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Yes that's right, a whole 12 pounds. You can imagine my frustration here. I eat so little, how can this be so slow?

The first week was painful after surgery. I could barely sit up straight in a chair, had to lean back all the time. Getting up out of bed hurt, walking hurt, but really, the pain went away little by little like they said it would. 3 weeks later, the big pains I had on my side and near belly button, were just gone like that. I went back to work as a truck driver in 4 weeks, and have had no pain at all.

I can now eat about 2 bites of meat at a time, but mushy stuff is easier.  Fish is better to eat right now, I can get more in and not be malnourished. I still burp a lot when eating or drinking, and that is a pain. But more tolerable than before, that's for sure.

Everyone else is dropping weight 3 times as fast, I hope this means I won't lose a lot of hair at least.

So far I am frustrated, annoyed, disappointed and trying so hard not to regret this surgery.

If I eat one bite too much, I barf. In front of others, too. Charming. So I try to eat alone at work now, instead of laughing with everyone in the lunchroom like I used to.

I wanted to go to a Polish festival this weekend but why bother. Normally I would sample all the delicious food, but why go this time, to smell it?  Baaah.

Maybe better news next time I write. Oh, I hope so!!!   Bye, -Michelle.

Yes, I am getting nervous. Imagining my family being told that I died. Maybe a blood clot, perhaps a heart attack on the table? Massive stroke? Infection? What will my poor family do? OMG.

I know I have to get ahold of myself and suck it up, just do it like everyone else did successfully. I have had lots of surgeries, big ones. So why such a big deal now? Maybe I never got the warnings of death possibilities from the other surgeries. I keep hearing WLS horror stories.

Well I will try to be brave and just get on with it. A week from now, and I should be all done by this time in the evening.

I will write again before I leave for Michigan, on the 28th. Surgery July 29.  See ya!!

July 29 at Barix, MI. I have to lower my blood pressure drastically before surgery...hope I do it!

I have a new dog, a foster, he is a 9 year old Newfoundland male. He was a neglect case. In one week, he is learning for the first time what love is, and accepting affection finally! Poor guy. Now he lives indoors and is loving it! Nice comfy bed, stable people, good food, what a life! His name was Clyde, I added a better name, "Black Clyde Washington 5X Large". All of my dogs have had elaborate names, so he gets one too! Of course, we just call him Clyde!

Take care, bye, Michelle.  PS, my family will not know about this surgery till after I recover. They would worry themselves for months, why bother.

Well, last time I wrote, I lost my big Newfie, Rosie to a sudden internal bleed, that was devastating. A few days after that I found out our other dog, Nicki, was at the end of his rope, end stage renal failure. We lost him April 6. My beautiful Siberian boy, 10 years old. Now we have no dogs at all. We will be fostering the needy very soon.

I got approval for the vsg, my doctor finally gave in and sent a request that I wanted her to...and Ohip finally approved it. It will be at Barix, dr. pop. First appointment for consult is April 28.

Thanks to all who wondered about whatever happened to me. I was just too depressed to come on the site. But am feeling better these days, not just because of the approval, but because there is hope to save more dogs and make new dog family..adopt more. My dogs are my life.

Tonight, I got into a war with other posters who I always respected. I made a few statements, that others found disgusting and worthless. I offended many people, without intending to at all. I can't apologize, though, as I stand by my words.

I have found this forum to be the best group. Now because I have written some of my observations to the forum, I feel very shunned. I am now outcast, I think.

My points were twisted to be offensive, taken out of context, and taken personally by a few. My comments had nothing to do with anyone specifically, but they were personally offended anyway.

If anyone here had me as a friend, and want to dump me, I won't hold it against you. Or hate you or something.

For the record, I have no ill feelings to anyone I argued with. All are entitled to disagree.

I do ask you to take another look at what I said, and think about it. Was I really that out of line? Oh well, can't please everyone, right? 

Here is a link, if anyone is interested. 
http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/on/3867991/Im-a-newbie-wondering-about-a-DS/

Well, I just lost my gorgeous dog, Rosie, and earlier the same day, my doc told me she was through helping me with my ohip application. We were so close! She just got sick of dealing with stuff she could not bill ohip for, letters and phone calls annoyed her, so she dumped me. Ohip denied my DS app, but asked if I would consider another type of surgery. My answer would have been YES, the VSG in Michigan, by Dr. Pop at Barix! My doctor got so annoyed with how this process was prolonged, that she won't answer ohip for me, she will only refer me to an Ontario surgeon! So now, so close to a possible ohip approval out of country and probably a quick wait, she has screwed me over to ontario wait times of 2 years!

I just faxed her a letter saying, please answer Ohip for me, it won't hurt to answer, it takes the same small effort that a referral to an ontario doc would take. So if helping me as your patient is a waste of your valuable time, at least waste it by helping me save 2 years. I am sure, she won't do anything, but had to give her one last push. If she does not respond to ohip as I asked, I will write the College of Physicians and Surgeons about her moronic behavior.

Then my mother in law calls and says she may have a tumour in her breast.  Great few days, just peachy!! She is such a nice lady, her husband just died of cancer, now this for her? WTF!!!!  It could be something less serious, will know soon.

Tomorrow, I ask my doctor to send away my Ohip app with a signature. I added a grotesque photo to my 3 page letter, asking ohip to please help me. If I ever get surgery and lose weight, I will post that photo. Til then, nobody sees that except my poor husband. I want the DS surgery. I am 5'2", 245 pounds with BMI of 44. No real health issues but history of high blood pressure. I will update blog when I get some kind of response. I just hope my reluctant doctor does not sit on this and waste more time deciding whether to sign. Bye for now!!