Muffin22
Things are starting to smooth out
Apr 29, 2009
I go back to work next week, I really didn't want to but now, I feel it's a need. I've pretty much turned into mush. I'm feeling a lot better. As a minister I can always see the light at the end. Well I didn't feel that way i felt like I was dying and wished I never did the surgery. I was so miserable back and forth to the ER for fluids because I couldn't keep anything down and almost everything made me puke the smells and taste we so awful. Now as the bible say this too shall pass. Praise God.
I'm now a month out and down 64 lbs. I'm so happy, I'm working out and have more energy than a little bit. I still have trouble eating and drinking but that is not so bad anymore. When I started being able to eat and drink I would eat and drink grapefruit juice and eat collard greens. Man oh man I was ecstatic. I eat a lot of fruit bars. I gained 10 lbs the week I started eating but now I'm back on track as I assume by body is functioning the way it should. My insulin intake has been limited so much. I'm learning the things I can take and can't take. I had a small sandwich yesterday and found that if I cut the crust off I am able to tolerate the bread. Also I can't eat any kind of meat in the whole form. I have to cook it till it shreds. I eat so much soup now that I don't feel weird buying that much or even ordering it when i go out. I love the look on the waitresses face when I order a cup of soup and that's it. LOL never to mention my bill is so much smaller now.
I have a real problem though, I go to the grocery store everyday. I use to hate to go to the grocery store. It was such a task. but now I have this thing in my head that I can still eat those things I did before and would go out and buy it. Well needless to say I have full cabinets and a full freezer. I know it's in my head so continue to pray with me that my thinking changes.
I go back to the hospital next week for dilation so that they can open my opening to my pouch bit more. This scares me. I don't want to gain weight as I see it's so easy to put it back on. I'm quite comfortable with the way things are now. Well those are the brakes (old skool rap...lol) We'll see how that goes. This is definitely a journey.
Anyhow, I just wanted to drop in and let everyone know how things are going for me.... oh yeah, I can get into the clothes I wore two years ago, a 3X t-shirt is now loose on me and those 26/28 tops are also loose around the belly. I'm also loosing my big boobs. I guess they were fat.
Stay blessed and thank you for being my friends during this journey. I really appreciate you all. My sistah that lost your mom. May God continue to bless your family and may you find comfort in know that she is at peace and that he will continue to take care of you. My sympathy is with you and your family at this time along with my prayers.
