself of that as well. It is working well on it's own but I haven't been doing what I was trained or told to do. I am to work out everyday; stay away from high fat/sugar foods; and don't eat chips or crackers. I haven't followed these directions to a T yet.
Granted I am still losing weight because I can't put the food in. But one day I was craving sweets so bad I was able to scarf down a whole chocolate cup cake, a WHOLE one. I felt bad afterwards, more guilt than anything, but I didn't get sick like they said I would. I guess because I got the sleeve and not the by-pass I can get a way with crap like that. That scares me!
One day I was making macaroni and cheese and baking chicken nuggets for the kids. I took a bite of the chicken nugget just to see if it was done. Realizing I wasn't supposed to do that I got scared, thinking I would get sick because I'm not supposed to eat chicken until I'm six months out of the surgery. The nugget did absolutely nothing to me and it tasted great. Needless to say, I finished that nugget.
I have been doing risky things like this and I know that if I keep it up I will eventually stretch my stomach back out and gain my weight back if I don't learn how to eat right now. I don't want to be like some people who get the by-pass surgery and eat their way out of it. I'm only on the turkey and overcooked veggies right now. But I don't know what to do with my cravings. I get hungry sometimes and I guess I'll just have to pay attention to whether or not I truly am.
My cousin Viv got the gastric by-pass just about 3 years ago. She has a 2 year old daughter and a drinking problem. She doesn't believe you can eat yourself out of the surgery even though she's seen people who have done it. Her motto is you can eat anything you want, it just has to be in small portions. With gastric surgery you have no choice but to eat in small portions. But I don't believe you can eat anything you want. She is beginning to gain her weight back but she says it's just her excess skin. Now she wants to get a tummy tuck and lipo. What are they going to do about the fat around her face? She doesn't see that. That's not extra skin, it's weight gain, but she won't listen to me.
She says, "Wait until you are 3 or 4 years out. You're going to be eating the way used to." With my little binging of snacks I wonder if she is right. She claims the baby and not working out for a month is causing her excess weight. She never claims the alcohol has anything to do with her weight gain. I have to get on this exercise kick to improve my outcomes.
On a good note, I've lost 37 pounds in 9 weeks. I no longer have to take blood pressure meds and I feel great. To be honest, I really don't care if I get any smaller. My doctor wants me to get down to 150, 160 as soon as I can (by July 1). That's only 30 pounds more.
I'm sure I can make it if I were to add exercise regularly to my daily life. It's funny, I always imagine myself running or doing what we call in basketball "lines." When I did make it to the gym I actually felt comfortable enough to jog on the eliptical for 20 minutes. That was a great workout, but I haven't been back since. My excuse is I don't have the car to get to the gym or when I do have the car I'm too busy running other errands. I hate that about my procrastinating self. I know I need to get up, walk, do something productive besides play games on pogo.com.
I want to be more active but I'm just so damn lazy. I'm gonna have to get a Nike poster that says "Just Do It" like I had in college when I had to write essays. I even bought myself a new pair of walking shoes and found out that I didn't wear an 8 1/2 because of my weight but a 7 1/2 wide. I'm glad I know my shoe size now.
Here's to overcoming weight issues, eating disorders and all......
0 comments
Granted I am still losing weight because I can't put the food in. But one day I was craving sweets so bad I was able to scarf down a whole chocolate cup cake, a WHOLE one. I felt bad afterwards, more guilt than anything, but I didn't get sick like they said I would. I guess because I got the sleeve and not the by-pass I can get a way with crap like that. That scares me!
One day I was making macaroni and cheese and baking chicken nuggets for the kids. I took a bite of the chicken nugget just to see if it was done. Realizing I wasn't supposed to do that I got scared, thinking I would get sick because I'm not supposed to eat chicken until I'm six months out of the surgery. The nugget did absolutely nothing to me and it tasted great. Needless to say, I finished that nugget.
I have been doing risky things like this and I know that if I keep it up I will eventually stretch my stomach back out and gain my weight back if I don't learn how to eat right now. I don't want to be like some people who get the by-pass surgery and eat their way out of it. I'm only on the turkey and overcooked veggies right now. But I don't know what to do with my cravings. I get hungry sometimes and I guess I'll just have to pay attention to whether or not I truly am.
My cousin Viv got the gastric by-pass just about 3 years ago. She has a 2 year old daughter and a drinking problem. She doesn't believe you can eat yourself out of the surgery even though she's seen people who have done it. Her motto is you can eat anything you want, it just has to be in small portions. With gastric surgery you have no choice but to eat in small portions. But I don't believe you can eat anything you want. She is beginning to gain her weight back but she says it's just her excess skin. Now she wants to get a tummy tuck and lipo. What are they going to do about the fat around her face? She doesn't see that. That's not extra skin, it's weight gain, but she won't listen to me.
She says, "Wait until you are 3 or 4 years out. You're going to be eating the way used to." With my little binging of snacks I wonder if she is right. She claims the baby and not working out for a month is causing her excess weight. She never claims the alcohol has anything to do with her weight gain. I have to get on this exercise kick to improve my outcomes.
On a good note, I've lost 37 pounds in 9 weeks. I no longer have to take blood pressure meds and I feel great. To be honest, I really don't care if I get any smaller. My doctor wants me to get down to 150, 160 as soon as I can (by July 1). That's only 30 pounds more.
I'm sure I can make it if I were to add exercise regularly to my daily life. It's funny, I always imagine myself running or doing what we call in basketball "lines." When I did make it to the gym I actually felt comfortable enough to jog on the eliptical for 20 minutes. That was a great workout, but I haven't been back since. My excuse is I don't have the car to get to the gym or when I do have the car I'm too busy running other errands. I hate that about my procrastinating self. I know I need to get up, walk, do something productive besides play games on pogo.com.
I want to be more active but I'm just so damn lazy. I'm gonna have to get a Nike poster that says "Just Do It" like I had in college when I had to write essays. I even bought myself a new pair of walking shoes and found out that I didn't wear an 8 1/2 because of my weight but a 7 1/2 wide. I'm glad I know my shoe size now.
Here's to overcoming weight issues, eating disorders and all......
Food Anxiety 6 weeks and 5 days out
Mar 19, 2011
Man, I knew this surgery would be a scary thing to do. I knew there would be a lot of changes I would have to make. But I didn't think it would be this hard! My surgeon put me on a fish and soft food regimen longer than was scheduled in my Kaiser info and the info his office gave me. He says right now I need to take advantage of the first six months to lose as much weight as I can. I'm not even trying to be skinny. I just want to get rid of all of the co-morbid conditions I have. Within six months my body will be used to what I am doing and my metabolism will go into starvation mode I guess.
It is so hard to eat because you have to limit what you can take in (usually 4 oz. per serving) and the variety of foods you can eat SUCK!!! I am so sick of eating tuna. And if I get canned salmon, I have to fix it the same way. Same taste, just fishier. Then they say I'm not allowed to have tortilla chips or crackers with any of the fish stuff I have to eat. Not having any carbs at all is driving me crazy. I get so freakin hungry. I thought this surgery was supposed to take away my hunger pangs because the part of the stomach they cut off will no longer produce the hunger hormone. Man, I was hungry the day after my surgery. When I asked my surgeon about this he said yeah, we can't really pinpoint how hunger works. They should have told me that in the beginning! Maybe I would have made a different decision.
I tried buying a cook book for people after weight loss surgery to get different recipes. Of course this book was published in 2004 and according to it I can damn near eat anything under the sun as long as I puree it. My surgeon's team says no, no, no. You have to introduce one food item to your diet one at a time, a thimble at a time. Are they crazy? Who can eat like that, especially when you have hunger pangs like me. I think everyone is different.
I went to a nurse practitioner last Monday for post-bariatric maintenance I guess you can say. I was hoping she would be able to give me some food pointers. Her answer was to try tofu. Tofu has no flavor. I have no problem getting enough protein in my diet. Then she tells me I'm only supposed to be eating 400-600 calories per day. LOL I didn't think I was getting that at all. When I tracked my food intake on the Food Log on this website, boy was I surprised. Yesterday I ate 1100 calories worth of stuff, using other people's recipes. Today I only ate 800, but that still more than what is recommended at this stage of eating. No wonder I've been at the same weight for 2 weeks. =)
I know that if I exercised it would help as well. I still haven't integrated exercise into my daily life. I will say I do feel better and I am glad that I can fit into my clothes a lot better. I know I have work to do but I'm still trying to get this eating thing down. Why am I so freakin hungry?!?!?!?!
0 comments
It is so hard to eat because you have to limit what you can take in (usually 4 oz. per serving) and the variety of foods you can eat SUCK!!! I am so sick of eating tuna. And if I get canned salmon, I have to fix it the same way. Same taste, just fishier. Then they say I'm not allowed to have tortilla chips or crackers with any of the fish stuff I have to eat. Not having any carbs at all is driving me crazy. I get so freakin hungry. I thought this surgery was supposed to take away my hunger pangs because the part of the stomach they cut off will no longer produce the hunger hormone. Man, I was hungry the day after my surgery. When I asked my surgeon about this he said yeah, we can't really pinpoint how hunger works. They should have told me that in the beginning! Maybe I would have made a different decision.
I tried buying a cook book for people after weight loss surgery to get different recipes. Of course this book was published in 2004 and according to it I can damn near eat anything under the sun as long as I puree it. My surgeon's team says no, no, no. You have to introduce one food item to your diet one at a time, a thimble at a time. Are they crazy? Who can eat like that, especially when you have hunger pangs like me. I think everyone is different.
I went to a nurse practitioner last Monday for post-bariatric maintenance I guess you can say. I was hoping she would be able to give me some food pointers. Her answer was to try tofu. Tofu has no flavor. I have no problem getting enough protein in my diet. Then she tells me I'm only supposed to be eating 400-600 calories per day. LOL I didn't think I was getting that at all. When I tracked my food intake on the Food Log on this website, boy was I surprised. Yesterday I ate 1100 calories worth of stuff, using other people's recipes. Today I only ate 800, but that still more than what is recommended at this stage of eating. No wonder I've been at the same weight for 2 weeks. =)
I know that if I exercised it would help as well. I still haven't integrated exercise into my daily life. I will say I do feel better and I am glad that I can fit into my clothes a lot better. I know I have work to do but I'm still trying to get this eating thing down. Why am I so freakin hungry?!?!?!?!