nebrasfield
Pre-op today, 7 more days until surgery!!!
Nov 03, 2009
Hi all. I've been trying to keep myself busy lately and not focus on husband gone and surgery on 11/10. The excitement of the surgery is actually helping with missing my husband though. I am also busy trying to keep my son straight as his daddy is gone. I don't know what or why it is, but he gets out of line in school when his daddy is away. I discipline him, I show him extra attention...I don't know how to solve it. I just know I need to get a hold of it now, because being a military family daddy being gone is a constant throughout the year. It's weird, today I tried the act up in school so no outside, no tv, video games and you do more homework and chores and I made him take a nap when he got home after his snack....well he is still asleep. Imagine that...I kep checking on him to make sure he is ok, but I guess he needed it. The Lord knows what he is doing, so I will pray for peace and let it go.As for my pre-op appt, it went smoothly. I dont know why but I am always expecting other ppl to be so excited. They are excited for me thats for sure, then I think "so you think I am fat?". But you know I was thinking today. No one has ever treated me wrongly around me since I have been an adult about being overweight. It's weird b/c we think all is staring and talking about you and my self esteem has def suffered due to obesity...but all in all I have not been mistreated by anyone. So then I began to realize I am the one who has mistreated myself. I am the one who has degraded myself to thinking everyone is staring and talking about me Now these thoughts also went along with me thinking I need to also get "behind" the obesity in a mental/emotional way along with the physical changes I am making. They say the mental/emotional is the hardest. I dont want to go to a therapist so I am going to use this OH blog as an outlet. I believe it will help.
So again with the pre-op appt...there was a bit of a mix up with my surgery date. They told me 11/10, but they had me down for 11/5...yes 2 days away!!!! Sounded good, but I have been organizing everything for the 10th, the 5th just would not work. As much as I want the skinny to start, I have to not rush this and put everyone, includng myself, in a mad rush. I still need to finish spring cleaning my house before my friend comes to watch over me for a week. So with that fixed, I did some bld work so they could know my bld type incase of a transfusion is needed, took a UA with a preg test (i was praying I wasnt) and I did an EKG. They said that was normal. I also met with the Anesthesiaolgist who was really acted like he was very overworked and uninterested. I didnt let it bother me though, not everyone is going to be excited in this journey.
Oh yeah I got a call from my grandma today. Grandma doesnt call anyone. I wasnt so surprised she called, but I knew it had to do with the surgery. My mom, aunts and uncle are all against me having it. I must admit it didnt even phase me too much to hear them say " no you shouldnt have it". Thats the good thing about being grown. I'm grown now. I listen and I evaluate and I pray...and I go bout MY way. What got me though was they were against it, but not a one did any research on the procedure, they didnt even ask me about the procedure or the journey. And get this, they are all obese 300+. I just smiled and changed the subject. I love them to death, but I dont want it to be my death...you feel me.
Luv ya'll...Niki
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About Me
North Little Rock, AR
Location
40.7
BMI
Surgery
11/10/2009
Surgery Date
Oct 23, 2009
Member Since
Before & After
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Before
343lbs
After, October 2023
230lbs