T Minus Twelve Hours...

Oct 14, 2007

10/14/2007 9:15pm

I am officially getting a little nervous. I just had the talk with my aunt to tell her where my life insurance papers are, and what my directive is. I feel a little nauseous and am really ready to get this step over with and move on to the next one. 

My husband has decided to spend my last night at home with his friends having beers. It did give me some QT with my girls though. 

Anyway, wish me luck! I'm off to bed to try and get some sleep before the big day.
 


Survived my final work week!!!

Oct 12, 2007


10/12/2007

It's official! I was able to complete my pre-op liquid diet working in a group environment without any of my staff questioning my diet. I was simply pro-active in my discussions about what I ate, indicating that I was having some stomach issues and everything was causing me upset. It wasn't really an inaccurate statement. My stomach was upset that I wasn't giving it any food.

My final weekend is here. I am going to spend some quality time with my children, as well as get some affairs in order. I have every confidence that my surgery will be a success. However, I cannot be foolish when it comes to my family's well being. I will be placing important documents in an easy to find location. I'm sure I'll just put them away when I get home on Wednesday. I have to say that reading the 10 page consent form that my surgeon required I sign really brought it home for me this week. Sure we read the risks involved with this surgery and educate ourselves to the nth degree. But to see it all wrapped up in a very large, all inclusive document is quite powerful. As I left work today, I thought just for a second, "this could be the last time I see these folks." Wow... 

Even with that said, I will march forward and know that whatever is meant to happen, will happen. I know there is a reason I went down this path. And there's no taking me off of it now. 

Whole new life, here I come... 

Halfway Through the Pre-Op

Oct 11, 2007

Okay, so I've survived 3.5 days. I am officially halfway through! Honestly, I don't feel it's as hard as I suspected it would be. Yeah, I am dog tired and have pretty minimal energy, but I still feel "okay". I am following it to the "T" and will not stray. The way I see it, if I can't modify my behaviors for a week before this life-altering surgery, I shouldn't be having life-altering surgery. As of this morning, I've already lost 12 lbs. Sadly I am hoping to be down to the original weight I was for my consultation with my surgeon on the day of surgery.

I am just becoming so excited about what lies ahead. All of my pre-op testing went well. The barium I had to drink for my upper GI was foul, but it did fill me up and made the hunger nausea stop. It will take a few days to fully recover from it though. 

Tomorrow is my last day at work. I look forward to not having to drink broth in front of everyone and having to answer questions. In case I forgot to mention it, I have elected to keep my decision to have surgery very private. There are some select friends and select family members that I have shared this with in order to build the support system I will need to get through this. The individuals I felt would not support me, or that I felt would judge me, may never know. This decision was huge and was not made in haste. I decided that I was willing to risk dying in order to live life differently. No one is entitled to voice, or even form, an opinion on this very personal choice.

Last day of "normal" consumption

Oct 06, 2007

10/7/2007

Well, I start my less-than-desirable pre-op diet tomorrow. I think I've been dreading it more than the actual surgery. I just got on the scale to document my final (and highest) weight before surgery. I got a sick feeling when I looked at the scale. I have officially gained 20 pounds since my initial consultation with my surgeon. That was in June! So I averaged 5 lbs per month since I began this process. Thank heavens I was approved! Sadly, I think I approached every meal like it was my last once I made the decision to do this. Oh well, I'm certain that I've reached the peak and can only go downhill from here. Over the past few days, I've found myself drawn to the "Memorials" forum on this site. I guess I've just been so gung ho since I got my approval, with little or no fear of the risks faced, that I felt compelled to "keep it real". I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. We may not always understand the reason, but in time it always comes out. If this is my time to go, then so be it. I truly believe though that it is not my time. I was put on this planet to make my girls the most incredible adults they can be. I'm not done with them yet. I believe, instead, that I am embarking on an incredible journey. One that will allow me to experience "normal".


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O'Fallon, MO
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10/15/2007
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Oct 28, 2003
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