Nannyre2U
Beauty for Ashes
Nov 04, 2009
† Beauty for Ashes Volume 3 is what my latest Journal's Title reads. Volume 1 contained all of my pre-op stuff--questions, apts., thoughts, studies, notes, etc. There were the before pix and the after pics. Whenever my magazines and newsletters came in, I'd study them and insert any note worthy lessons inside it. It was filled to the six month mark with the miracles that happened during the first days and weeks of my recovery from a lifetime of obesity. Beauty For Ashes Volume 2 was the beginning of yet a new chapter when I decided to jumpstart a stall in weightloss and diary my food and liquid intake along with activity for a period of time. It too contained apts., pictures, thoughts and the likes. In the inside cover of that journal, I posted my Louisiana Handicap I.D. card, since I no longer consider my self handicapped. Other pictures and cards and notes were included as well. Somewhere mid summer, my journal came up missing and I was distraught. I could only commit my feelings to God but my fear was that someone other than me would find my journal. My journals have always been MY journals. I have never given thought that someone other than myself would have access to them and the thought of it falling into the wrong hands troubled me alot. Nonetheless, I began Volume three on the day that Paul went to have his surgery. I knew I needed to continue dialouging and during such a crucial time too! So first stop before surgery center was to Books a Million to find just the right one. I have been writing my thoughts for a life time. I find it to be much cheaper than a therapist and more beneficial too. (Let me interject that I gratefully located Volume 2, trapped beneath the springs of my recliner--mangled and broken--but recovered just the same!) I am currently half-way thru Volume 3 of Beauty for Ashes and this volume contains information about my thoughts one year out. It has greeting cards from people congratulating me, some that I didn't know much more than a year ago. It has pictures of the new me that I'm learning to love as well of pictures of the old me that I hardly recognize. On the anniversary of my surgery, I sat down and looked through my first two journals and marveled at the journey I've been on. I can honestly say that I am a living breathing miracle. Without wls, I do not think I would be here today. Looking back over the year I want to shout to the world--NEVER,NEVER, NEVER, GIVE UP! It's my motto, my creed!
my latest "wow moment" happened this morning...
Jul 30, 2009
Food is Fuel for the Body
May 28, 2009
O Happy Day! to my fellows here! Hugs to All! Yesterday I woke in despair and decided I didn't want to spend another day the way the past few weeks had been spent--stalled and sloppy habits reappearing. So I called on YouKnowWho, turned my jumbled emotions into a prayer of faith and determined not to fail, I took some drastic measures. I diaryed my food and fluids--something I've resisted since day one! (Seemed too much like the old diet patterns to me.) I have to say that yesterday was one of the best days in a long long time! I was able to resist the temptation to "snack" inappropriately. I got in my three meals, snacks and 118.5 oz of water! I am so excited about yesterday's achievements that I'm geared up to do it all over again today! I also recognized last night when I journaled the date that it was my SEVEN MONTH SURGIVERSARY! With that revelation, I broke out a brand new journal to log all of my stuff. Revisiting my first WLS journal was a bit emotional and amazing at the same time. My first journal was titled BEAUTY FOR ASHES! I titled this one the same--Volume 2. Inside the cover, I taped my Mobility Impaired ID Card with my pitiful little "fluffy" picture. I celebrate no longer being fluffy and no longer being Mobility impaired today! I celebrate a lot of things! I celebrate! (WOW!) Here's a little something I copied from Journal #1 to Journal #2. Maybe it will inspire you too.
FOOD IS FUEL
NOTHING MORE
FOOD IS NOT A HOBBY
FOOD IS NOT A DRUG
FOOD IS NOT A FRIEND
FOOD IS NOT A CELEBRATION
FOOD IS FUEL FOR MY BODY
NOTHING MORE NOTHING LESS
Hugs to each of you and a deep appreciation for your friendship and company on this Fantastic Voyage!
Marie Nannyre Alleman
Six months ago today...
Apr 27, 2009
Big Big Hug,
Nannyre (Marie)
L is for LOSERS!
Feb 17, 2009
I said all of that to say this. I am so grateful for this journey that God has me on that I have developed a new prayer of thanksgiving. The other day as I was coming from a boutique after shopping on the NORMAL side, I had this big ole grin on my face and was in so much gratitude that I literally looked up and held the big L sign up to Heaven! It felt so good, it has now become a thing between me and HIM!
And now I've shared it with you, you can do it too, if you'd like! (You LOSER you!)
Beauty for Ashes (My Journal)
Jan 21, 2009
You gotta dance like noone's watching!
Jan 09, 2009
You gotta dance like noone's watching!
Current mood: loved
Category: Life
I've got one of those cute little debit cards that come from a dept store that you can load money onto. This one was designed for fathers day last year. It's on my calendar on my desk to serve as a reminder to me of who my dance partner is. It's a close up snap shot of two pair of legs, one in suit with polished black shoes. The other is a child's bare feet planted securely on top of those nicely polished shoes. Each morning as I report for work, I sit at my desk and see what my day holds and catch a glimpse of the dance. I don't have to go through this life danceless. I don't even have to go a day without my dance. If I listen real intently, I can hear the faint tune of the song my Father is humming in my ear, as he holds out his hand and invites me to dance...